well.. its been quite a while alr... time flies, its alr end of e month...

juz saw e wish for gd luck with AA Ca frm kelvin.. haha...paiseh i now then see it...

well.. as wad i said, AA ca is over.. but guess wad... KNNCCB!! i cant bal it la.. damn wasted.. i guess it due to my own carelessness n nt enough pract ba.. i can only blame on my own lazyness n nth else? haha... ahhh well..

i think its abt time i m sick of comin sch early... i can barely wake up earlier than usual.. thank goodness thurs has become off day... haha... actually gt 1 elective.. its optional la.. but i juz go for extra info.. nt only i go there zuo bo, cher sometimes talk de lang n speed ah.. "AKU NO UNDERSTAND!!" xia.. so usually i do my own readin n all la.. so still ok la.. but now, its officially gone.. so shiok la.. now home on thurs.. nt so bad... mayb i shld start findin nite shift work on wed, so tt thurs i can so called sleep my day thru...

anywae.. yest was on e phone with someone whom has last talk 2 me like, quite some time ago.. i cant remb... but anywae.. she used to teach me some yrs ago... till now, my impression to her has nv change.. apparently she was kinda like advice me go poly la... but seriously, where can a GPA 2 pointer go in a poly?? either impossible or else will b give a unwanted course.. mayb i think over it too soon.. but she told me, don think abt anythin now, juz chiong n work hard frm where i m now n do well in exams in feb... i kinda don noe wad to say, cuz its like frm my GPA i see, i kinda hav no thots of goin poly alr.. it somehow has become my indirect last resort... well.. mayb i shld try? or shld i go wad i planned?? i m seriously confused... n her example was reali funny la.. cuz she used her drivin exams as an example... she said"on my drivin exams, i tell myself, i can drive, i will make it!!" n so ya la.. she made it la... its inspirin la.. but i don noe y i find it funny (pardon for my rudeness) but still.. after a long chat.. she had to go do her stuff.. so ya.. end of conv la...

i seriously don noe where my route lies now.. unpredictable n fickle minded me huh... ahh well.. i can only take a step, see my step now... but anywae.. i gt another funny issue to share... guess wad... i been play viwawa a lot these days, esp particular 2 games la.. nt gonna say which 2... anywae.. while playin tt game, i don noe isst my nic or my wawa too nice/"cute" or don noe wad sai la, a lot of despos has been tryin to talk ard la, n i don noe wether to luff or to faint down there.. seriously.. if ppl r desperate, pls use other ways la.. biangs.. conv haven start jiu ask all e nonsense qns, wads worst, u can even ask if ppl wanna go hotel n hav sex??!! biangs.. get a life/room somewhere else pls.... sheez.. ppl wanna play game in PEACE also cannot.... i don noe if its nth betta to do, then come up with this cheesy kind of thing or juz PLAIN HORNY.. sheez... its irri... ppl play game, get to noe ppl, casual chat, fine, but TOLONG LA.. horny or despo, interested in sex chat pls bring it somewhere else... it spoils ppl mood to play in e game la.. eeek... pui~~!!!

anywae.. i end here for now.. comin monday is audit CA.. siao liao la... i hope can do betta than AA a bit?? ><... hopefully can remb all 4 chaps xia.. HOPEFULLY LA...

anywae... song for this entry... The Gazette's new Single, Leech... if ppl u all don mind new songs in ur list, this may b an option?? haha.. enjoy...



OUT~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!

well.. its beg of nov... its a beg of my unhappy month...

why?? cuz 1st up.. was caught for smokin at home?? haha... supposely i deserve it... hahaha... well.. luff it off get on with life.. fine... end up, endless preachin comes in.... tts when it all go haywire....

e more i m being preached, e more i don wanna talk anymore....yes yes ya ya.. its all n always my fault.. i m born let u all see me as a burden... scream at me all u wan.. u all r always rite... n i m e only 1 foreva wrong, wrong n wrong, nv rite in u ppl's sight.... its been almost a wk since i last open my mouth to talk in e hsehold.. e only time i open my mouth, is to tell e hsehold to shut up... bcuz i can barely hear anythin over e phone... other than tt.. nonetheless.. literally speechless at home.. e only time i get to talk is when i m out with frens or in sch...

instead home has become a ice blizard for me... i hav no idea wad i wanna say nor even do anymore... everythin has come to a point where i m hurt badly... isst juz me or m i juz too sensitive at times.... mayb so... i guess.... givin myself an ounce of hope for e betta regardless of wad it is... is juz somethin tt will being by my downfall?? i m seriously very angry, pissed, sad n fustrated.. all come into one formula... but wad does it = to? i hav no idea.. i can barely even find a place to vent my anger.. but instead there is a place n a person tt always came to my mind.... tts where i can find peace to relax my mind a while... but still.. life is full of ups n downs.. it sux when it hits.. n u hav no where to turn to at all... even e slightest person whom u wish to b there, isn... everyone has their own lives to live on.. if u don catch up, u will b left behind... seems to me like i hav gave up n decided to b left behind isn it?

i don noe e ans myself... count myself suay with a lousy fri n sat tt made me injured myself out of e dumbest thing... n somehow gettin all these nonsense... well.. is this heaven's so call "halloween" gift for me?? haha.. sounds cheezed up.. hahahahahaha... this is sooo full of shit... hahahahahahahaha~~ wooo y my tears fallin... hahahahahahahahaha~~ isst sooo funny??? hahahahahahahahaha... i don noe.... hahahahahahahaha...



a song tt makes me felt peaceful for a while... mayb tts y its call rest in peace and fly away......

FLIES AWAY~~~~~~