well... today's moon is one of e nicest i hav eva seen... e 1st one was taken thru e window frm my rm.. while e other... i hack into e ladder to get myself on top of e blk and take.. its was extremely windy... but a nice view.. thou was kinda scared of heights... it was a reali nice feelin... it feels like i can throw off loads of things off my mind... like i can feel freedom... but freedom is never foreva... earnin freedom is always e xian part... well... tts life.. suck it up and move on alr i guess... emo wun get me anywhere... thanx all for e support... i m startin to feel betta... but hor.... if u all still see me in a daze.. feel free to shock me... knock me out of it... HAHAHA!!! yea.. tts all for e day.. lookin forward to sep 12... a fun day awaits... but part of it hopefully will b fri day nite.. y? cuz its BU NENG SUO DE MI MI lor... :X....

cheERZ.... :)

well.. today felt weird as usual.... plus tired....

so head on to sch... got to watched coach carter.. was nice watchin it for e 4th time? i still love ken carter for e way of him bring e team. thou they lost e state championship.. but in everyone's heart, they r e real champs. their teamwork was speechless.... then was lunch

well.. i gotta say.. it was one of e quietiest lunch i hav eva had so far besides e 1st few days of sch... i don know y... but nvm.. shant say much.. as usual.. i was dazin in blank.. didn reali talk much today, cuz i guess e weather made most of us wanna sleep..

so head on to bfd, while waitin. i stare into blank again. while bein caught for bein too quiet. i don know.. somehow now it juz sux to b me.. can anyone juz chat with me. at least it wun make me feel like i m out of place nor think much of it? well.. ppl r busy with their lives and here i m wishin for tt to happen? ppl cant juz always be there all e time. i guess i hav become someone tt i wish for someone or somethin tt i can lean on and catch myself b4 i lose myself. dependent for too long. mayb juz need a break... i don know...

once again, i m back to listenin to e song, tt almost may me cry my heart out in sch while we were doin some com stuff. well.. my ofa grades r out... not as bad as i expected... thankfully there is no need for me to re-take... juz do betta for e upcomin test nxt wed.... which is quite jia lat, cuz i still can catch some parts of it... but some.. i need help... but pros r busy with their own, if not helpin e rest... haha... well.. they r hot stuff to ppl... "get it while its hot"? haha.. i m goin bonkers here again.

anywae... finally finished e day.... head bk home.... i hide myself one corner and juz wanna let it all go... but i m still feelin e nonsense feelin.... well.. end up.. did a bit of cookin for e family... was bein praised few hrs bk... well.. in a scarastic way.... i don know... thou i kinda burnt myself a bit.. apparently wasn lookin over e fire.... haha.. silly me...

its alr nite time.. gosh.. time flies... hav i been wanderin too much? hav nite life been so corrupted tt i have to hate myself for turnin myself back into my old ways. nth but violence and hate..... i hav nv felt so mess up... guess many unnecessary things hav juz jump in... worries, fears, anger hav all been contained... but still.. almost every mornin i open my eyes... grouchy is wad i feel... cryin out of nowhere is wad tts goin on... reason? i hav no idea.... depression? anger? wishin tt i cld end it all?.. i wish... hidin e feelins of certain things r contained... but hidin it till it wun b show is another issue.... mixin up thots has been killin me... lonerin all my life besides e company of close frens is wads gonna happen for e nxt few decades? i guess mayb tts wad gonna happen... no sympathy needed.. but bein luff may happen... i don know.. is for e rest to find out.....

anywae... ppl who r readin here.... mayb if ya can.. try chattin with me? LOL... juz kiddin... but its a hope la... haha... dao me also i cant do much... juz feel sad la.. ok.. now i juz said somethin lame.... end here for e day.... tissue boxes needed now... lol....

ChEeRz.....

well.. i don know how i wanna say this now... recently i haven been myself.... i been soberin over small things.. if not get angry or petty easily...

as i listen to this song... I'll be your home by Rin Oikawa... i look out of e window and kinda lose myself for a while... well.. i don know wads gotten over me? have i been longin for somethin tt i think it wldn happen? or hav i been thinkin too much or holdin onto somethin to tight tts its dyin to break free...

well... i don know.. as i listen to it over and over again... it kinda sinked into my heart tt somehow home is juz away thou its inside my soul... love is not an option thou i may b able to hide... precious moments are wad matter... it feels like i got myself sinkin to a deep ocean where i cannot feel nor touch anythin....i hav fears tt i haven gotten over.. thou it may seem like an everyday life... but hav anyone wonder wad may come and end up.. e fears tt accumulated inside got an opportunity to eat u up? well.. tts how i felt sometimes... no matter if it is in e past nor present....

as i stare out of e window once again... it feels like everythin is changin... somehow... a fren of mine once said.. e grp of frens tt he used to hang out with changed so much tt he cant even get wad they r talkin.. and its like out of place... as much as u wish ppl ard u will stay as it is... sometimes it happen.. sometimes it doesn stay long.. i wish for e ppl ard me to stay as close to me...

but as a comfirmation of someone whom i hav known for 2 yrs and on goin.. who is abt to leave e country for good by e end of e yr.. losin her is like losin a piece of my skin.. well.. if anyone in RC or ard me leaves.. its like a bunch of thorns went thru my skin as well as my heart... ppl come and goes, but nv stays.. as much as my wishful part.. i hope all ard me stay... i juz don wanna lose it.. mayb i juz don know how 2 put it nicely.. it may sound mushy... gosh tt sux...

anywae.. i m off to calm myself down b4 i lose it again... anywae.. i don know y i took e pic of my window grillings la... juz feel like takin it somehow.... yea... anywae.. tts all la...

o ya.. and b4 i forget if ya got time.. do go listen to e song tt i mention earlier on my playlist ya.. here r e words.. enjoy....

及川リン(Rin Oikawa) - I'll be your home

Don't look back
Don't regret
Time's falling out of these hands
I'll let you leave me

Go on,
You know Home is always inside your soul
All the light to bless your way
Don't be afraid
'Cause I'll be your home

In this time
In this place
This moment is all we have
And tomorrow we never know

Every precious time
Let it go
Somewhere away
You will learn, And you'll love,
forgive the past and you can move on

All the distance
You've come to a place
Then you see that your home is away
Now the sun is rising
lighting up your sky again brightly

Every precious time
Let it go
Somewhere away
You will learn, And you'll love,
forgive the past

Go on,
You know Home is always inside your soul
Wherever you go
Whatever you see
I'll be the place
And I'll be your home

CHeeRz....

well.. another entry made... well.. lets start off with friday... was sick of school... so went bk early with da ma.. then obasan came to my place last min and i shocked... nvm.. so hang ard a while.. went to koon.. till xiao di sms me and asked if i wanna go kel's place with him to nua... LOL... so i rush to meet him.. bid bye to obasan.. and we board e train to tamp.. so we jalan over to kel's hse...

and dear xiao di who keep shoutin kel's gb nic... damn farnie la.. then passer-bys stare like he is ailen or wad... then frm kel's blk downstair.. he say all e way till his doorstep.. was damn farnie... so we reached his place... kel and xiao di played audition.. while i kinda dozed a little.. TIRED mah... then end up.. they played till close to 7 when we were suppose to gather at tampines mall at 7... as usual.. jb was e 1st to reach.. and he juz got up nia... lol.. farnie xia... followed by 3 of us.. so 4 of us head to tm to da bao food.. hungry xia... then e gals were late... nvm.. we decided to watch e later one... so we killed time at e food court...

thruout e whole time.. we keep di siao-in juliana and her BAN MIAN... and all of us luff damn hard... then when its time for e movie.. we made our way up... as cheryl was kinda scared.. cuz she kinda think abt those scary parts after watchin them... so.. guess wad we watched? i thot we were watchin rush hour, end up watch DEAD SILENCE?! i muz say... its kind of a psyco show.. and kind of an urban ledgend? anyone agree? "beware the stare of mary shaw, she has no children, but dolls. and if she appears in ur dreams, be sure not to scream".... well.. there was a part which scare quite a no. of us... while juliana and jb were munchin on chips... athena fell asleep.. jj, xiao di, kel and myself kinda got freaked out by some parts of them... but cheryl was almost FULLY covered... haha... after e movie.. i got a msg frm mum.. sayin tt its not advisable to go bk.. i guess its a hint... while thinkin how m i to spend e hrs.. we saw suvin with her frens... as usual, she kenna suan till her famous line "SMACK U AR" came runnin... hehe... we chatted a while and left...

anywae..havin thots of goin kel's place to play mj.. end up xiao di cldn stay late.. so no choice... roamin will b betta.. but e rest wasn v comfy with tt idea... so i thot... y not see wad goes... so end up company juliana and kel take 292 and see ard e other side of tamp... well... it pass places where i used to been when i was still a little girl.. it somehow brought bk a bit of memories... after tt.. thot of havin drinks.. so went to e coffee shop near kel's place and had a couple of beers... after tt.. we went play ard e fitness corner... then went his place nua... when we got to his place... he nua on his bed liao.. after tt.. he juz fell asleep.. HAHAHA!! i was watchin anime.. chattin with xiao di and juliana.... haha.. after tt... koon liao... till i think ard 12 plus.. but in e mist.. i heard noises la.. plus foot steps... guess i m a light sleeper... so got up ard 12 plus with a messy hair plus blur look.... after not long.. kel got up also.. so we went for BRUNCH... which was not bad.. mayb becuz was hungry... haha.... :X.... after tt.. we sat down for a chat.. till xiao di sms and asked if wanna play mj at MY PLACE... LOL

i was ok with tt option... so went bk to gather stuff and left... so on e train.. it was crowded... gosh... then finally.. got bk.. and xiao di brought 2 of his frens along.... haha... was cool.. so went to my place.. sis and dad head off with their own activities... so kel, xiao di and 2 of his frens all started playin.. i played a while.. after tt i let e gals play... so i sat ard and see their tiles and stuff... after tt.. i notice.. mayb play money will b betta.. cuz it feels like when u nv play $$.. there is like no hunger to learn and win it... haha.. i don know la.. but play for leisure also not bad la... haha... anywae.. play till ard 8 plus.. head to jalan besar stadium tt side for dinner.... and poor xiao di cldn get to eat his fav chicken wings.. cuz guess e stall was closed... sigh... so he ate somethin else....

after tt... we walked off to bus stops.. i directed xiao di and his frens e bus stop direction.. while i walked kel to his bus stop.. as it nearer to e direction to my place... so i think we waited for like 20 mins? one came.. but was full of ppl... and e bus didn open e door... and after tt.. it drove off... OMG.. BA JIU PA JIAO MAN!!! after tt.. we waited for another one again.. haha... this time was faster.. so finally he got onto e bus... but.. i guess it will b quite a pungent journey.. cuz of e "u know wad la.."-don get wad i mean.. think of e black colour? oops... anywae.. walked home... was a quiet walk bk... but was windy.. was cooling.... so when i got bk.. ON COM liao.. then online till quite late i guess.. then sleep again...

today ah.. aiyo.. don ask liao.. suppose 2 go out de... but end up.. "AH MA" buay steady.. so bo bian.. mayb nua at home will b e best thing after 2 happenin days.. LOL.... yea ppl.. so if u all r wantin to watch movies this wk or so.. go catch e movie "DEAD SILENCE" with ur frens.. pls do not scream.. as there was a sayin on e poster.. "u scream.. u die"... haha.. okok.. i don wanna scare ppl here.. not halloween yet... LOL....

ChEeRz.... :)

gosh... its been a wk plus since i last update xia.. oops... anywae.. this entry is somethin tt i been SABO to do so.. so here it goes....

I've been tagged by KELVIN to do the 10 weirdest things.

Rules of the Game:
1. Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things or habits or little knownfacts of themselves.
2. People who tagged must type in a blog post of their own ten weird things or Little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.
3. At the end, you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names.
4. No tag backs allowed.

­*I can almost spend 24/7 on com
*Extremely dislikes being NAGGED! (ROAR!!)
*I love jalanin ard in e nite and enjoy e nite life
*I actually juz copy and paste this quiz de.. so anyhow whack lor.. haha!!! :P
*I can b nonsense at times.. but mostly lookin too serious and fierce which scare quite a no of ppl away.. :X
*I can eat almost anythin edible....(besides some seafood and those nonsense stuff..)
*hates ppl who play games using hacks and scam ppl.. sheez.. (get a life man)
*has a small passion for bball
*I observe ppl faster than anyone else(but sometimes m too quick to judge, so forgive me)
*If ppl juz wanna find for a chat, i welcome them to chat with me... (so... does tt make me a gd listener? u all readin now shld b e judge.. i leave it to u all ba..)

People who are tagged:

1)Samantha Koh
2)Celine
3)Cheryl Lim
4)kelly
5)Faith
6)Cindy

well well well... start yest ba... suppose to b a borin national day for me once again... but it didn... was plannin how m i to go jalan.. when e guys jio me go watch secret...

i was like cool.. y not... but after i agreed.. ah ma came to find me.. haha... she walked over to my place.. and as usual.. almost lose her way to my place for e 2ND TIME?!.. biangs.. my place so hard to locate meh... =_=... anywae.. yea.. then whole time.. was on my bed with e lappy..as it can go WIRELESS MAH... but e CONNECTION SUX... PUI... so bo bian.. nvm... jiang jiu yi dian ba... but hor.. ah ma squeeze with me on my bed... =_=... was squashed to one side.. haha!!! but ok la.. then it came 4 plus.. I WAS LIKE SIAO LIAO!!! GONNA B LATE!!! zi tao jump myself to shower and prepare.. then grab her and zhao out of hse... then she say she go study while waitin for her bf at bugis.. so ok lor..

i go find e guys 1st.. e 1st person who reach was jb... he was xian la.. cuz he was on time mah.. while rest of us late... oops.... :X... paiseh la.... anywae.. while havin a smoke... kel came... then as usual.. LEDGENDARY SLEEPIN BEAUTY XIAO DI is late once again.... so we head on to buy e tix 1st... BIANGS!! $9.50 xia... 10 bucks go only 50 cents come bk nia.. CHOR AH... LOL.... then finally.. xiao di reached.. then we joked a bit.. then we decided.. y not DA BAO food in... heh heh... so we head to basement and find food.. da bao da bao... then guess wad.. all put in my bag... heng got enough space xia.. if not cfm pi jiak... haha...

so we head in to cinema.. and piangs.. we all look like mah jiam pinic session xia... then some of us were hungry.. and i m one of them.. gobble gobble gobble... hahah.... e movie was gd.. thou there were some twist and turns there.. it a sort of like a mind playin movie... but was gd.. and when it came romance between jay chou and e leadin actress.. ppl in front and behind us don know y suddenly become so HIGH... =_=.... guess they muz b thinkin..." aiya... y e zhar bo not me xia??"... LOL... oops.... anywae.. after e movie we head off to watch fireworks.... da ma called me and said tt she and her bf were tryin to squeeze their way to suntec there... cuz marina sq is alr flooded... almost hav no where to turn xia..

due to heavy human traffic.. we decided to take "bus 11" to padang there.. where e scary atmosphere's supreme court is... while we crossed.. there were some policemen.. and they kpkb to shoo ppl off e pavement.... heard one of them went " cant u all understand eng?! I SAID MOVE INSIDE KEEP OFF THE ROAD AND STOP CROSSIN!" piangs.. wad xia... we alr inside liao.. u make so much noisy.. damn spoiler xia.. LOL.. anywae... we waited and waited.. and as usual.. ql got high again... take his phone and PREPARE liao.. kiasu xia.. haha.. then finally... FIREWORKS!!! and its one of e best i hav seen so far in past yrs... its damn pretty... tts y i feel.. thou fireworks takes a long time to come on... well.. as PPL say.. GOOD THINGS GOTTA WAIT DE.... haha....

after tt.. we head off to raffles city to meet da ma.. and e human traffic there was MASSIVE xia... its scary.. either u cant go down and cant go up tt kind.. its like shockingly scary... yea.. after a while.. da ma finally located us... we chatted a while.. due to e overdoze of carbon dioxide which almost killed us all.. we bid da ma bye and walked to bencoolen for a drink... and we chatted... then xiao di thot of playin dota again... LOL... wad xia.. so after a while.. we walked bk to bugis junction played an hr of dota.. well almost...

so was jb and xiao di vs kel and myself... at 1st i thot we were gonna lose.. cuz jb kill me 1st... zzz... then end up... i decided to try double team with kel.. see if it works.. and apparently there was once i accidentally kill both jb and xiao di.. oops... took kel's kill away as well... :X... yep.. in e end.. we won la.. phew.... heng ah.... after tt.. play a while of CS... OMG.. I DAMN NOOB MAN!!!! aimin sux.. zi tao kenna aim and BANG... die liao.. =_=... xian diao... after tt.. we all head for home.. while xiao di took bus bk.. i took train bk with kel and jb... piangs.. when we got in.. there were 2 person tt most of us don like la..(not gonna say wad race la)... then one of them separate jb frm us lor.. so talkin to jb was kinda xin ku.. and e smell was like all over e place... its damn PUNGENT I TELL U.... PUI.... finally i reach my stop le.. bid them bye and got myself out of train... then walk bk....

when i got bk.. was chattin online.. guess wad.. i heard drunkard foot step to e door... well.. he came bk with a foul mood.. pickin on every little thing tt get in his way... end up i kenna again lor... so b4 he shout or his salivia gets in my face again.. i gathered my lappy and my thumbdrive and out of hse i go... so was quite sux la.. then when it got borin.. i walk ard.. frm shop haven open.. till e shop doors open BIG BIG xia... haha.. well.. its been like a routine to me alr i guess.... i betta hit e bed 1st.... anywae...

ppl.. if u all got chance or wad.. do go catch e movie, secret... not becuz jay chou shuai or bribe me to lelong here la.. but i muz say.. its a worth watch movie...

heres e poster of it....



cheERZ to all... :)

gosh.. was lookin ard sg's comedians show.. and i came across dick lee's concert 3 yrs bk... piangs... some interesting song he did... thou was somehow vulgar... but it sure will tickle ur farnie bone.... :)





enjoy.... :)... cheerz...

alritey... i m bk with another entry

well.. this wk was tirin but good... as usual.. had class and stuff.. i screwed my excel Ca.. but cant do much abt it anywae.. finally handed in my ppt project thou its due nxt tues.. finally finish roleplay... which was a torture to us all.. but was all good fun.. see those grp with their own roleplay presentation.. thou didn get to see e other class de grp de roleplay.. sigh... anywae...

recently been hooked onto playin gb.. esp with all QB ppl.. damn farnie xia.. i can play and luff like don know wad.. and end up my aimins will go haywire... sigh... wad a noob... haha...

anywae.. today.. had sakae lunch with xiao mei, da ma, ken and xiao di... gosh.. xiao di was so happie.. cuz he used to work at sakae.. so he glad to see some of his ex-colleagues... thou it wasn as jia lat previous sat tt we ate.. but was kinda chor.. but anywae.. after tt.. head bk to play gunbound.. but guess wad.. play halfway.. com died.. and i had to open up e cover of e cpu.. and start "studyin" abt e cpu.... and did a minor fix.. and managed to revive it... i don know how long it will last.. but i hope it do... and so... ah ma called me.. ask wad was i doin.. as she was suppose 2 meet serene... but serene was with a fren... so she came over to my place.. but guess wad? she lost her way.. after much directions given.. she is still circlin ard golden lemark.. sua.. i go down and find her.. so i jalan to find her.. head for 7-11.. bought some stuff.. and went over to my place...

so at my place.. she used wad she has learn in sch(cuz she takin IT course)... and see wad she can do abt my com.. thou my com still kinda slow.. but betta than before.. so HENG AH... LOL.. when i got bk in playin gb.. sigh.. singnet connection kenna prob.. lag lag lag... slow slow slow... zzzz.. o well.. then play a while... gave up.. connection too sux plus kinda tired... so chat online.. haha.. in e process.. my sis came bk.. AND PASS ME MY LAPPY!!! YAHOO!!!! but sadly.. she forgot to bring e adapter bk.. unless she go get them later in e day or tues.. well.. i shant complain much since i got my lappy at a most reasonable price... heh...

well.. tts abt for e entry... will try update more.. if population demands la... haha...

anywae.. PICS TIME...



xiao mei and me... hehe...



victim on the list... heh heh heh....



GRP HUG!!(THANX ICHIGO!!)

cheERZ all... :)