Recently i came across this song... its quite a old song alr... but its nice... somethin meaningful... so juz wanna let one n all listen this out.. n check put e video.. here it is....

What day is it?
And in what month,
this clock never seemed so alive,
i cant keep up
and i cant backdown
ive been losing so much time
chorus:
cause its you and me
and all of the ppl with nothin to do
nothin to lose
and its you and me
and all of the ppl
and i dont know why
i cant keep my eyes off for you
one of the things that i wanna say
just arent coming out rite
im tripping on words
you got my head spinning
i dont know where to go from here
cause its you and me
and all of the ppl with nothin to do
nothin to Proof
and its you and me
and all of the ppl
and i dont know why
i cant keep my eyes off for you
i cant quite feel your arms
everything she does is beautiful
and everything she does is rite
cause its you and me
and all of the ppl with nothin to do
nothin to lose
and its you and me
and all of the ppl
and i dont know why i cant keep my eyes off for u..
chorus
what day is it?
and in what month?
this clock never seemed so alive..




I don noe y i juz cant keep my eyes off for you~~~

OFF~~

well... due to demands... i m bk with another entry...

A wk plus ago... i finally gt my bro home... thou he say give him a yr... but i guess, it hit my family as well as myself's limit.... so had to go over to get him... apparently, he was stayin in a 3 rm flat ALONE at tamp.... n his "hse" gate was like disaster... wads worst? i had to break e gates to get mum n myself in... n we spent hrs tellin him, juz pack n get ourselves out of e place... n 3/4 of e time, he keep fearin this will happen, tt will happen... blah blah blah... sheez... juz get out alr... after tt, finally he juz say go bk n see wad happens... so we juz packed his stuff n all, we r off...

Finally home... now he is gettin used to life at home, after bein away for 3 yrs... but stuff juz keep goin la.. his siao ex keep callin his workplace juz to complain her ass off at bro... sheez... get a life la... then my bro hav this funny habit of callin n so called "report" to her every hr... now in order nt to do tt, he calls mum or even ME instead to kill time... n juz today... dead early in e mornin when he reached e office.. his boss called n say tt his ex early in e mornin called, n apparently e call was answered by his colleague... heng at least his boss was nice enough to say, if this goes on, juz contact e cops.... if its others... he wld hav kenna fired or somethin...

n now, he juz managed to get his important documents bk... n his ex wanted him to pay FULL RENTAL FEE WORTH 25K??!!! wadde hell la.... but end up, they come to a term of payin 8k odds instead... cuz its like, his ex sort of sucked his money since they were 2getha 3 yrs bk... seriously i wonder wad made my bro hang on to her bk then... juz e only answer came to mind is... he was blinded by love plus his mere desperation.... ahhh well... now things aint so bad...

but still... after he come bk home... he thinks he can control ppl n expect ppl to change to adapt him... well.. sorry sir.. tt aint gonna work for me... 3 yrs passed... ppl hav changed... they hav their own lives to deal with... as much as me talkin overnite with him for e last 3 nites... i ended up only makin myself fall sick even faster... sigh... thou his issue is somehow "over", i juz hope his ex don come runnin bk n end up, he go bk to his old ways.... my parents hav aged...i don wan them nor my sis as well as myself to go thru this kind of shit again.... 3 yrs is enough alr...

somehow after all this, i kinda lost faith in guys... cuz these 2 men in this hsehold hav somehow set a "good" example by makin all these issues appear n expect we(mum, sis, myself) to handle them... n to sort of like "ying chou" them... it has come to a stage whereby mum almost wanted to let them juz "die" by their own ways.. but... blood is thicker than water... when one person is affected... all kenna... no matter who it is... haiz...

i hav nth more to ask for in this hsehold... juz hope everyone is well n happie.... ahhh... well...

done for this entry....

mixed feelins again.... sigh...

i wish
i hope
keepin e faith left within thy self.......


OUT~~~~~~

well... m bk with another entry...

HAPPIE YOUTH DAY TO ONE N ALL... LOLX!!!

well.. today apparently there's sch... i was too seh to get myself to sch... sheez... i wonder how our superwoman, ah ma cld do it xia... (muz learn~~) haha... anywae...

frankly.. i m glad i didn go sch today.. if nt i wun b able to talk to someone whom i have nt speak to in a long while.... well.. this is gonna sound contridicting frm e previous entries la.... GUESS WAD?!... My bro(biological) called today... heng i was ard to pick e call, if it was dad who pick e call ah... i think 2nite is gonna b a long nite for e family again....

he called in frm work, checkin up how e family is doin... was happie to hear frm him again... had a chat with him... we talked a lot of his issues for e past 3 yrs away frm home.... he shared quite a lot of things with me... frm his relationship with tt so-called gf of his, as well as my uncles, aunts.... n seriously la... i wasn suprise... cuz somehow i guess this day will come.... things for him currently is a huge mess....i felt sad for him.. but i cant do anythin... e mess was created by him b4 he left home 3 yrs bk.... its like a "wu nai" kind of feeling....

well.. his relationship with tt gal finally come to a conclusion of nt gonna work out but currently still tryin to get over n done with it... n finally he wake up frm it... it took mum, sis n myself a long time after wastin our breath persuadin him to snap out of it(he was close to marryin her without anyone's consent).... FINALLY FINALLY~~ i cried to myself... after 3 long yrs of torturin n hurtin himself as well as e whole family... he cld tell me straight tt he has learn his lesson.... n he regretted makin that decision back then...

during the conversation, i don noe wad came over me... i teared suddenly when he said "Sorry mei.. i m really sorry... i m sorry that these 3 yrs i haven done my job as your brother...." gosh... i was on the verge of cryin out loud.. but somehow, i held bk.... also.. he was fustrated becuz of wad he has done to this family b4 leavin e hse juz becuz for tt gal 3 yrs ago... its been 3 LONG, TIRIN, TORTURING YRS for everyone in e family....

frankly... i m reali happie that he has come to his senses.... but at e same time, e past 3 yrs, wadeva hurtful stuff he has said to me as well as e family, e flashbks is still there... i wondered why??? m i still unable to forgive him as well as myself???? i seriously don noe.. its like a whole lot of question marks in my head....

b4 we end e conversation, he was sayin, give him a yr more(hopefully)... let him clear wadeva mess he hav made... once thats done, he will come home.... when i heard tt... i was glad... cuz... well.. last yr... mum was tellin sis n myself tt, hopefully one day e family will b bk together again... bk then my hates for brother was there n i thot he wldn come bk after wad he has done... when he say he tries his best to come home after a yr... i m glad cuz i m sure mum will b happie...

ar~~!! tears keep falling... i don even noe if its tears of joy or wad.... dear heavens... its been 3 long hard years for everyone in this hsehold... i hope after this yr or hopefully by nxt yr, he will return home n we can all b like b4 once again.....................................

i hope
i hope
i hope.....

this will come true.....

till then......

well... A LOT of ppl n i MEAN WHOLE AMAZON OF PPL say.....

my language is practically... officially~~~ CHAPALANG!!!!!!

WHY LEH?

i also wanna noe...

HOW COME LEH?

pls ask my sec/pri sch teachers, as all "SEND" back to them...

WHAT ARE U GOING TO DO ABT IT?

chapalang even more?? oops...>.<... uh oh...

ADVICE TO PPL

pls kill me if u cannot tah han my CHAPALANG-NESS...



BUT~~!!



PLS~~ DON IGNORE ME~~~ >.<