well.. i guess its like half a yr or more since i last blogged.. haha...
well.. many things hav happened.. i somehow like goin 2 lose my mind.. anywae.. lets start of with crap.. My birthday was poorly celebrated... o well.. tts all e same.. besides my two godsis each treated me 2 a gd meal.. o well.. and some class mates gave me some small gifts which is reali made me happie tt day.. one of my sch mate actually gav me a bottle of tequilia.. which is damn farnie can.. haha...

anywae.. the gang i used 2 hang out in e chalet last yr hav disappeared... not as in reali "disappear" but as in things hav changed.. one of them has left e gang.. well.. wad 2 do.. due 2 some crap conflict.. now i don know y end up i m bein ignored.. mayb cuz i was talkin 2 tt member who left e grp i guess... hmmm...

but anywae... durin tt point in time.. i faced gettin scolded or repremanded for somethings.. well.. guess wad time it was?? middle of e freakin nite... oh well.. anywae... i managed 2 keep in contact with my habbo frens.. i reali miz e times man.. and my outside sch pal..i hav not seen her like 4 don know how many yrs.. gosh.. time flies...

aaahhh.. well.. its one more yr later when i turn 18.. it seems far.. but it isn far at all.. tt means tt O levels will b rite at my butt in no time... haiz...

seriously speakin.. i reali hav no idea wad i want in life.. haiz.. its like i hav no plans for future.. i don know.. but it feels like i m gonna screw my life frm left 2 rite rite 2 left.. up and down, down and up.. aiya.. juz all over e place la..

haiz..
seein ppl livin with a purpose in life makes me wonder.. ppl frm their mouth said tt their purpose was made when their born.. while some of them when all out 2 search 4 it.. some found it.. some didn... so i guess i might belong 2 the didn one de ba..

i hav lots of thots in my mind.. sometimes it caused me 2 go sleepless nites.. lookin like a panda e nxt day... or losin hope and confidence in everythin i do... i guess i wallow in self-pity too much.. i m suspected 2 hav depression.. i don know myself.. its like, even if i m stress or not.. my gastric still gives me the sharp pain tt can reali killl me in no time...

anywae... now its june... supose 2 b holidays.. but end up, bein called bk 2 sch 4 lessons.. some lessons were quite new.. as new topics r taught... while others r more of buildin up ur foundation of topics tt r not clear durin the yr... o well.. despite the fact, it may cause the whole world 2 fall asleep, but i guess.. whackin urself 2 buck up at this point of time mayb the best way...

Most ppl whom i know now.. most of them r in a long relationships or mayb a short one... wad is love? i hav no idea.. cuz i, myself is nobody wans one.. o well.. i don bother.. i m pretty much happie where i m now..

Now.. i m more into jap rock bands again... haha.. siao siao sot sot one.. there is alice nine, nightmare, plastic tree... but not 2 forget Hyde!! and his band l'arc... man.. reali love their songs man.. totally rawkz.. too bad i cant post pics here.. haiz.. sad... xianz... o well...

hav 2 stop here liao.. this is my v 1st entry since last yr.. haha.. so farnie.. haha...

o well.. see if i will blog again..(hopefully i will... haha... :X)

chEErZ............. anywae.. e song tt ya listenin 2 now is The Cape Of Storms by Hyde...