argh... i m extremely pissed now... juz came bk frm TTS hospital... haven touch my bed... zzzz...

my sis who came bk juz now mornin 4 am was bein robbed by 2 malay pigs... pui... somemore one was a damn fat lady... e other i guess its her bf or wad la.. then e fat pig whack my sis like no one biz la.. somemore still pull her by e hair... wah lau... they hav no brains... eat too full nth betta to do ba...

roar... if i eva see them near my place... i make sure i will peel their skins, tear their bones n make sure get them wipe off e face of e earth.... damn it... i m alr been quite moody enough n this kind of bullshit comes.... argh... i m alr sad enough after so much things has happen.. n now seein my sis like tt... it saddens me even more... argh... nv felt this much suxy in a long while.... its like i can solve nth.... argh... wtf... damn it... if there is one thing i can do now... i wish can get to those 2 goddamn malay pigs.. knock e shit out of e fat bitch n whore, turn them into pieces to e cops sua... argh!! time for cold shower... argh.... this is extremely angerin me!

ROAR!!~~!! F THIS KIND OF BULLCRAP!!!

OUT~!!!

finally... home at last... well.. haven reali been able to sleep juz now.. so mayb after this its time for me to reali crash...

anywae... thou was still kinda moody today... but still my godsis brighten up my day... well.. started off i met her at abt 5 plus at lavender station.. so we took a train down to changi airport to pick her fren who came to sg for 1st time frm KL.. lol... when he came.. he was sort of jammed at e custom ah? had to fill in some immigration form.. took him quite a while.. so my godsis n i were kinda crappin away la.. which was gao siao la... finally... when he finally gt out.. we intro-ed ourselves... n head down to little india there.. don noe for wad.. wanted to try e african food there.. but end up was flooded.. damn.. so end up head for money changer... after tt... we cabbed down to shaw towers there n checked him in to a hotel near by... after tt.. head down to bencoolen for dinner... n he was like biangs... start off, no food.. but beer... n i kenna 1 bottle... nvm... after tt head for 7-11... he gt e absolut vodka.. n some other small bottles.. for us to share... gao siao la.. after tt.. head back to e hotel to chill... was watchin movie over AXN... then he keep askin us drink drink... =.=.... nvm...

after tt... my godsis close fren came... she drives mah... so after tt.. we head down to orchard tower... went into IPANEMA bar.... as usual.. sneazy, with bouncers surroundin e place la.. heng.. cuz last time was like even worst? haha... when my godsis fren entered, he ji tao go buy us drinks liao.. biangs... kong bu la... anywae..but still... their live band is i dare say.. E BEST LIVE BAND i hav heard so far... their both vocalist was like.. gosh... damn gao lat la... n their band was like damn good xia... they play frm pop... to rock.. so on... its all damn good.. one of e vocalist was requested to sing 1 song.. which was damn high la.. n he managed to pull it off damn nicely.. e crowd went rowdy xia... was high.. after tt.. was DJ's music time... n frm a distance seein e DJ, he remind me of someone i see b4... juz cant remb who la... zzzz... o well.. anywae.. both of my godsis frens can dance well la... hot xia.. haha.. after tt.. my godsis dragged me to e dancefloor la.. OMG... gan pua paiseh la.... but was all fun... after tt.. was like goin 3.45? my godsis fren hav to leave... so we left e place... she drove all of us back somewhere near e hotel... so i walked back.. while she drove my godsis home... i guess my godsis is in like a bad mood.. cuz of some issue with another fren... haiz... hope she is feelin betta now...

well.. now looks like its goin 5 in e mornin soon... i m like extremely shag here.. argh... crashin time baby! oops.. jia lat.. still high... well.. regardless of wad it is now... i wun say much... don wan cause anymore inconvience to 1 n all... also... to those who r goin overseas this holiday, I WISH U ALL NTH BUT BON VOYAGE + HAV FUN ya.... yep... tts abt it la...

CRASHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~~~~~~~

well... it comes to a point in time where its time for me to start doin things e rite way.... as wadeva decision ppl made n cover themselves in which i cant do much.... but still future is in my own hands... its gonna b a tough road frm now on i guess...

well... haven been reali myself lately.. cuz after much thot.. i decided to bury certain thots deep in my heart.... regardless it mayb end up killin me frm e inside.. but still.. for e sake of one n all as well as for myself... i guess this mayb e best way...

anywae... today is pretty much borin.. cuz 1stly i m extremely tired.. cuz i haven even touch my bed.. had plans nt to go.. but still i need some stuff frm sch as well as not wantin to owe cher anymore homework... after i m all done with tt... home i go... well.. took me quite a while to get myself home.. well... i m quite uptight somehow... as holidays is gonna b like on my own? haha.. i don noe... i wun hav so much time to think abt it alr..

startin to get myself prepare for more things comin up.. thou home stuff gt help frm sis.. but still... more to come.. cant always rely on her... certain things assigned is best done by own 2 hands... anywae... as much as i wish to say i m ok now.. well... i can say it all as mix feelins? haha.. well.. i can luff it off.. but after tt.. back to sq 1? hmmm... sounds like typical pisces... oops... ok.. i think i m goin haywire.... time for some crashin.. before i gonna relax with my godsis at changi airport? haha... its been quite a while since i last been to e airport... kinda miz e place.. as there were memories i wld wish to remb....

mayb will update when i come bk....

anywae... a song tt i got so addicted to it cuz its somehow reflects how i feel... haha.. here r e lyrics... Linkin Park - Leave Out All The Rest

I dreamed I was missing, you were so scared
But no one would listen, cause no one else cared
After my dreaming, I woke with this fear
What am I leaving when I'm done here?
So if you're asking me, I want you to know

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
And don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, and leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating, I've shared what I've made
I'm strong on the surface, not all the way through
I've never been perfect, but neither have you
So if you're asking me, I want you to know

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
And don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, and leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting all the hurt inside that you've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come and save me from myself I can be who you are

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
And don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, and leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting all the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
I can be who you are
I can be who you are

CRASHES~~~

well... i guess its been quite a while since last update alr.. haha.. well.. wad to do? anywae...

lets go bk to last wk.. fri went for job interview with jj, kx, gy, kel, ql, ql's frens, jy, jn.. we went all e way to mediacorp to fill form.. had quite a trouble gettin there... but was all cool.. after tt.. head back to bishan for some dinner n chattin.. but i hav to leave early cuz i gotta head down to bencoolen to met up with my godsis n tutu(my 2 habbo "gang" mates)... haha.. we met up for some chilling session n crapped n photo takin session.. here r some.. check it out...


ehhh.. hand eaten?? hmmmm


nice pic besides 1 lookin blur...tsk tsk tsk.. XD...

after tt.. tutu left while my godsis n myself head down to cine's kbox for some siao k session all e way till MORNIN 6AM! sing until mad xia.. reali gao lat dao bu xing.. lol... after tt.. came out.. extremely shag xia... while my godsis cabbed home, i took train back.. n finally toh on my bed abt 9 plus... n gt up on sat at abt 3 plus? with a fever n minor cold..zzz... then after tt.. com a while.. blast some music stare ceilin? lol.. then watched some tv.. till kel n jy mama msg me if i wanna go find them for dinner... haha... at 1st i didn wanna meet cuz i scared will b rushin for time for nite time's activity.. but in e end i go la.. haha... had dinner with kel, athena n jy mama.. then after tt.. we went bought some drinks over at 7-11.. n guess wad.. athena n jy mama shared drinks cuz we scared tt athena's allergy will work up.. so we didn wanna let her drink actually.. but still in e end... jy mama drank like almost 8/10 of e bottle while athena only drank 2/10 ba.. after tt... jy mama face's was like tomato liao... haha.. after tt.. she fell asleep... so i lent her my cap n jacket n had to leave alr... zzz.. xian... anywae.. so i head to e bus stop near kel's place n took a 168 down.. it was a NONG journey thou it went e expressway la... zzzz... when i finally reach, i had to wait for my 2nd aunt who came out frm jb for a while.. after tt.. settled some stuff with her...

met up with my godsis n head on to tutu's hse n play.. b4 we got there.. guess wad.. we took cab down to THE WRONG BLK LA! WTH!! so we walked down to e correct blk which heng heng quite near la... haha.. then after we gt there, we siao siao until don noe wad la.. take pics like no 2molo... then take n take... till mornin they bth.. sleep liao.. so i didn wanna squeeze my godsis.. so i sat at e sofa.. stare out to e window.. n e weather was like siao de la.. halfway rain, halfway sun DUA DUA... =.=... after tt was alr like noon.. so we watch 881 which i muz say.. its was as nice as i expected it to b.. except some parts funny nia... n also we played with his cute doggie.. call OERO? lol.... oero damn gao siao la.. when he see new faces or wad.. he str away pee... LOLZ.. cute xia... tutu train him like don noe wad liao also no use... anywae.. we also had lunch at his place.. n his mum's cookin was good... yum~ after tt we slack until nite time, then my godsis n i left for causeway point to hav dinner... after tt.. companied her shop a bit... then we head out for a chat n left.. so i took a train back home while she took a bus back... finally its home.. but still only gt to online for a while.. cuz head out for tt.. nt gonna go in details la.. anywae.. finally came this wk la..

nt gonna go all long winded here... i been missin sch for e last 2 days... monday.. cuz i slept like a log n woke up god damn late.. n tues was for work.. haha... so finally i m back at sch today.. thou nth much has change.. haha... anywae.. had mps test.. well.. i hope can do much betta than e previous test(of course de la).... anywae.. after tt.. most of them head off cuz gt their own activities or so... so for bcm, v few ppl attended... haha... anywae.. we head down to do some work.. n PUI! .. i owe cher like 3 letters... WADDE... xian dia0.. nvm.. i bear with it... zzz... so head down for work.. n guess wad.. i cleared 1, but when i hand in e 2nd one.. all becuz of one letter S which was considered to her "BIG S" when it isn, kenna one word where no one wans... (REDO!) lor... haiz... sua.. i finish up today n throw it to her fri ba... sigh... anywae... after tt... only 5 ppl head for pe.. tts e farniest thing.. was like only jj, andy, sy, gy n myself nia.. haha... gao siao.. then head down to see cher.. he long-winded.. blah blah blah.. we left our names then zhao liao... zzz...

after tt.. bid bye to jj, andy, sy.. gy n myself walked out of e sch to bus stop to take bus 12 back... haha... crapped a bit... then he gt off as i continue e journey home... when i gt home.. mum decided to go suntec's carrefour for a shop.. so y nt... so we drove ourselves there... then we jalaned here n there.. well.. its e xmas season.. so all e deco n sales r up... was quite cool.. then mum wanted to get presents for e 4 little cousins of mine.. while she was searchin ard.. saw some cute n farnie stuff...


a sword.. (SHING~~! )


my all time fave (TWEETY~!!)

after tt.. both of us head for carrefour.. n bought quite a bit of stuff like chairs n all.. don noe for wad reason.. haha.. but i bought myself a new pair of ear phones plus a nice little bar of rum n raisins choco... hoho... goody.. haven reali ate tt much choco in a while eva since my sis finish up tt whole large bar of cadbury choco of mine... ROAR~! after tt... we left some stuff in e car n head for some shoppin.. n i was mah jiam like a tress la.. cuz mum keep pickin clothes askin me to try them.. come out... ehhh... so so ba i guess? or mayb worst? haha.. i don noe.. juz feel quite comfy in them.. but after starein at e price.. mum juz say.. lets get it nxt time ya.. haha... well.. i wun complain.. haha... after tt.. we head for home.. n here i m now... kinda tired i don noe y... haha.... funny.... thou now i m much more free than eva.. but still i m tired i don noe y... holidays this time i wonder how will it b? o well... let things flow on its own i guess...

yep.. so tts abt it for all these while ba...

OUT~~~

As i light my cig today n burnt myself out of e blue(lousy me)... loads of things came passin my mind... its like how m i hang on?

ppl mayb paranoid or over-sensitive like me at times... wonderin most of e weirdest things... wad can i do to make it betta? i guess e ans is ?? n more ?.... well.. i don noe.. i guess today i kinda got over e top abt e stuff at home n showed an angry side of me.. guess my temper checkin didn work.. sigh... i may nt b a crowd pleaser.. but still i wish everyone to b well.. tts all....

ahhh.. well... today i wun say much.. well.. cuz i was quite ok until phone calls runnin in.. as well as e submission of e roleplay script.... well.. i guess many r as tired as it is ba... juz wish i can make it rite.. but somehow i juz cant express it... its like i don noe how to even start.. argh... wad an idiot i m... anywae...finally settled with CATs... since decided to go for it.. so juz make e best out of it...

guess my words as e days pass get lesser n lesser... sigh... guess its my self prob... i juz wish life can go on betta... as it turns for e worst.. as my heart aches suddenly.. i don noe y n how... i guess i sank myself into deeper stuff... n its time for me to knock myself out of it n move on ba....

as i held bk my tears frm fallin out of e blue... it felt like a thousand yrs has passed.... well.. guess alone time once again wun b avoided ba...mayb nt dwellin too much on things, n pokin my nose into another person's biz will make me feel betta? i guess i shld let it go as it is.. no matter how much i wanna ask... ans come blank... i shld juz shut up i guess... haha...

well.. tts all as it is.....

cheerz..

I M HURT N I M DOWN... WAD ISST M I DOIN?! IF I EVA DID HURT ANYONE, PLS CONFRONT! I WAN EVERYONE TO GET ALONG WELL!! TTS ALL I CAN EVA EVA REALI REALI WISH FOR!!!!! SIGH~~ I JUZ HATE MYSELF!!! DAMN IVEY DAMN!!! GOD DAMN IT!

i m tired... reali tired..... nv felt this tired b4... its like so much things in hand n in my mind now... its killin me...

somehow its like i been down n out... well.. rows of flu med keep poppin into my mouth like candies... haha... wad a joke... well... sleepless nites still on-goin.. endless accs to finish... endless documents to see plus mayb sign... its as gd as doin a 9-5 damn office job...

sch's been quite fast paced.. due to holidays comin, roleplay on e way once again... well.. m glad 2molo there isn any accs lesson.. phew.. no 3 hrs marathon... haha.. well.. there is still e submission of e script for roleplay.. thus.. sux like hell... well.. cant do much...

anywae.. i don noe wad m i suppose to do to make these procedures go a little faster... its like drainin up time.. ppl usually nite time finish work can go happie hr.. well guess wad.. i m still stuck here with damn books plus sch hw... gosh... i hadn reali been into wad i m doin in sch.. its like i m more of goin sch juz to sleep my hrs away.. its tirin... i nv felt this tired in my life... thou life like this mayb tirin.. well..

mayb wkends mini gatherin with some frens is cool n relaxin... it keeps me relax.. n somehow motivates me to keep me goin i guess.. seein home as a burden.. seein bro out in e streets sometimes reminds me of e torture most of e family actually went thru.. how much we wanna avoid ppl talkin abt him in our face... i don noe...

anywae.. regardless of wad it is.. i m tryin to make sure i keep my temper n attitude in check... frm e way it seems.. its like i hav become no diff frm father n sis.. temper is like close to maximum.. chaos/volcano may blow off anytime...n seriously speakin.. sometimes i end up too paranoid in myself.. guess i m nt happie with stuff tts trashin rite in my face rite now.. well.. sch's stuff besides sch work is killin.. rest is fine.. but home... it feels like a thousand over miles in e hot sun.. dyin to survive n endure n also to exercise my own self control.. tts in my "healthy lifestyle" plus own temper....

well... i will juz end it here.... mayb i m juz goin haywire quite soon... well.. mayb i keep myself shut will b fine? i hav no idea... sigh... well.. tts abt it la..

alll out~~