well... didn think i will come bk with another entry tt soon... o well.. wadde heck...

anywae... guess wad... had a movie date last nite, wasn as pleasant as i expected.... with all e lateness n all... sigh... nth can b done... catched a movie tt was like 9 odds.. thinkin tt i wun b affected esp by e last transport home... n a news i gt...

guess wad... it happened... sigh... 1st was e seating arrangement, then came crappy ah ne who was like shoutin n shoutin on e phone durin e movie in which i can barely even hear wadde hell e characters r talkin in e movie la...... haiz... i guess too many loopholes along e way n tt it has reali gone e wrong way i guess.. i don noe.. somehow i juz felt somethin is nt rite... due to time constrain, after i walked out of e cinema.. a call frm mum sayin tt my great grandpa(gong gong) passed on... argh... it sux enough to lose so many ppl in one go... now him...

well.. my gong gong.. he's been stayin in china... e 1st time i saw him is when i was only 5 when he came down frm china to visit my grandma n we all brought him ard sg.. which was reali fun... havin me on his back.. luffin n all... after tt, i went to visit him few yrs bk... he was still hyper n chatty as usual... i juz cant believe he actually left juz like tt.. without givin me chance to even say goodbye to him... argh!!! regrets... i seriously hate it....

as for today, e bus didn even give me face at all... comin in all flooded bus... i decided to give up on goin sch since i hav no mood anywae... so end up at home... while i saw some of my classmates online.. guess i aint e only on who didn go sch today... thou nth much can b done now... drownin myself studyin CATs which is comin in like ehhh... few days time... zzz...

ahh crap... thinkin too much once again.. r all pisces like this?? after hearin wad my godsis n "ah ma" said abt my horoscope, i cant help it but to feel tt way.... i guess i hav no guts to face reality n rather hide in my little own world where no one can eva step in.... n b wonderin in my own pool of thots... where impossible things happen... well.. nonsense to say... it aint goin 2....

Slowly, i realise that i hav this tendency to rely on ppl when i cant do anythin alr.. end up, it become a burden to them... i sometimes juz don noe who to contact to hear me out.... as ppl hav their own lives to deal with... only can shut myself... n tolongin tt i can cover my daily exhaustion out.... guess it aint workin... in fact, i m scarein loads of ppl out of my life... sigh.... it sux to b me rite now... feelin an invisible layer of sadness.... it juz seems weird... juz cant describe it....

out~~