well well.. another day...

was suppose to meet couz this evenin for some slackin.. but didn happen... haha.. he was pissed with some of his fren, cuz they took his kona bike for some stuns doin.. end up, broke certain part of his bike... n frm wad i heard.. fixin n all need like a minimum of ehh.. lets say almost a $400?? wads worst...

those dudes have no balls to b responsible.. well.. they broke it, n they shove off e responsiblilty n nt even like feelin guilty.. n they aint gonna pay like a tiny bit?? sheez... wadde nonsense is tt...

ahh well... wadeva... don noe wads gotten into me lately.. been gettin bumps n all.. yest thot alr suay enough.. today a tiny bit betta... was in some deep thots while cookin some food.. guess wad... when i kinda like flip e meat over... e oil juz splater.. n guess wad? i kenna lo.. heng this time is a small one... 4th finger... extremely "cooked" now... thou can still e fryin pain there.. but wad to do... blame it on nt bein focused me...

ahh well.. e whole time was listenin to e song "Rooftops - by Lost Prophets"... its reali a nice song... kinda emo... well.. ah ma send this to me quite some time ago... its only got into my head recently... but its reali nice... seein e mv.. whoa... was cool xia... sadly i cant paste e mv here... well.. u can go youtube check it out.. even their LIVE version is also good... woo... =P....

yep.. tts abt it...

PAIN~~~~~~ T_T

well... i muz say.. today is my most clumsiest day yet....

today got up ard noon.. head for e usual routine... guess wad... fell down in e toilet.... n worst.. on my butt.... *ow ow ow*..... after tt... stared out at e window... n carried my yoyo boi n miko gal.. both on my lap... after tt, wanted to get up frm e chair n hit for e shower... while i was watchin out for my doggies where they runnin for... n b4 i can say somethin.. i lang ga-ed into e wall near e kitchen... head prize... after tt... wanted to shower, turn on e wrong tap... instead of turnin on e shower one, end up i turn on e other one... sheez...

after tt... came out... wanted to blow dry hair.. forgot to on e switch of e hair dryer.... gao le lao ban tian then found out nv turn on switch... zzzzzzz.... after tt.. chiong out of hse... met up atul in e train... head down to dhoby ghaut meet e rest... lol... after tt nanny followed by athena reach... left radiah again... *pengs*... power late queen of ours on e run again... end up, we catch e 3.25pm's KANGHU panda... LOLX.... well... radiah came in too late.. we alr inside.. so end up she went jalan jalan....

e show was funny xia.. thou e storyline kinda lame.. but reali is funny... had a gd luff.. n apparently someone who sat nxt to me keep luffin until she cry... make me stunned down there.... funny xia... after tt.. came out... sent atul off cuz she hav to go home early... so left nanny, athena n myself... we head on to istana park there slack... crap a long while... n end up we hav to wait for radiah again... took her time frm BUKIT BATOK la... haha... pro.... we slacked, then went ps jalan.. end up i played arcade with them keep watchin how i play la.. paiseh la... then we slack slack walkin ard... then finally radiah say she comin bk... once again.. we almost faint down there....

finally abt 7.30 she reach... we were like FINALLY~!! mah jiam kenna strike 4D xia... lol... then she treat some of us drinks... then we head bk to istana park again... SLACK SLACK SLACK~~~ killed time.. was fun la.. cuz all makin fun of me... callin me "panda BOSS".... *pengs*... when can i eva leave e words of panda + boss.... i aint boss, n kinda agreed i do look a bit like panda la... sheez... ok... anywae.. after tt, radiah head off for her some activity at fort cannin there? then rest of us head for home... n as usual.. i crapped again.. luff luff luff... till city hall.. bid nanny bye.. athena n myself took e east line bk.. well.. kinda packed.. almost lost balance... zzz... paiseh xia... kenna luff n nagged at by athena(lao bu)... oops... =X... after tt alight at my stop, made my way bk....

well.. chiong shower... was swing my arm till i accidentally whack it against e wall... owwww... prayin hard aint gonna b blue black.. i alr have like 2 here... sheez.... now.. i m online watchin a jrock band, Nightmare's interview... funny to da core xia... e host reali ka jiao them to da core... poor leader, Hitsugi xia.. his part time job last time was wad.. workin 13 HRS in a bread factory peelin bananas... gosh... tt muz b a long n painful job xia... e drummer, ruka's job was quite interestin.. door-to-door salesman, product of baby muscles?? well.. nv heard of tt... n seein how he try to promo... funny la... hahaha.... yep.. i shall post e video here... enjoy....



n one more... gazette's one.. haha... its quite some time ago thou.... but still funny... e hosts were like suanin poor reita... wads worst.. they purposely ignore him... pissed him off xia... so cute xia... check this out... enjoy




anywae...will try hunt for more interestin jrock interview.... cuz this one is good... heh... reali get to see e other side of them besides seein them perform perform perform....

tts for all...

cheerz...=P

For e last few nites have been quite sleepless for me...

i juz don noe y...

too lost for words...

feelin like somethin is killin me frm e inside...

juz cant find e source of it.....

its like a piece of me is missin somehow....

in need of motivation/encouragement to keep me goin once again...

after watchin e variety show on how their real lives r....

its sad to see how some artist juz gt put down juz by a simple action, words/gesture....

life can b so screwed at times....

n a song tt sings....

"how do i survive living half the life that i knew"

it gt me stuck in my heart n mind....

thankin heavens tt ah ma's grandpa gt out of danger.... life can b juz so fragile...

hopin great granduncle will b fine... n e lesson he hav learn frm doin somethin silly rite after recoverin...

being e youngest in e family... cant possibly juz say n teach in e face of his... but still... i wish he wun do tt again to harm himself...

STANDING ON E ROOFTOP SCREAMING MY HEART OUT~~~

heh....

well.. yesterday had a few drinks at home with my family... don noe y they were in a mood... n apparently my sis let e doggies try... n they were kinda mabo after tt... so cute la... cuz miko end up sleepin on my lap.... after tt... i head out to meet ah ma n slack...

so we went amk to slack.. b4 tt i was kinda shaky alr... oops.. =x.... end up, we were at some quiet place, makan, drink n tok nonsense... n i started blabber nonsense... "zi high"... kenna luff at la... sheez... but was all fun... n pretty much noisy of me la... anywae.. after tt, we cabbed bk to ah ma's place, e cab uncle was sooo funny la... fun fun... lol... when we gt bk.. we watch tv... n there was this taiwan variety show.. so funny, we quietly giggled... haha... after tt, i knocked out a while at e sofa.. while ah ma head for lala land...

abt 6 odds i left her place with her lil sis who's rushin for sch.. haha... along e way... saw so many students xia... kinda felt funny... cuz few yrs bk.. tt was me.. e student who rush rush to sch don noe for wad... now its like, i m havin holidays n they r startin sch.. think of it.. my couz also start sch today... he was so sian... feelin e monday blues i guess.. after tt crapped with him over sms a bit... then finally gt home...

when i gt home... mum got up all of a sudden... n she told to watch out my health... apparently her colleague who's abt to quit her job had a extremely gd reason... guess wad... her 21 yrs old daughter kenna cancer... my goodness... tts like only 2 yrs my senior only... its damn young la... such a young age kenna such illness... its damn sad... n wads worst... as a mother, her colleague hav to quit her job to take care of her daughter frm now on.... reality can b harsh at times... juz cant help it.... damn... got me all emo-ed a while... sigh... poor gal....

i took my time in e showers.. thinkin abt life can b juz so fragile... i wanna treasure those ard me.. but somehow i juz cant express myself well.. other than keepin quiet most of e time, sometimes i juz cant e rite words to express myself... ahh well... its time to knock out.. haven been able to rest well since i gt bk juz now.... yep... tts abt it for now...

cheerz....

well... unexpectedly i m bk with another entry...

juz as i was sayin... was suppose to slack at home.... got a call frm ah ma, tt her"VIP" wanna play bball.. so end up i went down play lo...

finally at bedok... we started playin.. sadly ah ma had to leave early to deal with some things at home... sigh.. but anywae... both of us play... after tt one chatty uncle n a dude came n ask to play 2v2.. so juz play lo... until a while ltr.. e dragon dance ppl? wanna hav their trainin, so we had to clear frm e cc court.. sheez...

then end up, we went to a neighbourhood court with e most "cool" hoops n boards u can find... which is crook/low? haha.... ahh well.... so we play on.. then some ppl left, some ppl come in... on n on... in e game, some of us kenna cuts here n there la.. heng at least skin tear, no bleed la.. then came me... some asshole who nv cut his nails... juz HAPPEN to "gua" me by accident la... then end up.. open flower shop lo... nt one flower nt two flowers, but abt 3 bigs flowers lo... mini ones tt didn open tt BIG, i don bother.. skin tear nvm... BLEED somemore... kns.... at least waste a tissue worth of blood? haha... wad a donation day.... damn suay... end up, i hold my anger n decided to sit out n wait for ah ma's "VIP" to finish up e game with e ppl la... after all tt... rest a bit n head for home....

After tt, halfway headin for mrt.. suddenly bleed like siao again... sheez... tt dude sure hav grudges against me... haha... ahh well.... mrt-ed home.... while it still bleed... wad a waste of tissues.... finally got home, chiong for shower, BIANGS... PAIN LIKE SIAO LA!!!!! OW OW OW!!!! wads worst... mum saw it.. kenna nag la... "U GO PLAY BBALL?? OR GO LET PPL SCRATCH AH?"... alamak!!! =.=..... after tt.. gotta kill e so called germs n bacteria off? as usual.. comes e medic alcohol... OW OW OW OW again~~ then OW OW OW all over again.... sheez.... yea.. n sooo i m bk here la... thou seein it now cuz its on my writin hand.... don noe to luff at it or wad... cuz its still bleedin a bit... aint as bad as juz now la... haha...

yep... so a note to readers who play bball with frens or team with ppl... "TOLONG TOLONG AH!!! PLS CUT UR NAILS B4 GO PLAY HOR!!! N I MEAN CUT ALL UR NAILS SHORTER!!! KENNA PPL OR U KENNA, IT AINT GOOD NEWS FOR ALL HOR!! THANK U!! "

hahaha..... ya la... tts abt it.... cheerz all...

time to knock out for me~~~

well... bloggin has become a habit sometimes... hahaha....

ahh well... start off... well... was cookin some food for myself today since home alone.... so head off to buy some ingredients... happily brought them home... while choppin some vegs, cut myself... blood was all gushin out... for a long while i stared at it... haha.. funny isn it... its like i haven seen blood gushin this much in a long while... e pain juz felt differently... had a couple of flash backs... after tt, continue with wad i was doin.... heng i didn burn down e kitchen... HAHA... tts a joke actually...

finally done with cookin... had my meal, n slacked for e day... chat with some frens over e phone... well... some were bored at home as well.. some were out with their frens or love ones.... how envy xia... sigh.... while typin, e pain is there, it felt weird.. haha.... anywae...

was out for lunch yesterday with my ah ma n her sisters... was cool... n samuel join us a while... was all fun... in e end samuel gotta go cuz he gotta meet his fren... so left e rest of us la... guess bcuz i was tired at e same time i was crappy... i came up with e lamest joke... apparently ah ma's sister were all luffin till they had no where to roll... cute xia... after tt, hang out with them till e nite... was all fun... n played inital D 3 with ah ma n her youngest sis... ah ma n i got ourselves e card as well.. haha.. was damn cute.. cuz we were all gan jiong drivin... n i haven play it in a long while, kinda lost touch.. but was all reali fun... as usual, we played daytona n cars all start flippin over... cuz ah ma n myself were all busy lang ga-in each other like bumper cars... ahhh well.. in e end ah ma won it all... happie as she can b... zibi as i can b... haha.... its time 2 go bk.. sigh...

n so i slowly trained my way bk... nite time rides r always quiet, lonely n borin... music always keeps me goin... almost got myself to marina bay... sheez... cuz after all e fun i had.. was exhausted.... so came home.. slackin n chattin ard... singin my lungs out at e same time... was relaxin.... finally i cldn take it.. started to sneeze like maddness... guess its abt time i m fallin sick... n today my nose is like loose water tap... sheez... it sux.. guess i didn rest enough... n lack of water? haha....

yep... tts abt it for my days la... guess this kind of borin days is gonna keep comin... well.. its betta than bein in sch n stuck with all e sch work n lousy broken down centralised air-cons... HAHAHAHA.....

cheerz to all...

well... didn think i will come bk with another entry tt soon... o well.. wadde heck...

anywae... guess wad... had a movie date last nite, wasn as pleasant as i expected.... with all e lateness n all... sigh... nth can b done... catched a movie tt was like 9 odds.. thinkin tt i wun b affected esp by e last transport home... n a news i gt...

guess wad... it happened... sigh... 1st was e seating arrangement, then came crappy ah ne who was like shoutin n shoutin on e phone durin e movie in which i can barely even hear wadde hell e characters r talkin in e movie la...... haiz... i guess too many loopholes along e way n tt it has reali gone e wrong way i guess.. i don noe.. somehow i juz felt somethin is nt rite... due to time constrain, after i walked out of e cinema.. a call frm mum sayin tt my great grandpa(gong gong) passed on... argh... it sux enough to lose so many ppl in one go... now him...

well.. my gong gong.. he's been stayin in china... e 1st time i saw him is when i was only 5 when he came down frm china to visit my grandma n we all brought him ard sg.. which was reali fun... havin me on his back.. luffin n all... after tt, i went to visit him few yrs bk... he was still hyper n chatty as usual... i juz cant believe he actually left juz like tt.. without givin me chance to even say goodbye to him... argh!!! regrets... i seriously hate it....

as for today, e bus didn even give me face at all... comin in all flooded bus... i decided to give up on goin sch since i hav no mood anywae... so end up at home... while i saw some of my classmates online.. guess i aint e only on who didn go sch today... thou nth much can b done now... drownin myself studyin CATs which is comin in like ehhh... few days time... zzz...

ahh crap... thinkin too much once again.. r all pisces like this?? after hearin wad my godsis n "ah ma" said abt my horoscope, i cant help it but to feel tt way.... i guess i hav no guts to face reality n rather hide in my little own world where no one can eva step in.... n b wonderin in my own pool of thots... where impossible things happen... well.. nonsense to say... it aint goin 2....

Slowly, i realise that i hav this tendency to rely on ppl when i cant do anythin alr.. end up, it become a burden to them... i sometimes juz don noe who to contact to hear me out.... as ppl hav their own lives to deal with... only can shut myself... n tolongin tt i can cover my daily exhaustion out.... guess it aint workin... in fact, i m scarein loads of ppl out of my life... sigh.... it sux to b me rite now... feelin an invisible layer of sadness.... it juz seems weird... juz cant describe it....

out~~