3 December 2007;9:52 pm
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I will quietly wait for you...
i m tired... reali tired..... nv felt this tired b4... its like so much things in hand n in my mind now... its killin me...
somehow its like i been down n out... well.. rows of flu med keep poppin into my mouth like candies... haha... wad a joke... well... sleepless nites still on-goin.. endless accs to finish... endless documents to see plus mayb sign... its as gd as doin a 9-5 damn office job...
sch's been quite fast paced.. due to holidays comin, roleplay on e way once again... well.. m glad 2molo there isn any accs lesson.. phew.. no 3 hrs marathon... haha.. well.. there is still e submission of e script for roleplay.. thus.. sux like hell... well.. cant do much...
anywae.. i don noe wad m i suppose to do to make these procedures go a little faster... its like drainin up time.. ppl usually nite time finish work can go happie hr.. well guess wad.. i m still stuck here with damn books plus sch hw... gosh... i hadn reali been into wad i m doin in sch.. its like i m more of goin sch juz to sleep my hrs away.. its tirin... i nv felt this tired in my life... thou life like this mayb tirin.. well..
mayb wkends mini gatherin with some frens is cool n relaxin... it keeps me relax.. n somehow motivates me to keep me goin i guess.. seein home as a burden.. seein bro out in e streets sometimes reminds me of e torture most of e family actually went thru.. how much we wanna avoid ppl talkin abt him in our face... i don noe...
anywae.. regardless of wad it is.. i m tryin to make sure i keep my temper n attitude in check... frm e way it seems.. its like i hav become no diff frm father n sis.. temper is like close to maximum.. chaos/volcano may blow off anytime...n seriously speakin.. sometimes i end up too paranoid in myself.. guess i m nt happie with stuff tts trashin rite in my face rite now.. well.. sch's stuff besides sch work is killin.. rest is fine.. but home... it feels like a thousand over miles in e hot sun.. dyin to survive n endure n also to exercise my own self control.. tts in my "healthy lifestyle" plus own temper....
well... i will juz end it here.... mayb i m juz goin haywire quite soon... well.. mayb i keep myself shut will b fine? i hav no idea... sigh... well.. tts abt it la..
alll out~~
