4 December 2007;6:34 pm
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I will quietly wait for you...
As i light my cig today n burnt myself out of e blue(lousy me)... loads of things came passin my mind... its like how m i hang on?
ppl mayb paranoid or over-sensitive like me at times... wonderin most of e weirdest things... wad can i do to make it betta? i guess e ans is ?? n more ?.... well.. i don noe.. i guess today i kinda got over e top abt e stuff at home n showed an angry side of me.. guess my temper checkin didn work.. sigh... i may nt b a crowd pleaser.. but still i wish everyone to b well.. tts all....
ahhh.. well... today i wun say much.. well.. cuz i was quite ok until phone calls runnin in.. as well as e submission of e roleplay script.... well.. i guess many r as tired as it is ba... juz wish i can make it rite.. but somehow i juz cant express it... its like i don noe how to even start.. argh... wad an idiot i m... anywae...finally settled with CATs... since decided to go for it.. so juz make e best out of it...
guess my words as e days pass get lesser n lesser... sigh... guess its my self prob... i juz wish life can go on betta... as it turns for e worst.. as my heart aches suddenly.. i don noe y n how... i guess i sank myself into deeper stuff... n its time for me to knock myself out of it n move on ba....
as i held bk my tears frm fallin out of e blue... it felt like a thousand yrs has passed.... well.. guess alone time once again wun b avoided ba...mayb nt dwellin too much on things, n pokin my nose into another person's biz will make me feel betta? i guess i shld let it go as it is.. no matter how much i wanna ask... ans come blank... i shld juz shut up i guess... haha...
well.. tts all as it is.....
cheerz..
I M HURT N I M DOWN... WAD ISST M I DOIN?! IF I EVA DID HURT ANYONE, PLS CONFRONT! I WAN EVERYONE TO GET ALONG WELL!! TTS ALL I CAN EVA EVA REALI REALI WISH FOR!!!!! SIGH~~ I JUZ HATE MYSELF!!! DAMN IVEY DAMN!!! GOD DAMN IT!
