guess these past wks n days hasn been my day...

i guess e words said to me were nth but pain i guess...

anywae... today i finally broke down.... gosh... tt sux.... esp when i cant even get to talk things out.. watch movie n all... its like a home sick day.. it sux exceptionally.... sigh... wad m i suppose to do?

anywae... start off with yest.. as my distance drift off frm some...i sat at a corner alone n all.... i come to think abt.. wad m i suppose to do to stop those painful words tt were said to me...

it comes of indecisiveness of myself n also e fustration i face.. frm home or anywhere... m i suppose to b jealous? well..partly it is..partly its not.. its more of e anger felt by others n somehow it wasn told to me.. n e misconception of expressions n words used that somehow caused miscommunication tt starts to fall in place.... but still.. i hold my words... thou ppl may not like e way i do things sometimes...

but still if i m rite.. i wun mind fightin back.. if its my fault or wad so eva... pls tell me.. at least i can do wad i need to do.. if its not enough to make it up to do.. i hav no idea wad to do.... well... as usual... a self blame of bein over sensitive... a said of human nature.. its whether i m able to get over it...

anywae... as i walked home in e rain yest... a lot of thots came passin my mind... e amt of insurance incurred frm e companies for my grandparents who passed on, e accs bein done to get e procedures on-goin to get e money, e contiunation of insults n arguments in e family, e day n nites of non stop work, sch n fustrations tt i nv feel i can handle tt much.. as much as i needed rest.. its like a nv endin journey.... juz like life..... conflicts in frenships is part n parcel of life.. as much as many wld wanna avoid or prayin hard it wun even happen at all..



a river tt was muddy.. juz like how messy i feel now..wishin tt it wld b clear once again....



even if it happens.. i guess its always e tough thing to confront n settle.. juz like yest or today... juz when i wanna try settle thru phone call.. no outcomes so far... but sadly.. yest msn conv was juz like a miniture war.... or mayb thinkin too much or givein ownself pressure for nth is unncecessary ba.... well.. regardless of wad it is... i was given a pkt of famous amos cookies... which i reali appriciate a lot... n i was nuts enough to go take a pic of it.... n it was nxt to me on my bed for e whole of today....


e cookies tt was given to me durin yest's 1st lesson.. but no matter how tough this gonna b, this is gonna b my motivation to settle this n to keep me goin....

well... tts my words for e day... "WINNERS NV QUIT.. cuz QUITTERS CAN NEVER WIN"

ALL DOWN~~~~~