i m feelin extremely down recently... i don know y.. i guess its becuz of wads goin on ard me ba.. i guess e useage of com i m goin has been noticed by e family n they r like goin haywire over it... lets take yest for example.. cuz today is a holiday.. so yest i played all e way till mornin.. so i guess my sis who is goin haywire over almost anythin n everythin.. she was on my tail again.. threatenin to take away e modem... well..

this time i know she will go after it.. so i decided to do somethin back... so i hide e modem in a compartment where no one's hand r able to reach it besides mine.. so i hit e bed.. then came sunrise.. my sis knew i hid it somewhere.. she went into a frenzy... searchin for it.. so she was like bangin n flipin over stuff... then came drunkard dad goin abt shoutin for i don know wad reason... n its was a bad mornin i muz say.. thou i was sleepin.. its like everythin was heard.. n insults were made behind my back la.. e one tt killed me most was "aiya.. shld hav killed that ivey when she was still a baby.. i wun feel so stress abt her usin e com now..." well.. guess wad.. i m still here...argh!! i felt so hurt since then until now i still m.... its hard to swallow for this one...

for then pass few wks, my sis has been on my tail for almost every slightest things.. thou i was on e com.. i still do e hsework n stuff.. well not all la... but i m not a 100% slave for christ sake.... thou i know work piled on her has been killin.. but doesn mean she cant relax.. her temper has been gettin more n more foul.. n its makin my mood more n more foul.. i don know y... mayb sometimes i wanna joke with her or wad.. end up i kenna shouted at or kenna somethin no sibling will do ba.. i don know... its damn hard to swallow this up... its sux to b me rite now... sometimes i wish i cld shout bk or whack her bk to face wads goin on with her...

anywae... on e happy side.. i juz got a mail frm my sec sch fren.. who also carries e same name as my da ma la... she is also call winnie.. well.. i call her "gui" is becuz she always roam ard e sch.. one moment u see her.. nxt moment she disappear.. haha.. she is a nice fren to b ard with... but currently.. she is in aus, sydney... she juz send me a mail full of goodies.. 3 mini pooh toys n a large pkt of interestin jelly beans...n she wrote a mini note on a mini card..she was at a disney shop where she thot of buyin somethin for me.. damn touched xia... anywae.. e jelly beans r all with unique flavours.. range frm fruity to choco.. to a lot more.. i ate one craramel corn.. its damn nice... it feels like paradise.. it made me felt betta for a while... i miz her load.. thou i still see her on msn n stuff.. but seein her in aus happily.. i m happy for her as well...here r some of e pics i took when i got e mail... =)





well.. thats abt it for today.. i m feelin worst n worst each day.. with this temper of my sis where she pin point at me even when i didn do anythin wrong.. e family goin haywire in my face.. my bro's runaway which is more than a yr alr.. n still not settled.. n e new stuff tt is gonna challenge me in sch... i wish i cld juz end it all with my life.. i juz don hav juz e rite amt of guts yet.. i guess e day will come soon.. i feel like givin up.. its v tirin to hang on.... can hardly even catch my breath sometimes... well.. i m off...

wishin my xiao mei jia you for her work 2molo.. cheerz...

all dead~~~~~