"EXCUSE ME AH.. UNCLE THROAT CANCER HARD PACK 1..."

oops... haha... juz feel like sayin tt...

anywae... well.. besides yest watchin movie, "rogue assasin" with cheryl, athena, kel, gy, jj and andy... which was all good.. its been bored to tears for e last few days....

sometimes i wonder to myself.. m i thinkin of fallin for somethin/someone tt is impossible? i don know... i juz don wanna think so much b4 i reali sink myself into 1...

after goin Kbox with RC ppl last wk.. i been singin non stop.. well.. i got a song tt kinda make me wanna sing more and more...i like it a lot when i was bk at sec sch days... been singin to it most of e time.. besides jay chou songs....

singing in front of a crowd in a pub wld be a terrifyin experience... which may happen within this wk or durin e holidays... i m not gonna say when or where.. cuz its all not cfm....

well... ppl ard me r bein in love or lookin for love ard more... and i m happie for them.. its like happiness has come to them... while some hav lost their love one while one like another... after tt.. life has been tough for them actin ok.. but somehow.. e easily emo me hav felt for them.... its like u hav found somethin tt u love and u wish to keep it tt way.. but somehow.. its juz gone... n no one to turn to is like as gd as alone for tt period.. whether u will find e way to ur light is another issue....

has love become so tough for one to hang on? well.. ans is both a yes and a no.... it depends on one's perpective... somehow... ppl hav turn to horscope for help... i muz say... it sometimes b true.. it may not b... how much one wanna give love to another is a different thing.. characters match... mayb true...

sometimes i wonder.. m i givin a wrong impression to others by bein too frenly and scary at e same time... sometimes i wish i can give myself a whack or wad.. isst bcuz i m juz too emo tt no one wanna come near me.... (m i tt fearful?)... a scary stare has given all fears? a cust once said to me... "usin ur fringe to cover, or givin a scary stare gonna help u cover ur fears? it may seem to ppl tt u r juz scared to let ppl see ur face.. u hav a character tt i will say many ppl will fall for... but.... u hav fears all ur life.. bringin urself to light.. not only depend on u.. but also r others willing to help u.... there mayb someone starein at u frm a distance.. juz tt only u don know..."

her words has been kept in my heart... i remember her... she is actually a successful single mother who has encourage many and brought them to light... sometimes i wish.. can anyone give me a frenly smack? LOL.. i was juz bein nonsense.. thou i mayb scary in term of lookin like wanna whack someone.. but i wun do much... bein on guard all e time has got me all tired.. can anyone lent me a back tt i can lean on.. juz for a while... a back tt can let me rest and let myself go.. juz for a while...

anywae... i hav said my piece.... so.... i don know... well.. a wishful thot, comes a nonsense dream and hope... haha... yep... anywae... heres e song tt i wanna let u all see... its by a band call the moffatts... i don know where they hav been... haha.. no news of them... yep... here it is..

Here we are
You tell me I'm the only one
Who makes you feel love again
There you go
I see you watching him
When you don't think I know
Should I let you go?
So who's it gonna be
Is it him or me?
Who do you love?
Who do you need?
You're messing up my mind
Wastin' all my time
Who do you love?
What do you feel?
Stop playin with my heart
You're tearin me apart
Am I the one
who can make you fly up above
Is it me who can take you higher
than you're dreaming of
Now who do you love?
Who do you love?
Turn around
Do you really think
You'll play me like a fool
For you
Then I realize
When you touch me it's like nothing I have known
Could I let you go
So who's it gonna be
Is it him or me?
Who do you love?
Who do you need?
You're messing up my mind
Wastin' all my time
Who do you love?
What do you feel?
Stop playin with my heart
You're tearin me apart
Am I the one
who can make you fly up above
Is it me who can take you higher
than you're dreaming of
Now who do you love?
Who do you love?
Who do you need?
You're messing up my mind
Wastin' all my time
Who do you love?
What do you feel?
Stop playin with my heart
You're tearin me apart
Am I the one
who can make you fly up above
Is it me who can take you higher
than you're dreaming of
Now who do you love?

AI WEI.. all out.....