well.. i don know how i wanna say this now... recently i haven been myself.... i been soberin over small things.. if not get angry or petty easily...

as i listen to this song... I'll be your home by Rin Oikawa... i look out of e window and kinda lose myself for a while... well.. i don know wads gotten over me? have i been longin for somethin tt i think it wldn happen? or hav i been thinkin too much or holdin onto somethin to tight tts its dyin to break free...

well... i don know.. as i listen to it over and over again... it kinda sinked into my heart tt somehow home is juz away thou its inside my soul... love is not an option thou i may b able to hide... precious moments are wad matter... it feels like i got myself sinkin to a deep ocean where i cannot feel nor touch anythin....i hav fears tt i haven gotten over.. thou it may seem like an everyday life... but hav anyone wonder wad may come and end up.. e fears tt accumulated inside got an opportunity to eat u up? well.. tts how i felt sometimes... no matter if it is in e past nor present....

as i stare out of e window once again... it feels like everythin is changin... somehow... a fren of mine once said.. e grp of frens tt he used to hang out with changed so much tt he cant even get wad they r talkin.. and its like out of place... as much as u wish ppl ard u will stay as it is... sometimes it happen.. sometimes it doesn stay long.. i wish for e ppl ard me to stay as close to me...

but as a comfirmation of someone whom i hav known for 2 yrs and on goin.. who is abt to leave e country for good by e end of e yr.. losin her is like losin a piece of my skin.. well.. if anyone in RC or ard me leaves.. its like a bunch of thorns went thru my skin as well as my heart... ppl come and goes, but nv stays.. as much as my wishful part.. i hope all ard me stay... i juz don wanna lose it.. mayb i juz don know how 2 put it nicely.. it may sound mushy... gosh tt sux...

anywae.. i m off to calm myself down b4 i lose it again... anywae.. i don know y i took e pic of my window grillings la... juz feel like takin it somehow.... yea... anywae.. tts all la...

o ya.. and b4 i forget if ya got time.. do go listen to e song tt i mention earlier on my playlist ya.. here r e words.. enjoy....

及川リン(Rin Oikawa) - I'll be your home

Don't look back
Don't regret
Time's falling out of these hands
I'll let you leave me

Go on,
You know Home is always inside your soul
All the light to bless your way
Don't be afraid
'Cause I'll be your home

In this time
In this place
This moment is all we have
And tomorrow we never know

Every precious time
Let it go
Somewhere away
You will learn, And you'll love,
forgive the past and you can move on

All the distance
You've come to a place
Then you see that your home is away
Now the sun is rising
lighting up your sky again brightly

Every precious time
Let it go
Somewhere away
You will learn, And you'll love,
forgive the past

Go on,
You know Home is always inside your soul
Wherever you go
Whatever you see
I'll be the place
And I'll be your home

CHeeRz....