I lost my Hope & Will 2 live in this world this day.....ToTaL dArKnEsS

2009-12-02T09:17:00.003+08:00

think my blog has been rottin since internet has been taken away at work..

guess wad? i m officially jobless! hahahahah!! cool or wad... hahahahaha! my sleepin cycle is in a huge mess.. n PDL i gt since sept n only dec den i m havin my 1st lesson, how slow is tt, ppl alr gonna take test soon liao ba.. haha..

my sis gt a news sayin tt e parkin poles will b taken away.. so guess i hav to learn e hard way.. well.. its betta late den nv.. hahaha..

anywae.. i m confused with the affairs tt r happenin in my heart n in my mind.. its killin.. but i m gonna cover up as much as i can.. i rather get myself hurt... its nt worth of other ppl's worry...

haix.. k la.. its gonna b a short entry.. don think anyone is gonna read it ba...

ah well.. leave it as it is ba... cheerz...

2009-05-31T03:00:00.000+08:00

well.. i m bk with entry.. haha.. as usual, m workin now la... with my partner fallin asleep nxt to me.. cant reali sleep, now at basement doin screenin la... gt visitors comin at e weirdest hrs of e nite.. ahh well.. cuz now most of e local clinics of course nt open..

yep.. apparently politics gt a bit worst here, now my supervisor kenna aim, well.. i guess sometimes ppl wan things either their way or e expressway loh...zzz.. ahh well.. i think after one whole wk of no off, my exhaustion start to take its toll on me... sometimes i don even noe wad day it is.. ><... b4 work, see sunset, after work, see sun rise.. sheez.. luckily nv intro more ppl in, i noe la, ppl work for e sake of income, but start off alr gt grudges or even more things, i think its no point to bring them in.. but still.. frm wad i noe now, they gonna train more staff to come in, cuz nite shift now currently only gt like wad 11 or 12 men operating, with some ppl leavin la... sad tt they r leavin, but its their choice.. wad can i say? i was actually asked when i wanna quit, for now, hard to find job, so most prob will stick with it until i can actually find a stable job.

well.. as much as i don noe y i still don blame myself on e fact tt education do play a part. but still, i choose this route, so its time to walk on n carry on with life. i hav been feelin extremely down, mayb nt juz bcuz of work, but also partly i feel 12 hrs all e time is like borin, don even hav time to do my own things or mayb even sleep, but still now is like i cant reali sleep much also, i usually will b in bed by 8.30 am or even ltr, end up i will b up by like abt 1.30pm. its sux n its borin.. but still.. life goes on...

i m quite xian la, no time for family, e one time i see them is b4 i sleep... i think its been almost a wk since i last saw my bro alr.. haha.. ahh well.. no time for my frens, cuz they r either studyin or workin.. i guess everyone moved on with life while i still feel i m still at e same spot, nt movin forward nor movin backward.

seein my partner sleepin now, i m startin to feel e beat, but cant sleep, ltr both sleep, both cant wake up, complain like shit, all die... cannot cannot.. eyes muz BIG BIG like O.O.... haha... well.. i guess cust service here also plays a part, if u don do things properly, there goes e rice bowl.. sigh.. if only e operations supervisor was bias at all towards anyone else, treating everyone fairly wld hav been betta. guess tts juz a wishful thinkin on my part. i was extremely pissed today, don ask me why, juz feelin moody i guess? or a part of me tt i missin so much tt i cant help but to think where-eva, wheneva... haiz...

k la.. i betta finish up, feel like i m gonna write a whole essay here.. my partner keep wakin up halfway sort of like KPO? haha.. cute xia.. tts all for now, will try update again.

till den...

2009-05-11T05:28:00.000+08:00

well... my blog as usual can throw away liao ba...

ahh well.. after a month of bein jobless n low income, finally gt myself a job thanx to e swine flu la.. haha..

now bein a screener at one of e hospitals in sg, nt gonna name it la, for me to noe n for u to find out loh.. LOLX...

anywae.. its been like abt 2 wks liao ba? haha... had trainin on it b4 start work, once start its nt juz office hrs, its like a whole blardie 12 hr shift, of course gt break la.. worst, its at a timin when mostly ppl r asleep, NITE SHIFT... zzz... thou its tirin, plus no life, come xian, but at least betta than no income.. LOLX... ahh well.. money come come cant complain much also... haha...

so far its been fun, thou as usual politics issue is there la, but hopefully wun get worst, now is like day shift n nite shift mah jiam gt grudges against each other, biangs, come on la, all on same team, juz tt i cant stand e some of e day shift supervisors, its like they hav no comtrol of their own team, n they r like everywhere all over e place, or else doin nth, tts y ur team members kenna complain for nth la, u think its worth it? i pui man! =X...

ahh well.. workin these 2 wks is like no time, cant spend time with frens cuz they r schoolin or workin in e day, den nite wanna jio me also xin ku, cuz they either gt their plans, arbo i workin, but mostly bcuz m workin nite la, so nite activities wanna find me is like hell la.. haha.. ahh well.. sincerely sorry for tt... ahh well.. finally my off comin on 13.. heh... cant wait, wanna like sleep whole day, i noe no life la, but reali la.. nite time chiong, is like tirin.. eyes can barely even keep awake now, day of course don need to say, cfm sleepin, nite is like after finishin wad i need to finish, waitin for e time to pass, its a drag, wanna sleep but scared ltr cannot wake up.. LOLX!

k la... done for e entry.. will try update if m free la...

2009-03-19T12:14:00.002+08:00

ding ding ding...

i noe its been wks... start up.. guess wad.. i m unofficiailly school-less.. n yes.. economy aint gd.. havin a rough time findin job, but will get thru.. i hope? ahh well

been gamin almost this whole wk, or else goin home late, i mean "early" la.. like eh.. lets say 5 am in e mornin? oops... XD... ahh well.. anywae.. been playin this game call Left 4 Dead at e lan shop? y? cuz can play 4 ppl n all their reactions can b seen.. haha.. fun fun... played with ah ma la, serene la, si baba la, kenneth n jiahui(who juz join e clan some time ago).... was all fun... hahahahaha...

yest juz went play again.. but this time with netty n her fren, ina.. we travel to e place, gt ourselves coms n started playin.. n there was one blardie map we can nv finish.. tts e hospital one.. best.. we play half way, whole parklane blackout.. think for almost half hr? hahahahahaha... we were so bored tt we started takin pics in e dark, mah jiam in club with no lights only.. hahahaha.. we step out of e lan shop n see only us affected, almost e whole shoppin mall kenna xia.. somemore ppl eatin their meals in darkness.. funny xia... then after e power supplies come bk, we carried on play, n we took like almost 2 hrs to complete e airport one.. biangs... take a long time xia.. hahaha... usually chiong v fast one.. LOLX...after sittin our backside in there.. 5 hrs pass juz like tt... gosh... body ache xia.. so we drag ourselves to e mac at e basement lvl.. n had our dinner... n most of us were like dyin, cuz partly, eyes nv blink much while playin, air con was fuckin cold, n i noe i kept blowin my nose, worst, i lost my ring... sob man.. ahh well..

after tt, netty n ina cabbed bk to their homes, poor netty nt feelin well xia, mayb she aint to e air-con or nv marathon this long b4?.. while i decided to walk bk... so i walked n walked.. then went bugis, find sab a while.. haha... then nua there till 9 then carry on walkin home.. haha.. was a short nite.. haha.. mayb i m too used to havin long nites... haha.. ahh well.. anywae.. tts all for nw... hahahahahaha...

OUT~~~~~~~~~~~

2009-02-03T21:55:00.002+08:00

well.. love song time..

ahh well... been lookin for this mv.. thou i didn reali like e singer, n e singer is quite well known in sg thanx to e 1st eva sg idol, think was runner up? haha... but this is one n sort of e ONLY song tt i like frm him.. had kinda a tough time findin this, cuz e quality kinda sux.. at least this one is a betta quality...

tattoos frm him, well kinda tempted to do one, but i don noe whether i shld, cuz i don wanna regret in future.. but seein my godsis latest tattoo kinda got me extremely tempted to get one, but i don wan ended up freakin whole world out... haha.. ahh well... anywae.. days pass n its nearin to end of ITE... well.. kinda glad, but mostly kinda sad, cuz it goes to say, i m no longer a student like soon? i don noe y i hav no thots of goin poly, nt bcuz i m like hate poly or wad la, mayb juz hate seein books, juz wanna go out n get myself hit by society n u noe, get experience n mayb in future work my way up? hopefully i aint tt old by then.. sigh... economic recession is a killer... ahh well

now i hav to wait for my bro to get done with his drivin licence, hopefully by beginin of this yr b4 i can start mine... sigh.. hav to pay for my own one.. bro n sis one is like sponsored la.. WTF... aint fair man... ahh well.. ppl always say, e world is nv fair... guess it work ass off to get e things i wan.. i mean e positive n "clean" way... n nt e negative + "dirty" way la... damn.. heard e pract drive exam is like ex... ahhh... mayb shld clear theory b4 thinkin abt anythin else... ppl always, don think, go for it, JUST DO IT~! sounds familiar? haha...

anywae.. yep.. done for this entry.. crappin so long, i think watch n listen to e song i wanna intro will b betta ba... here it is...

沈祥龍第一個原因

e above is e title of e song...

cheerz to one n all...

OFFFFFFFFFF~~~~~~~~~~

2009-01-15T15:54:00.002+08:00

well.. its been a long while since i last seen my maple char.. kinda missed it thou.. but anywae.. talkin abt maple.. i came across this vid.. its abt e disturbin e indian at a prata hse.. as well as e one disturbin one uncle at e kopitiam la...

its actualy juz vocals plus words.. now.. i guess ppl decided to add in e maple char.. kinda cute.. but i guess no one likes to hav this kind of customer esp in e service line.. its reali a killer... ppl always say customer is always rite.. when this theory applies, this is wad happen loh... haha..

this is e prata hse one..

e kopitiam one...

i guess e ppl who disturbed them were e same couple of ppl ba.. ahh well.. this is life for some ppl? while disturbance to some also... ahh well.. tts all for today...

OOFFFFF~~~

2009-01-12T19:15:00.005+08:00

well.. life goes on after ranting... well.. grats to my cousin for doin his Os well.. heh... hopefully those whose siblings or relatives did Os also did well...

sigh... cant help but to let loose my anger at times, esp when someone in e hse think she is earnin money, tt can give her e rites to shout at ppl when she herself do e same mistake in e hse... argh.. sua.. don bother arguin bk.. waste my breath only.. pui~!

anywae.. well.. today sch's been ok.. juz don noe y my stomach hasn been feelin well.. like wanna give way xia.. ahh well.. anywae.. was seachin for e usual youtube ppl for any nice music, then i came across this song.. its nice... words r meaninful to me.. i don noe abt u.. but here's e music.. if u wanna find more abt e lyrics... any website tt hav j-music lyrics in eng shldn b hard to find... yea.. here's s song... its Dir en grey - Glass Skin.. enjoy..

sleepyness kills... damn... zzz... i think finally lap comes e exhaustion... its somethin tt has to b faced... sigh... done for today...

OFF...

P.s. Man u won chelsea 3-0.. PUI~!!! zzzz.. hopefully they don catch up with liverpool.. haha...

2009-01-09T21:55:00.004+08:00

today is my most pissed off day i muz say... but suprisingly i manged to control my anger... haha.. lets start with...

i screwed my audit CA retake.. sux but don noe wad to say... aint happie with how it turn out n how i was informed.. like being left hangin there... nvm.. nxt up.. play viwawa to chill.. then i got to noe this fren frm msia la.. quite in chattin/crappin terms.. then one day.. he THOT/ASSUME tt i like n wanna b with him... guess wad.. even when he 1st say tt he is single, i luff my ass off, cuz i noe he is attached/ married for some reason... then after tt, he msg me n pour words in my mouth... sayin tt i naive la. blah blah blah.. don noe wad jiao sai la.. blah one whole series... thou kinda pissed.. but still.. in my mind.. i think no point replyin to scold him bk la.. juz take it as i suay la...

juz nt gan yuan being pour words in mouth ba... i m sure everyone come across this kind of issue la.. e feelin is like wanna kill ppl.. but still, no point arguein bk la.. anywae.. enough of rantin for a day... an unhappie day i muz say..

OFF~~~

2009-01-08T16:13:00.003+08:00

well.. its e 8 day of 2009... nt bad so far...

but countin down to e day grad frm ITE.. seems so near yet so far.. but still.. today was a day tt i didn need to go sch... end up i did... thanx to audit CA retake... hopefully i can make it this time, cuz i studied for it... sigh...

anywae.. after tt, went watch ong bak 2 with e guys frm my class.. e fights were all gd, but gt e thai dance which was extremely DRAGGY~~ n i mean DRAG~~! n e endin was like "WTF"?... nt worth e watch la.. but if u love fightin stuff... i think its nt bad.. cuz e male lead gotta learn quite a no. of diff martial arts... which was cool... anywae.. after tt all of us head home... kinda tired for some reason.. mayb bcuz after 3 blardie wks of tryin to get e audit into my head n finally lettin them out today.. can finally take a break for a while.. but AA2 CA 2 comin again.. darn.. i scared i cant handle it.. argh... suxy feelin again...

well.. i guess its another season of ppl fallin sick.. hope they get well soon ya.. hmmm.. well.. i guess today m gonna try get some rest.. kinda exhausted for some reason... n somehow somethin's gt to me these few wks since last yr... i don noe how to explain it.. but its a feelin like somethin is eatin me alive frm e inside.. (sounds kinda wrong) but anywae... yep.. well..

video of e entry~~~ been watchin some live performances over youtube n i found this nice one frm miyavi.. his concert in 2007.. a song tts quite long ago.. but this live he did was a lot betta than his orginal mv version.. so here it is....

yep.. so tts abt it la...

cheerz...

OFFF~~~

2008-12-31T16:47:00.003+08:00

well.. today is e last day of 2008...

ppl r writing their resolutions here.. after much thots i decided to write it... kinda like a reminder... haha...

- wish everyone tt i noe, or readin this entry hav a gd health n prosperity(prosperity sounds kindacheesey but heck)
- getting my drivin licence within yr 2009.. i hope...
- Grad frm ITE with betta than avg grades(hard to say la, but still hope-in la)
- things go well in e yr.. or even betta than previous yrs.....
- Less fights, arguments, saddness ard home.... or even anywhere...
- have all my frens n love ones, close by my side...
- not being forgotten or left alone...
- less emo times, or even stare at e ceiling time....
- smoke less... (a lot of ppl will nod at this one)
- don get angry nor violent often(nods again)
- Enjoy life(whether is for Ups n Downs) for e yrs to come...

yep.. tts abt it la... hopefully i didn miss out anythin.. if there is, will come bk n edit b4 2009 comes... in like eh... 7 hrs time.. haha.. yep.. to end off this yr.. lets take a look at my one of my fave guitarist, sugizo frm luna sea(previously), at his wonderful violin performace at japan's earth day in 2005.. i noe its like 3 or goin 4 yrs bk.. but i still like it.. yep.. so enjoy...

cheerz....

SIGNING OFFF~~~~~~

2008-12-27T12:41:00.004+08:00

ahh well.. as usual.. blog can throw liao.. haha..

anywae.. ppl... MERRY BELATED till cannot zai late de CHRISTMAS ah... =P...

well... 2 wks of holidays has pass.. yet i m still sloggin here... well.. audit retake on e way yet, i m still nt prepared.. ahh well.. i think i m reali failin la.. sigh.. i don feel like studyin anymore.. no motivation at all.. tried doin a bit of AA2, n gave up nt even in 5 mins... i noe nuts abt it xia...e feeling sux man~~!

anywae.. today did somethin smart.. cuz my blogskin's pic somehow disappeared, mayb due to e host change location of pic or wad i don noe la.. so i decided to use one of my idol pic.. heh.. after a hell lot of adjustments, finally gt it rite... kinda like it.. heh...

n for e pass holidays, been eatin A WHOLE LOT, gym a bit, drink also quite a lot.. yea.. zzz.. die la.. need to reali workout la.. thou i m excused frm pe la.. but cant bump ard like a bumper.. haha..

anywae... don noe wad to say on now, a lot of my mind.. i don noe how to let go some.. when its like none of my biz at all.. argh.. still takin things to seriously... zzzz.. anywae.. i m off.. o0o~~! b4 i m done with this, vid of this entry... rock song~~!! woooo~~!!

this is nightmare's latest single, Naked Love.... nice... heh... love e guitarist, sakito's new hairstyle.. heh... yep.. tts abt it la..

cheerz.. :)

2008-12-04T16:52:00.003+08:00

well.. a fren of mine send me this vid on youtube.. haha.. i think its funny.. so juz wanna share it here...

anywae... besides tt.. well.. practically every thurs.. i m off frm sch.. which is pretty much borin.. but quite ok... haha... after nxt wk.. m off for my final holidays in ITE.. any kind soul wanna ask me go out?? provided i gt e $$ of course la.. hahahahahaha... ahh well

tts abt it la.. i m off to catch up with my sleep.. cldn even sleep well today la..bro's hp alarm soooooo noisy, then came sis one.. wah lau.. noisy siao.. finally can get some peace n quiet at home.. heh.. home alone is cool.. thou extremely quiet la.. but still.. off i go...

VRRROOOOMMM~~~

2008-11-27T10:37:00.003+08:00

well.. its been quite a while alr... time flies, its alr end of e month...

juz saw e wish for gd luck with AA Ca frm kelvin.. haha...paiseh i now then see it...

well.. as wad i said, AA ca is over.. but guess wad... KNNCCB!! i cant bal it la.. damn wasted.. i guess it due to my own carelessness n nt enough pract ba.. i can only blame on my own lazyness n nth else? haha... ahhh well..

i think its abt time i m sick of comin sch early... i can barely wake up earlier than usual.. thank goodness thurs has become off day... haha... actually gt 1 elective.. its optional la.. but i juz go for extra info.. nt only i go there zuo bo, cher sometimes talk de lang n speed ah.. "AKU NO UNDERSTAND!!" xia.. so usually i do my own readin n all la.. so still ok la.. but now, its officially gone.. so shiok la.. now home on thurs.. nt so bad... mayb i shld start findin nite shift work on wed, so tt thurs i can so called sleep my day thru...

anywae.. yest was on e phone with someone whom has last talk 2 me like, quite some time ago.. i cant remb... but anywae.. she used to teach me some yrs ago... till now, my impression to her has nv change.. apparently she was kinda like advice me go poly la... but seriously, where can a GPA 2 pointer go in a poly?? either impossible or else will b give a unwanted course.. mayb i think over it too soon.. but she told me, don think abt anythin now, juz chiong n work hard frm where i m now n do well in exams in feb... i kinda don noe wad to say, cuz its like frm my GPA i see, i kinda hav no thots of goin poly alr.. it somehow has become my indirect last resort... well.. mayb i shld try? or shld i go wad i planned?? i m seriously confused... n her example was reali funny la.. cuz she used her drivin exams as an example... she said"on my drivin exams, i tell myself, i can drive, i will make it!!" n so ya la.. she made it la... its inspirin la.. but i don noe y i find it funny (pardon for my rudeness) but still.. after a long chat.. she had to go do her stuff.. so ya.. end of conv la...

i seriously don noe where my route lies now.. unpredictable n fickle minded me huh... ahh well.. i can only take a step, see my step now... but anywae.. i gt another funny issue to share... guess wad... i been play viwawa a lot these days, esp particular 2 games la.. nt gonna say which 2... anywae.. while playin tt game, i don noe isst my nic or my wawa too nice/"cute" or don noe wad sai la, a lot of despos has been tryin to talk ard la, n i don noe wether to luff or to faint down there.. seriously.. if ppl r desperate, pls use other ways la.. biangs.. conv haven start jiu ask all e nonsense qns, wads worst, u can even ask if ppl wanna go hotel n hav sex??!! biangs.. get a life/room somewhere else pls.... sheez.. ppl wanna play game in PEACE also cannot.... i don noe if its nth betta to do, then come up with this cheesy kind of thing or juz PLAIN HORNY.. sheez... its irri... ppl play game, get to noe ppl, casual chat, fine, but TOLONG LA.. horny or despo, interested in sex chat pls bring it somewhere else... it spoils ppl mood to play in e game la.. eeek... pui~~!!!

anywae.. i end here for now.. comin monday is audit CA.. siao liao la... i hope can do betta than AA a bit?? ><... hopefully can remb all 4 chaps xia.. HOPEFULLY LA...

anywae... song for this entry... The Gazette's new Single, Leech... if ppl u all don mind new songs in ur list, this may b an option?? haha.. enjoy...

OUT~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!

2008-11-03T19:02:00.006+08:00

well.. its beg of nov... its a beg of my unhappy month...

why?? cuz 1st up.. was caught for smokin at home?? haha... supposely i deserve it... hahaha... well.. luff it off get on with life.. fine... end up, endless preachin comes in.... tts when it all go haywire....

e more i m being preached, e more i don wanna talk anymore....yes yes ya ya.. its all n always my fault.. i m born let u all see me as a burden... scream at me all u wan.. u all r always rite... n i m e only 1 foreva wrong, wrong n wrong, nv rite in u ppl's sight.... its been almost a wk since i last open my mouth to talk in e hsehold.. e only time i open my mouth, is to tell e hsehold to shut up... bcuz i can barely hear anythin over e phone... other than tt.. nonetheless.. literally speechless at home.. e only time i get to talk is when i m out with frens or in sch...

instead home has become a ice blizard for me... i hav no idea wad i wanna say nor even do anymore... everythin has come to a point where i m hurt badly... isst juz me or m i juz too sensitive at times.... mayb so... i guess.... givin myself an ounce of hope for e betta regardless of wad it is... is juz somethin tt will being by my downfall?? i m seriously very angry, pissed, sad n fustrated.. all come into one formula... but wad does it = to? i hav no idea.. i can barely even find a place to vent my anger.. but instead there is a place n a person tt always came to my mind.... tts where i can find peace to relax my mind a while... but still.. life is full of ups n downs.. it sux when it hits.. n u hav no where to turn to at all... even e slightest person whom u wish to b there, isn... everyone has their own lives to live on.. if u don catch up, u will b left behind... seems to me like i hav gave up n decided to b left behind isn it?

i don noe e ans myself... count myself suay with a lousy fri n sat tt made me injured myself out of e dumbest thing... n somehow gettin all these nonsense... well.. is this heaven's so call "halloween" gift for me?? haha.. sounds cheezed up.. hahahahahaha... this is sooo full of shit... hahahahahahahaha~~ wooo y my tears fallin... hahahahahahahahaha~~ isst sooo funny??? hahahahahahahahaha... i don noe.... hahahahahahahaha...

a song tt makes me felt peaceful for a while... mayb tts y its call rest in peace and fly away......

FLIES AWAY~~~~~~

2008-10-18T14:50:00.003+08:00

well.. the 1st wk of sch is over... things has been quite hectic...

there's more project n less theories... well.. i kinda prefered more theory.. but ahh well.. anywae... both core sub got a part whereby all of us were separated into diff grp.. nt so bad...

but guess wad, all e buyin of module books, notes n files has almost burnt a HUGE hole in most of our wallets i believe... ahh well.. usually 1st wk is burnt wallet wk.. so cant b helped i guess...

lessons has brought to a whole new level... so its somethin new.. besides tt ACCPAC programme.. thou gt use it only once, but was sooooo complicated till i almost died... but now tryin to get e hang of it.. nt too bad.. but its like u cant delete or do any crap to it if u r wrong, only can ask e lecturer see wad can b done with it.. so its like a tense up situation if u screw it... haha..

alrite.. besides sch.. of course i gt my own things to deal with.. for e past wk besides e weather gt me partly moody, there r other things tt made me extremely moody n lost... start off due to some blardie issue... e drunkard in e hse is havin conflict with his siblings again.. n guess wad.. i m involve indirectly for waD? i don noe! when they cant find him, they will blast my hp juz to get thru him.. i don noe wad e F is goin on la... its like they r scoldings n grumblin in my ears like as thou i was e one tt did somethin to deserve their scoldins.... wadeva it is.. i m tryin to let it b n nt add on anymore shit as wad a fren has taught me (indirectly thou)...

2ndly... i don noe.. somehow my mind has been filled with dark clouds floatin all over.. but somehow when i think abt somethin or someone, cups n cups of mocha with a lot of whipped cream start floatin pass my head.. its like funny yet weird kind of thot... when i listen to songs.. some songs sings words of somethin or ppl tt i treasure a lot.. but i juz don noe how to handle it.. i don wanna lose it.. at e same time i keep e memories of it in my heart n mind n nt to cause paranoidance in me.. juz like a cup of mocha with whipped cream which i hav a huge cravin for.. esp coffee bean's one.. heh.... when i see ppl walk pass me with coffee bean or starbucks cups, its like "o man... i wan drink mocha xia".. but as i see my wallet.. i can only sigh n walk away... sheez.. i sound like an extremely poor person.. in actually fact, i seriously m now.. lol.... ahh well.. i can only keep quiet n get on with life... mayb i m still takin things too seriously n thinkin way too much...

anywae.. i feel tt some ppl always say.. they noe wad they r doin, no matter if its relationship with ppl or relationship with family... somehow it doesn show tt way... in fact they may hav indirectly betrayed someone's trust, believe n love in them... well.. this may seem hard to understand.. but seriously.. i wish sometimes ppl shldn ill treat their frens or their love ones... ppl r there when u need them, cuz they appriciate u for who u r n they wanna show tt they care.. so shldn u do e same? n nt ill treat them, by takin advantage of them nor steppin all over them to get to where u r... *warnin.. readers, pls do nt get offended.. cuz i m nt sayin anyone in particular nor pointin fingers at ppl ok, cuz i been hearin stories abt how outside ppl stabbed one another.. its like kinda dwell on me.. * somehow, i been extremely moody n down la.. if u see i m in tt position, whether u wanna talk 2 me.. its entirely up to u... i may seem dao, cuz either i m in deep thots or juz merely don feel like openin my mouth...

if u r somehow offended by it.. i sincerely apologise here 1st...

2008-10-04T11:46:00.003+08:00

well... m bk...

anywae... few days bk, juz gt my results... gd news.. i made it... bad news?? pass liao still aint gd enough.. somemore my grades shown on e com screen, i luff my butt off... CBD(a.k.a. central biz district?)... hahahahaha~~!!! well.. manged to pull my GPA back to e 2 zone.. but my hope to hit at least a 3 b4 i grad will b quite a far goal judgin frm wads gonna happen when oct 13 arrive... sigh...

ahh well.. anywae.. for e last few days for me hav been whole series of ups n downs... had a whole lot of fun over dinner on wed.. haha... thurs was a evenin of laughter... n fri, went airPORK to fetch ah ma bk.. apparently she came in with all e "DA BAO, XIAO BAO" v gao siao... haha... due to time constrain, gotta rush home, almost miz e train xia.. sheez... finally gt home, watch a bit of survivor.. seems like ppl turn nasty when they r in a hunger for winnin... seems kinda rude.. but its true isn it?

as for today.. gt up early like 6? cuz bro don noe y wake up for work made hell lot of noise... then sleep bk after he left.. then came mum's turn... sheez.. can anyone in this hsehold b more considerate?? rawr!!! damn it.. draggin my droopy eyes up n now m here bloggy... goin out ltr for mayb late lunch or mayb dinner.. don noe.. haha!! ahh well.. m done here...

OUT~~~!!!

2008-09-29T12:03:00.003+08:00

well.. was surfin ard youtube n i found this LUNA SEA concert tt was held like last dec... n my fave song, I FOR YOU... sheez.. damn nice la.. all of them except e vocalist look diff la... some hair damn long, only 1 short hair de.. but e vocalist voice still nv fail to sound nice... haha.. yea.. so enjoy this song ya...

for e last few days have been e F1 race on goin... n guess wad, my place here can actually hear e nice vroom vroom of their engines la.. so its like u watchin frm tv n backgrd can hear e real vroom vroom... SURROUND SOUND xia.. cool~~~ haha... n sadly, my idol, KIMI RAIKENON lost at e last 4 laps la.. bcuz he buang qia.. wah lau... damn wasted xia... sob sob... but it was a gd race for alonso... he deserve it... n this race reali had a lot of twist n turns.. y leh.. aiyo.. sg roads so cramp, turn also hav to b careful... nt many chances to overtake e other cars or risk bangin into e crubs... but still.. overall nice nice.. haha.. n so sg will b organisin this race for e nxt 5 yrs liao... heh...

well.. also for e last few days, been out shoppin with mum.. she ah.. biangs.. reali get me killed.. say her mouth, go out shop for my things.. end up i nv buy much, except a bag n jacket, slippers.. e rest r all her stuff la.. like 5 tops, 6 bottoms, 10 over shoes.. wadde sai la... n as usual la, i do all e carryin loh... sigh... well.. life in nt meant to b fair.. juz like yest, my sis join in e shoppin, things gt a lot more... she like almost bought e whole raffles city down... so u can imagine e brands she buy la... ahh well...

anywae... don wanna talk so much liao.. juz wait for this wk, see who will b a kind soul to ask me go out chill.. i don wanna b home, esp today, mum nv work, keep givin me tt blardie stare.. damn nt shuang.. sis bk then havin holidays, nv see her give my sis tt stare... same goes my bro.. damn bias... so ppl.. remb.. nt all families will dote on their youngest child... this theory is pui!! to me...

OUT~~~!!!! EMO~~~~~~

2008-09-25T09:19:00.003+08:00

well..

for e last few days been meetin up with ppl, go hav dinner la, slack la, or even la kopi!! haha.. was all gd....

yest was cool, went to take sg flyer with a fren n her colleague... wheee.. fun fun... haha... thou was kinda ex la.. 20++ xia... biangs... but ok la... was quite worth it... haha.... n whole 30 min ride, to me was kinda short, but still.. pics were taken la... n their in flight compass was quite suxy la.. esp when my geog fail bk at sec sch ah... sigh... but still.. was cool... can see sg so small frm high up here.. hahahaha!! after tt we went hav a steamboat buffet....

n gosh, how much all of us cld eat.... n we sat there like almost 3 hrs.. eat like siaoness.. n e amt i cld eat was eh.. usual la.. nv fail to stunned ppl.. haha... =P... after tt.. all of us walked frm marina sq to city hall.. n of course.. had to walk on e F1 road mah... since e road is close till friday, n e road is there liao.. so juz y nt take pics la.. walk on e road like as thou we OWN it... hahahahaha!!! after tt... sent them off to city hall mrt station, then walk home to digest food... n of course along e way BURP like mad.. haha... eat plus luff too much.. stomach too much gas liao.. hahahaa... >.<....

when i finally gt home... body was burnin like siao again... rawr... had to cool down b4 i can hit e shower... after a nice COLD shower, i tried to knock out.. but end up i cldn... so i flip n flip till like almost 4 am... sheez... tt sux.... n tupid sun la... shine on my backside.. make me wake up... pui!!! blardie hell.. plus my yoyo "pang pui"... damn PUNGENT!! can almost faint down there... zzzz....

yep.. now cant sleep bk liao, juz online n blog loh... so this is abt my holiday 2nd wk so far la... zzzz.. ltr lao bu ask me go join her shoppin... biangs... don noe wad she wanna buy today... sheez.... k la.. tts all folks...

n o0o o0o!! b4 i forget... yest online i found a nice song, thou its v old... but e song nice xia... enjoy....

OUT~~~!!!!

2008-09-13T14:06:00.004+08:00

well... its been a long while...

things here r pretty much ok... yep... well.. exams r here n over n done with.... costin was ok.. thou i screwed some, tax mayb hav to retake due to my own carelessness... for aa1.. cant say much.. but hopefully ok la.. yea...

after tt.. e 1st nite of holidays, finally met up with chio bu n went drinkin... well.. guess wad.. haven drank beer in a long while.. sabo-ed like 3/4 of a jug.. i m like shaky... geee... tt sux.. but still.. managed to walk my way bk... heng ah...

n after tt 2nd nite was ok... went ktv with ah ma, chio bu, mich, primeman n louis.. haha.. was pretty much fun besides e makin primeman n myself waited like no home kids at e mrt while all were like takin their own sweet time.. was ok.. yep... then along e way met ben n start all with e fruit sellin screamin la.. don wan "durian la, watermelon la.. " blah blah.. gao siao la.. on streets of orchard somemore.. malu xia... hahahahaha!!! anywae.. after ktv-in, it was like almost 2? whoa... n all gao siao la.. i usually hate cabs.. don ask me why... wanted to walk bk.. end up all walked with me frm orchard to home... sheez.. n even hav ppl walk till slipper gave way... was fun n paiseh at e same time la.. well.. i juz love walkin home if i can la.. wad can i do... haha... HATE CABS... anywae.. yep...finally reach my place, some say e distance was ok, some say a tiny bit far... ahh well.. all seems same to me.. well.. sg aint so big after all... haha....

n so.. anywae... these few days of home alone, online doin nth... went to watch some videos of ppl doin cover songs of some jrock bands... n happen to see one of superband's top 7 band... i muz say.. their genre is more of rock... saw most of their performance online.. but so far only 1 i find is nice... n i hope their vocalist can brush up more.. other than tt.. i hav no other much complaints.. e other bands i m nt too sure... but juz this band... 异世界... caught my attention... yep... so i will juz post e song frm them tt i find it nice.. hope u all feel e same way... yep.. here it is... enjoy...

yep... tts abt it for now.. hopefully more activities to come along e way... haha.. enjoy holidays ya all...

cheerz...=P

OUT~~~~~

2008-08-25T18:35:00.003+08:00

well...

sch today was ok.. besides lecture.. thot there was no costin lecture.. end up gt... for those who gt my wrong info... sorry sorry!!!!

have been doin more of tax n aa1 revision.. guess hav to start on costin as well.. b4 i forget everythin n return to my lecturer... >.<.... ahh well... anywae... after sch... gt bk my tax revision paper.. aint happie with e wad i gt la.. cuz juz bcuz of one blardie ommition of an entry.. e rest of my ans wrong... damn painful la.. spend quite a bit of effort doin them... aa1 still kinda jammed.. but don noe y didn think abt askin... mayb i m juz shy?? or fear kenna nag or wad... aiya! i don noe la...

n dad's is landed into e hospital... haiz.. leg swollen like pig leg back then still don wanna see doc.. see la! now hav to say hi to hospital liao... zzz... n i feel A&E's service there is like damn SLOW!!!! biangs... made us wait like almost 3 hrs juz to get my dad's admission papers done... after he gt himself in... i didn wan mum to noe tt my gastric pain said hi to me... so i kinda storm off, let them think tt i was juz pissed with e waitin part... didn wan them to noe....

finally gt myself home.. but didn feel like eatin... so juz let it b la.. as much as i worry abt dad's leg... i don noe... its like somehow i m juz angry with him la... drink somemore.. drink... fell down also don noe... whole face also injuries.. aRgH!!! pisses me off~~~ somemore while waitin to do his admission papers, his leg injuries was flowin water out la... mah jiam like blister... it looks damn painful la...

sigh... communication breakdown seems to b on e way... it juz seems so quiet... haiz.. juz sux.. don noe y... i juz wish i cld b e one helpin... juz tt, no chance given... roar!!! i m gonna do my things alr....

OFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF...................

2008-08-23T02:52:00.003+08:00

well.. its sat now...

sometimes i wonder to myself, how can i luff over things that its always there to handle.. as much as i wish i can let go of wad i m facin now.. somehow luffin it off may help... but after a while.. it still comes bk... its like still there...

this wk of sch has been quite ok for me, seems like i juz didn wanna remb anythin tt i m facin, so managed to hide it off for a while.. in fact, been havin no sleep nites for almost this whole wk.. n its seriously gettin me killed.... but still no matter how it is, i feel its wayyy betta than bein home.. i juz don noe y... i don like e feelin of bein home more than before.. somehow its juz seems to me, home is juz a place where i do my daily biz n nth else, no communications, no nth..

its like 4 walls n a ceiling n me facin it all e time... with hws to do... phone calls to chatter on... but juz no communication in e hse.. e atmosphere is as gd as killin me already.. i juz wish i can get out n breathe some air.. but still.. after breathin freely, comin bk home its a drag... don ask y, tts juz now it is....

n this whole wk, i m kinda like a chatterbox who almost cldn stop yakin... n seems to b in command.. well.. guess wad... somehow i don noe how i end up becomin like a commander or wad.. but sorry hor.. i m nt.. haha!!! n yep.. bk home, seems to b ppl steppin all over me juz becuz i m e youngest... as thou she has e biggest position over e hsehold juz becuz she is earnin... hav she eva wonder where her roots r frm? who companied her when she brokedown... n guess wad, she wasn even there for me when i needed her.. all she was with her best fren clubbin while i was locked outside e hsehold juz becuz i didn get her home... juz bcuz of e top 2 role model.. e youngest one gets all e blame n coverin up for them... sayin tt they noe wad they r doin la.. will b home la.. n guess wad.. outside of e door i go... till e dawn of a new day... how nice is tt.... hahahahahahaha!!!

well... OFFF!!!!

2008-08-20T21:42:00.003+08:00

ahhh... well... bk again...

well... anywae... been moody as bad as it is.. as much as i wanna go on n finish up this yr... its nt goin well.. 1st up... i m tired plus lazy to do any homework.. motivation pls anyone? LOLX....

plus in sch.. i been havin fun in some classes, but mostly rest is like dead.. n i mean DEAD!!! cuz its like juz damn worksheets worksheets n more workshit? ahhh... anywae.. kinda chatty n nonsense these few days.... cuz e atmosphere is like full of killin aura?? LOLX.... juz wanna try lighten up things, as much as i, myself also like dyin here...

well... finally i found those jrock bands old songs... some new but mostly old... damn nice... n kinda hooked onto some of miyavi's songs... his guitar playin.. BIANGS!! cool or wad~~~ haha... yep.. n his style is somethin tt we don see everyday la.. imagine one day u walk ard town, then u see someone with miyavi's style plus all e tattoos... wa!!! fierce la.. muz hav spent hundreds n thousands on everythin ba... hmmm...

ahhh well... another wk of sch is abt to finish... n my godsis is gonna b stayin at KL due to some reasons... gonna miss her badly... sigh... hope she comes bk soon....

OFFFFFFFFFFFFF~~~~~~~~

2008-08-18T17:27:00.003+08:00

back with another entry...

*CLAP HANDS!* WOOO I DID DAMN "WELL" FOR CATS LA... 11/100??!!! KNNBCCB!!!!!!!! ROAR!!! BLARDIE HELL!!! SPOIL MY MOOD LA!!!!

n frankly.. now i don noe if i wanna go on a not.. heart damn cold liao...zzz....

anywae.... today in sch was damn noisy of me... mayb i too tired, become restless... play play.. make noise... so those who today irritated by my nonsense... paiseh hor... >.<....

yep... n for e last few days have been quite borin... besides e fact of laggin sleep la...n reali bored.. bo lang jio go out... sigh... ahhh well... ppl hav their own lives n their own "tian kong"... wad to do... zzzz

all well.. tts for all...

OFFFFFFFFFFF~~~~~ n vulgar here ah
paiseh... CRAP + F STUDYIN LAAA!!!! ROAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-08-09T02:15:00.003+08:00

well... HAPPIE 43th BIRTHDAY to SG!

finally... some dinners n stuff r cleared... can barely feel my livers workin... HAHAHA!! juz kiddin... anywae...

didn go sch, cuz i feel goin for "celebration" is gonna make me kenna "cooked" under e hot sun... so i decided to enjoy with my bed.. till noon... gosh e sun was like fire ball... hot like siao.. even e walls near my bed is warm... sheez... made me wake up... n so... i was bored, juz like ah ma was... so i thot go her place nua...

so took a train, da bao food n went her place, n so we all watched sweeney todd?? forgot e spellin xia.. but anywae... was kinda of like a mixture of gorrr, comedy, dark? frankly e bloodness made close to unlimted amt... bt e endin was extremely sad... ahh well.. wad comes ard, goes ard.... tts all i can say abt tt movie...

n watched another old movie.. IRON LADIES.. heh... had a gd luff... was so cute la... was munchin away, cldn stop luffin... almost choked.. haha!!! after tt.. watch all e sg dramas... blah blah.. then came DRAGGY olympic openin ceremony.. n gosh... there were loads of countries gathered.. some de name hor, nv see b4 la.. also saw some familar faces, esp e NBA players, as well as e tennis players... nt bad.. n by then was alr almost 11.. so left e place n head for home...

while was on e phone with ah ma, clumsy me, didn see e train door properly... b4 i knew it... i LANG GA-ED into e door... *oWWWWW~!!* painful xia... heng bo kenna blue black.. if nt reali look like i kenna head shot... but still.. was MALU TO DA CORE LA... zzzzz... qi sin... but ahh well... came home.. slackin... till now don noe y cant sleep...

n as for sch.. had been tryin to b on time.. but still, when i reach there, i didn even feel like doin a single bit of work.. juz wanna knock out on e table... zzz... betta start crackin in studies soon b4 sep's exams comes.. or else can raise both hands n go "WOO HOO!!! I M DEAD!!!"... yep.. so tts abt it la...

nitez..

cheerz..

OUTTA HERE~~~!!!

2008-08-02T17:42:00.003+08:00

well.. first up...

"a round of applause~~* guess wad... out of my 3CAs i screwed 2... thou managed to retake n made e mark... guess exams is gonna b GG for me alr... hahahaha....

of course.. current is e 7th month... guess all e dinners r all gonna pack in real soon... n tonite will b e so called "beginnin" one for me.... still gt more to come along e way... as usual... liver gonna start runnin again... hahaha!!! i haven been bk at my grandparents' foodstall in a long while... kinda miss it... so ltr can go wrecky ard... woo hoo....

gonna b a long nite for me.... somehow.. kinda look forward after a busy long wk... haha... o well.. anywae... i m glad i cld let things go n nt harp on e fact tt it was done to me... yep... forgive n forget n live with it, is e way... no point scoldin ppl childish and immature... if u start scoldin tt to ppl... arent u one as well?? ahh well.. in no position to say tt... haha....

anywae... after watchin dark knight movie with my sis, there was a line tt was said.. "In life... there comes darkness before light"... i gotta admit its damn true... cuz it applies to me as well.. haha... o well..

anywae.. kinda in a mood for crapness today... don noe wad m i so happie abt... die... brain goin sot sot liao....

off~~!!

2008-08-01T16:27:00.003+08:00

another song in which i kept listenin to over e last few wks... cuz its somethin tt keeps me goin when i m lost/down... its like a motivation to keep me goin.... well.. e things tt i m facin current has yet to decrease.... ahh well... anywae.. this song is like in e 90's... startin i thot it was like a borin song... but after a while.. like it a lot.. since then, i hav nt stop listenin to it... check this out... n sadly e mv is disabled in youtube cuz is frm sony BMG.. ahh well...

here's another mv i found.. n e words r here... enjoy

Theres a lot of things I understand,
And theres a lot of things,
That I dont want to know.
But youre the only face,
I recognize, its so damn sweet of you,
To look me in the eyes.
Its all right, Im o.k.,
I think God can explain,
I believe Im the same,
I get carried away
Its alright, Im o.k.,
I think God can explain
Im relieved, Im relaxed,
Ill get over it yet,
The scent of vaseline,
In the summertime,
The feel of an ice cube,
Melting over time,
The world seems bigger than both of us,
Yet it seems so small,
When I begin to cry.
Its all right, Im o.k.,
I think God can explain,
I believe Im the same,
I get carried away
Its alright, Im o.k.,
I think God can explain
Im relieved, Im relaxed,
Ill get over it yet,
Im so much better than you guessed,
Im so much bigger than you guessed,
Im so much brighter than you guessed.
Its all right, Im o.k.,
I think God can explain,
I believe Im the same,
I get carried away
Its alright, Im o.k.,
I think God can explain
Im relieved, Im relaxed,
Ill get over it yet,
Ill get off of your back,
I think God can explain.
I think God can explain

I THINK GOD CAN EXPLAIN...............

OFF.....................

2008-07-21T16:44:00.004+08:00

Recently i came across this song... its quite a old song alr... but its nice... somethin meaningful... so juz wanna let one n all listen this out.. n check put e video.. here it is....

What day is it?
And in what month,
this clock never seemed so alive,
i cant keep up
and i cant backdown
ive been losing so much time
chorus:
cause its you and me
and all of the ppl with nothin to do
nothin to lose
and its you and me
and all of the ppl
and i dont know why
i cant keep my eyes off for you
one of the things that i wanna say
just arent coming out rite
im tripping on words
you got my head spinning
i dont know where to go from here
cause its you and me
and all of the ppl with nothin to do
nothin to Proof
and its you and me
and all of the ppl
and i dont know why
i cant keep my eyes off for you
i cant quite feel your arms
everything she does is beautiful
and everything she does is rite
cause its you and me
and all of the ppl with nothin to do
nothin to lose
and its you and me
and all of the ppl
and i dont know why i cant keep my eyes off for u..
chorus
what day is it?
and in what month?
this clock never seemed so alive..

I don noe y i juz cant keep my eyes off for you~~~

OFF~~

2008-07-17T00:06:00.002+08:00

well... due to demands... i m bk with another entry...

A wk plus ago... i finally gt my bro home... thou he say give him a yr... but i guess, it hit my family as well as myself's limit.... so had to go over to get him... apparently, he was stayin in a 3 rm flat ALONE at tamp.... n his "hse" gate was like disaster... wads worst? i had to break e gates to get mum n myself in... n we spent hrs tellin him, juz pack n get ourselves out of e place... n 3/4 of e time, he keep fearin this will happen, tt will happen... blah blah blah... sheez... juz get out alr... after tt, finally he juz say go bk n see wad happens... so we juz packed his stuff n all, we r off...

Finally home... now he is gettin used to life at home, after bein away for 3 yrs... but stuff juz keep goin la.. his siao ex keep callin his workplace juz to complain her ass off at bro... sheez... get a life la... then my bro hav this funny habit of callin n so called "report" to her every hr... now in order nt to do tt, he calls mum or even ME instead to kill time... n juz today... dead early in e mornin when he reached e office.. his boss called n say tt his ex early in e mornin called, n apparently e call was answered by his colleague... heng at least his boss was nice enough to say, if this goes on, juz contact e cops.... if its others... he wld hav kenna fired or somethin...

n now, he juz managed to get his important documents bk... n his ex wanted him to pay FULL RENTAL FEE WORTH 25K??!!! wadde hell la.... but end up, they come to a term of payin 8k odds instead... cuz its like, his ex sort of sucked his money since they were 2getha 3 yrs bk... seriously i wonder wad made my bro hang on to her bk then... juz e only answer came to mind is... he was blinded by love plus his mere desperation.... ahhh well... now things aint so bad...

but still... after he come bk home... he thinks he can control ppl n expect ppl to change to adapt him... well.. sorry sir.. tt aint gonna work for me... 3 yrs passed... ppl hav changed... they hav their own lives to deal with... as much as me talkin overnite with him for e last 3 nites... i ended up only makin myself fall sick even faster... sigh... thou his issue is somehow "over", i juz hope his ex don come runnin bk n end up, he go bk to his old ways.... my parents hav aged...i don wan them nor my sis as well as myself to go thru this kind of shit again.... 3 yrs is enough alr...

somehow after all this, i kinda lost faith in guys... cuz these 2 men in this hsehold hav somehow set a "good" example by makin all these issues appear n expect we(mum, sis, myself) to handle them... n to sort of like "ying chou" them... it has come to a stage whereby mum almost wanted to let them juz "die" by their own ways.. but... blood is thicker than water... when one person is affected... all kenna... no matter who it is... haiz...

i hav nth more to ask for in this hsehold... juz hope everyone is well n happie.... ahhh... well...

done for this entry....

mixed feelins again.... sigh...

i wish
i hope
keepin e faith left within thy self.......

OUT~~~~~~

2008-07-07T11:35:00.004+08:00

well... m bk with another entry...

HAPPIE YOUTH DAY TO ONE N ALL... LOLX!!!

well.. today apparently there's sch... i was too seh to get myself to sch... sheez... i wonder how our superwoman, ah ma cld do it xia... (muz learn~~) haha... anywae...

frankly.. i m glad i didn go sch today.. if nt i wun b able to talk to someone whom i have nt speak to in a long while.... well.. this is gonna sound contridicting frm e previous entries la.... GUESS WAD?!... My bro(biological) called today... heng i was ard to pick e call, if it was dad who pick e call ah... i think 2nite is gonna b a long nite for e family again....

he called in frm work, checkin up how e family is doin... was happie to hear frm him again... had a chat with him... we talked a lot of his issues for e past 3 yrs away frm home.... he shared quite a lot of things with me... frm his relationship with tt so-called gf of his, as well as my uncles, aunts.... n seriously la... i wasn suprise... cuz somehow i guess this day will come.... things for him currently is a huge mess....i felt sad for him.. but i cant do anythin... e mess was created by him b4 he left home 3 yrs bk.... its like a "wu nai" kind of feeling....

well.. his relationship with tt gal finally come to a conclusion of nt gonna work out but currently still tryin to get over n done with it... n finally he wake up frm it... it took mum, sis n myself a long time after wastin our breath persuadin him to snap out of it(he was close to marryin her without anyone's consent).... FINALLY FINALLY~~ i cried to myself... after 3 long yrs of torturin n hurtin himself as well as e whole family... he cld tell me straight tt he has learn his lesson.... n he regretted makin that decision back then...

during the conversation, i don noe wad came over me... i teared suddenly when he said "Sorry mei.. i m really sorry... i m sorry that these 3 yrs i haven done my job as your brother...." gosh... i was on the verge of cryin out loud.. but somehow, i held bk.... also.. he was fustrated becuz of wad he has done to this family b4 leavin e hse juz becuz for tt gal 3 yrs ago... its been 3 LONG, TIRIN, TORTURING YRS for everyone in e family....

frankly... i m reali happie that he has come to his senses.... but at e same time, e past 3 yrs, wadeva hurtful stuff he has said to me as well as e family, e flashbks is still there... i wondered why??? m i still unable to forgive him as well as myself???? i seriously don noe.. its like a whole lot of question marks in my head....

b4 we end e conversation, he was sayin, give him a yr more(hopefully)... let him clear wadeva mess he hav made... once thats done, he will come home.... when i heard tt... i was glad... cuz... well.. last yr... mum was tellin sis n myself tt, hopefully one day e family will b bk together again... bk then my hates for brother was there n i thot he wldn come bk after wad he has done... when he say he tries his best to come home after a yr... i m glad cuz i m sure mum will b happie...

ar~~!! tears keep falling... i don even noe if its tears of joy or wad.... dear heavens... its been 3 long hard years for everyone in this hsehold... i hope after this yr or hopefully by nxt yr, he will return home n we can all b like b4 once again.....................................

i hope
i hope
i hope.....

this will come true.....

till then......

2008-07-02T03:29:00.002+08:00

well... A LOT of ppl n i MEAN WHOLE AMAZON OF PPL say.....

my language is practically... officially~~~ CHAPALANG!!!!!!

WHY LEH?

i also wanna noe...

HOW COME LEH?

pls ask my sec/pri sch teachers, as all "SEND" back to them...

WHAT ARE U GOING TO DO ABT IT?

chapalang even more?? oops...>.<... uh oh...

ADVICE TO PPL

pls kill me if u cannot tah han my CHAPALANG-NESS...

BUT~~!!

PLS~~ DON IGNORE ME~~~ >.<

2008-06-29T02:10:00.003+08:00

well well.. another day...

was suppose to meet couz this evenin for some slackin.. but didn happen... haha.. he was pissed with some of his fren, cuz they took his kona bike for some stuns doin.. end up, broke certain part of his bike... n frm wad i heard.. fixin n all need like a minimum of ehh.. lets say almost a $400?? wads worst...

those dudes have no balls to b responsible.. well.. they broke it, n they shove off e responsiblilty n nt even like feelin guilty.. n they aint gonna pay like a tiny bit?? sheez... wadde nonsense is tt...

ahh well... wadeva... don noe wads gotten into me lately.. been gettin bumps n all.. yest thot alr suay enough.. today a tiny bit betta... was in some deep thots while cookin some food.. guess wad... when i kinda like flip e meat over... e oil juz splater.. n guess wad? i kenna lo.. heng this time is a small one... 4th finger... extremely "cooked" now... thou can still e fryin pain there.. but wad to do... blame it on nt bein focused me...

ahh well.. e whole time was listenin to e song "Rooftops - by Lost Prophets"... its reali a nice song... kinda emo... well.. ah ma send this to me quite some time ago... its only got into my head recently... but its reali nice... seein e mv.. whoa... was cool xia... sadly i cant paste e mv here... well.. u can go youtube check it out.. even their LIVE version is also good... woo... =P....

yep.. tts abt it...

PAIN~~~~~~ T_T

2008-06-28T00:08:00.003+08:00

well... i muz say.. today is my most clumsiest day yet....

today got up ard noon.. head for e usual routine... guess wad... fell down in e toilet.... n worst.. on my butt.... *ow ow ow*..... after tt... stared out at e window... n carried my yoyo boi n miko gal.. both on my lap... after tt, wanted to get up frm e chair n hit for e shower... while i was watchin out for my doggies where they runnin for... n b4 i can say somethin.. i lang ga-ed into e wall near e kitchen... head prize... after tt... wanted to shower, turn on e wrong tap... instead of turnin on e shower one, end up i turn on e other one... sheez...

after tt... came out... wanted to blow dry hair.. forgot to on e switch of e hair dryer.... gao le lao ban tian then found out nv turn on switch... zzzzzzz.... after tt.. chiong out of hse... met up atul in e train... head down to dhoby ghaut meet e rest... lol... after tt nanny followed by athena reach... left radiah again... *pengs*... power late queen of ours on e run again... end up, we catch e 3.25pm's KANGHU panda... LOLX.... well... radiah came in too late.. we alr inside.. so end up she went jalan jalan....

e show was funny xia.. thou e storyline kinda lame.. but reali is funny... had a gd luff.. n apparently someone who sat nxt to me keep luffin until she cry... make me stunned down there.... funny xia... after tt.. came out... sent atul off cuz she hav to go home early... so left nanny, athena n myself... we head on to istana park there slack... crap a long while... n end up we hav to wait for radiah again... took her time frm BUKIT BATOK la... haha... pro.... we slacked, then went ps jalan.. end up i played arcade with them keep watchin how i play la.. paiseh la... then we slack slack walkin ard... then finally radiah say she comin bk... once again.. we almost faint down there....

finally abt 7.30 she reach... we were like FINALLY~!! mah jiam kenna strike 4D xia... lol... then she treat some of us drinks... then we head bk to istana park again... SLACK SLACK SLACK~~~ killed time.. was fun la.. cuz all makin fun of me... callin me "panda BOSS".... *pengs*... when can i eva leave e words of panda + boss.... i aint boss, n kinda agreed i do look a bit like panda la... sheez... ok... anywae.. after tt, radiah head off for her some activity at fort cannin there? then rest of us head for home... n as usual.. i crapped again.. luff luff luff... till city hall.. bid nanny bye.. athena n myself took e east line bk.. well.. kinda packed.. almost lost balance... zzz... paiseh xia... kenna luff n nagged at by athena(lao bu)... oops... =X... after tt alight at my stop, made my way bk....

well.. chiong shower... was swing my arm till i accidentally whack it against e wall... owwww... prayin hard aint gonna b blue black.. i alr have like 2 here... sheez.... now.. i m online watchin a jrock band, Nightmare's interview... funny to da core xia... e host reali ka jiao them to da core... poor leader, Hitsugi xia.. his part time job last time was wad.. workin 13 HRS in a bread factory peelin bananas... gosh... tt muz b a long n painful job xia... e drummer, ruka's job was quite interestin.. door-to-door salesman, product of baby muscles?? well.. nv heard of tt... n seein how he try to promo... funny la... hahaha.... yep.. i shall post e video here... enjoy....

n one more... gazette's one.. haha... its quite some time ago thou.... but still funny... e hosts were like suanin poor reita... wads worst.. they purposely ignore him... pissed him off xia... so cute xia... check this out... enjoy

anywae...will try hunt for more interestin jrock interview.... cuz this one is good... heh... reali get to see e other side of them besides seein them perform perform perform....

tts for all...

cheerz...=P

2008-06-26T00:55:00.003+08:00

For e last few nites have been quite sleepless for me...

i juz don noe y...

too lost for words...

feelin like somethin is killin me frm e inside...

juz cant find e source of it.....

its like a piece of me is missin somehow....

in need of motivation/encouragement to keep me goin once again...

after watchin e variety show on how their real lives r....

its sad to see how some artist juz gt put down juz by a simple action, words/gesture....

life can b so screwed at times....

n a song tt sings....

"how do i survive living half the life that i knew"

it gt me stuck in my heart n mind....

thankin heavens tt ah ma's grandpa gt out of danger.... life can b juz so fragile...

hopin great granduncle will b fine... n e lesson he hav learn frm doin somethin silly rite after recoverin...

being e youngest in e family... cant possibly juz say n teach in e face of his... but still... i wish he wun do tt again to harm himself...

STANDING ON E ROOFTOP SCREAMING MY HEART OUT~~~

2008-06-23T16:01:00.002+08:00

heh....

well.. yesterday had a few drinks at home with my family... don noe y they were in a mood... n apparently my sis let e doggies try... n they were kinda mabo after tt... so cute la... cuz miko end up sleepin on my lap.... after tt... i head out to meet ah ma n slack...

so we went amk to slack.. b4 tt i was kinda shaky alr... oops.. =x.... end up, we were at some quiet place, makan, drink n tok nonsense... n i started blabber nonsense... "zi high"... kenna luff at la... sheez... but was all fun... n pretty much noisy of me la... anywae.. after tt, we cabbed bk to ah ma's place, e cab uncle was sooo funny la... fun fun... lol... when we gt bk.. we watch tv... n there was this taiwan variety show.. so funny, we quietly giggled... haha... after tt, i knocked out a while at e sofa.. while ah ma head for lala land...

abt 6 odds i left her place with her lil sis who's rushin for sch.. haha... along e way... saw so many students xia... kinda felt funny... cuz few yrs bk.. tt was me.. e student who rush rush to sch don noe for wad... now its like, i m havin holidays n they r startin sch.. think of it.. my couz also start sch today... he was so sian... feelin e monday blues i guess.. after tt crapped with him over sms a bit... then finally gt home...

when i gt home... mum got up all of a sudden... n she told to watch out my health... apparently her colleague who's abt to quit her job had a extremely gd reason... guess wad... her 21 yrs old daughter kenna cancer... my goodness... tts like only 2 yrs my senior only... its damn young la... such a young age kenna such illness... its damn sad... n wads worst... as a mother, her colleague hav to quit her job to take care of her daughter frm now on.... reality can b harsh at times... juz cant help it.... damn... got me all emo-ed a while... sigh... poor gal....

i took my time in e showers.. thinkin abt life can b juz so fragile... i wanna treasure those ard me.. but somehow i juz cant express myself well.. other than keepin quiet most of e time, sometimes i juz cant e rite words to express myself... ahh well... its time to knock out.. haven been able to rest well since i gt bk juz now.... yep... tts abt it for now...

cheerz....

2008-06-17T22:34:00.003+08:00

well... unexpectedly i m bk with another entry...

juz as i was sayin... was suppose to slack at home.... got a call frm ah ma, tt her"VIP" wanna play bball.. so end up i went down play lo...

finally at bedok... we started playin.. sadly ah ma had to leave early to deal with some things at home... sigh.. but anywae... both of us play... after tt one chatty uncle n a dude came n ask to play 2v2.. so juz play lo... until a while ltr.. e dragon dance ppl? wanna hav their trainin, so we had to clear frm e cc court.. sheez...

then end up, we went to a neighbourhood court with e most "cool" hoops n boards u can find... which is crook/low? haha.... ahh well.... so we play on.. then some ppl left, some ppl come in... on n on... in e game, some of us kenna cuts here n there la.. heng at least skin tear, no bleed la.. then came me... some asshole who nv cut his nails... juz HAPPEN to "gua" me by accident la... then end up.. open flower shop lo... nt one flower nt two flowers, but abt 3 bigs flowers lo... mini ones tt didn open tt BIG, i don bother.. skin tear nvm... BLEED somemore... kns.... at least waste a tissue worth of blood? haha... wad a donation day.... damn suay... end up, i hold my anger n decided to sit out n wait for ah ma's "VIP" to finish up e game with e ppl la... after all tt... rest a bit n head for home....

After tt, halfway headin for mrt.. suddenly bleed like siao again... sheez... tt dude sure hav grudges against me... haha... ahh well.... mrt-ed home.... while it still bleed... wad a waste of tissues.... finally got home, chiong for shower, BIANGS... PAIN LIKE SIAO LA!!!!! OW OW OW!!!! wads worst... mum saw it.. kenna nag la... "U GO PLAY BBALL?? OR GO LET PPL SCRATCH AH?"... alamak!!! =.=..... after tt.. gotta kill e so called germs n bacteria off? as usual.. comes e medic alcohol... OW OW OW OW again~~ then OW OW OW all over again.... sheez.... yea.. n sooo i m bk here la... thou seein it now cuz its on my writin hand.... don noe to luff at it or wad... cuz its still bleedin a bit... aint as bad as juz now la... haha...

yep... so a note to readers who play bball with frens or team with ppl... "TOLONG TOLONG AH!!! PLS CUT UR NAILS B4 GO PLAY HOR!!! N I MEAN CUT ALL UR NAILS SHORTER!!! KENNA PPL OR U KENNA, IT AINT GOOD NEWS FOR ALL HOR!! THANK U!! "

hahaha..... ya la... tts abt it.... cheerz all...

time to knock out for me~~~

2008-06-17T17:32:00.003+08:00

well... bloggin has become a habit sometimes... hahaha....

ahh well... start off... well... was cookin some food for myself today since home alone.... so head off to buy some ingredients... happily brought them home... while choppin some vegs, cut myself... blood was all gushin out... for a long while i stared at it... haha.. funny isn it... its like i haven seen blood gushin this much in a long while... e pain juz felt differently... had a couple of flash backs... after tt, continue with wad i was doin.... heng i didn burn down e kitchen... HAHA... tts a joke actually...

finally done with cookin... had my meal, n slacked for e day... chat with some frens over e phone... well... some were bored at home as well.. some were out with their frens or love ones.... how envy xia... sigh.... while typin, e pain is there, it felt weird.. haha.... anywae...

was out for lunch yesterday with my ah ma n her sisters... was cool... n samuel join us a while... was all fun... in e end samuel gotta go cuz he gotta meet his fren... so left e rest of us la... guess bcuz i was tired at e same time i was crappy... i came up with e lamest joke... apparently ah ma's sister were all luffin till they had no where to roll... cute xia... after tt, hang out with them till e nite... was all fun... n played inital D 3 with ah ma n her youngest sis... ah ma n i got ourselves e card as well.. haha.. was damn cute.. cuz we were all gan jiong drivin... n i haven play it in a long while, kinda lost touch.. but was all reali fun... as usual, we played daytona n cars all start flippin over... cuz ah ma n myself were all busy lang ga-in each other like bumper cars... ahhh well.. in e end ah ma won it all... happie as she can b... zibi as i can b... haha.... its time 2 go bk.. sigh...

n so i slowly trained my way bk... nite time rides r always quiet, lonely n borin... music always keeps me goin... almost got myself to marina bay... sheez... cuz after all e fun i had.. was exhausted.... so came home.. slackin n chattin ard... singin my lungs out at e same time... was relaxin.... finally i cldn take it.. started to sneeze like maddness... guess its abt time i m fallin sick... n today my nose is like loose water tap... sheez... it sux.. guess i didn rest enough... n lack of water? haha....

yep... tts abt it for my days la... guess this kind of borin days is gonna keep comin... well.. its betta than bein in sch n stuck with all e sch work n lousy broken down centralised air-cons... HAHAHAHA.....

cheerz to all...

2008-06-12T16:07:00.003+08:00

Finally... m proud to say...

ITS HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

can finally relax.... n i totally wash my hands off e biz alr.... i m done alr.... they r on their own...

well... proud to say.. i screwed my CATs paper... cuz it was reali like kns... sheez.... its like only 1 chap i noe de come out?? wads worst... e rest like lecturer nv reali go thru... so practically e whole 2 hrs i almost spent like 15 mins per qn to STARE n wonder how e hell m i suppose to ans them...oops... haha.... well.. i somehow blamed myself for nt workin hard enough for e paper... its mah jiam like international paper... wad to do....

n apparently my anti-smokin time didn help much... cuz after a wk or less i m back with a pkt in my bag n a stick in my mouth.... like "WOW"... pro xia...

well sch this wk as usual.. slack.. i mean seriously SLACK.... in a way i only stay in sch fully for 2 days... rest i only attend like half day n i m off.... n 2molo, fri.. guess wad.. no lessons at all... so i CLAIM its HOLIDAYS... LOLX....

relation with class ppl now turn for e betta... i m reali glad... but i guess there r still issues la... juz hope things turn out for e betta..... thou things cant b rewind... but still.. i m glad i choose my way to live my own life bk then.... if nt, i guess i will b sufferin for e worst.... things reali r unpredictable along e way... seems to me like nth is foreva... but still.. i do cherish with wad i hav now....

well... sad to say... war was goin on in e hse yesterday which made me reali wanna walk out of e hse to go chill... but it was alr wee hrs in e nite... so i juz covered my ears n blast some music to make them go away... well.. had a tiny tiff with mum early mornin today which ruin my mood badly.... sigh.... o well... i juz don noe y sometimes i reali juz don like goin out with family... nt becuz i cant smoke when i m with them la... but still.. i guess its been yrs... a mini gap is there?? i seriously don noe... haha.... i isolate myself?? don noe as well... ahhh well... movin on...

its holidays... finally no sch, no need face lecturer.... but still.. gonna miss e cafe food??(kinda sick of it somehow thou) haha.... cant wait to hang out with all my frens... well.. hopefully i can make e step by goin out with family... cuz i guess its seriously gonna b kinda an obstacle for me.... =.=....

somehow i envy my cousin who is like travellin out of sg back - to - back... but he aint happie abt it... cuz me n him all same.. love to nua... haha.... slackers.. woo hoo.... n when he told me he bought like quite a few animes bk... cant wait to check them out xia.. heh.... but for now.. i m still havin fun with diablo B.net tt i borrowed frm him... n with some frens who r playin also.. its even more cool... but greedy me wishes for chance to play dota at home also... haha... cuz lan shop = damn chor.... can die... haha... n its been almost foreva since i last touched maple... haha.. i guess i will extremely noob if i go play... n now my com aint givin me face... sometimes it even auto off when i didn do here... guess its gonna "siew deng ki"(don noe if i get it rite) soon.... haha.....

well... after readin a recent entry frm ah ma's blog.. it reali touches me... somehow gt emo all of a sudden.... but still.. i gt over it... but e story reali is meaningful.... o well... recently i been like crybaby... keep tearin out of e blue... but i m glad i hav my doggies ard... esp my yoyo boi.... his blurness reali make me wanna cuddle him... thou he pissed e hell out of me sometimes.... but i stilll love him... cuz he is e 1st pet tt took me quite a while to persude my parents to get him frm e pet shop... haha....

yep... so i will end here la...

happie holidays to one n all... cant wait to catch up soon....

cheerz.....

2008-06-03T13:58:00.003+08:00

well... didn think i will come bk with another entry tt soon... o well.. wadde heck...

anywae... guess wad... had a movie date last nite, wasn as pleasant as i expected.... with all e lateness n all... sigh... nth can b done... catched a movie tt was like 9 odds.. thinkin tt i wun b affected esp by e last transport home... n a news i gt...

guess wad... it happened... sigh... 1st was e seating arrangement, then came crappy ah ne who was like shoutin n shoutin on e phone durin e movie in which i can barely even hear wadde hell e characters r talkin in e movie la...... haiz... i guess too many loopholes along e way n tt it has reali gone e wrong way i guess.. i don noe.. somehow i juz felt somethin is nt rite... due to time constrain, after i walked out of e cinema.. a call frm mum sayin tt my great grandpa(gong gong) passed on... argh... it sux enough to lose so many ppl in one go... now him...

well.. my gong gong.. he's been stayin in china... e 1st time i saw him is when i was only 5 when he came down frm china to visit my grandma n we all brought him ard sg.. which was reali fun... havin me on his back.. luffin n all... after tt, i went to visit him few yrs bk... he was still hyper n chatty as usual... i juz cant believe he actually left juz like tt.. without givin me chance to even say goodbye to him... argh!!! regrets... i seriously hate it....

as for today, e bus didn even give me face at all... comin in all flooded bus... i decided to give up on goin sch since i hav no mood anywae... so end up at home... while i saw some of my classmates online.. guess i aint e only on who didn go sch today... thou nth much can b done now... drownin myself studyin CATs which is comin in like ehhh... few days time... zzz...

ahh crap... thinkin too much once again.. r all pisces like this?? after hearin wad my godsis n "ah ma" said abt my horoscope, i cant help it but to feel tt way.... i guess i hav no guts to face reality n rather hide in my little own world where no one can eva step in.... n b wonderin in my own pool of thots... where impossible things happen... well.. nonsense to say... it aint goin 2....

Slowly, i realise that i hav this tendency to rely on ppl when i cant do anythin alr.. end up, it become a burden to them... i sometimes juz don noe who to contact to hear me out.... as ppl hav their own lives to deal with... only can shut myself... n tolongin tt i can cover my daily exhaustion out.... guess it aint workin... in fact, i m scarein loads of ppl out of my life... sigh.... it sux to b me rite now... feelin an invisible layer of sadness.... it juz seems weird... juz cant describe it....

out~~

2008-06-02T17:36:00.004+08:00

well... beginnin of june come new entry lo...

life has been v down for me... thanx to my frens... i got bk on my feet... but still exhausted... sigh... o well.. it sux being chased out of e hse, juz becuz u r e so called "chu qi tong"... argh... damn it... sux xia...

well... B2 ask me to check this movie out, which recently finally came out on crunchyroll... its call sky of love(jap movie).... well... i muz say its reali a damn nice movie.. thou e storyline n ending seriously is extremely sad... n guess wad.. i gt all emotional n started cryin... sheez... guess wasted loads of tissues... was extremely sad.. well.. it only goes to show one thing, treasure e ones u love... u nv noe when fate will come by??.. as well as noein tt life is fragile... treasure it...

*cough cough*

i guess tt doesn apply for me... haha... o well... i guess i thot it thru... its time for me to start givin up on smokin once again... i guess its gonna b one of e toughest thing for me to go thru tt once again, after i stop when i was 15? gosh.. still had e reasons bk then due to my age... now i don noe wads gonna b my reason... hahahahax.... but i guess.. its best for all e ppl ard me.. i wldn wan them to die faster than me becuz of 2nd hand la... bad... hmmm... mayb best for me to hide n lone e time off once again.... thou my body condition isn good at all... said i may lose my life if i torture it again....

well... if only i can hav e life like i had when i was young... my brother is bk nxt to me... playin bball like we do when we were kids... ka jiao-in my sis once in a while, when she is doin her homework n how she gt irritated... o.. how i miss my siblings bk then... but now, one is down with her own work, shouts at me for no reason.... e other one left with a gal.. livin somewhere in sg where i don even noe... now all bcuz of one drunkard.... n one dude tt left with a gal.. leavin e messy stall for me to clear up.. cuz mum n sis cant b bothered alr... i m left alone clearin up this deserted stall.... its so fustratin sometimes tt i wish i cld juz hide a place n cry...

I wondered to myself all e time...

"why m i doin this?"

"why shld i do this when it aint my prob?"

"why cant things juz go bk e way it use to be?"

"why love was given to my siblings when they don hav to do other shit, but i was given tt burden to carry with no love given?"

well... i guess i doubt myself too much tt its so hard to let things go... darkness is wad i had all e time... life is juz tough to hang on some times... man.. i juz wish i can cry all i wan... i juz cant express myself... argh... tt seriously sux... as i listenin to this song "heavenly days - Yui Aragaki"(sky of love jap movie OST).. thou i don understand e words currently... but somehow tears juz start fallin... well.. kinda weird feelin... i guess its best to cry out alone.. at least no one wun b able to see all ur sorrows n pain... cryin cryin cryin.... sigh....

k la.. done for this entry....

out~~

2008-05-29T02:04:00.003+08:00

well well.. another entry once again... started off...

"HAPPIE BIRTHDAY TO MR KELVIN QUEK!!! hav a great day ahead..."

*cough cough*

anywae.. movin on... guess wad?? I M BLARDIE HELL DONE WITH MY BLARDIE CAs.. WOO HOO~~~!!!!! time for some break b4 nxt friday arrives.. knn its actually CATs paper la.. i si bei worried xia... i prayin n tolong things don go haywire.. so b4 tt day... for now, time for some relaxin moments.. enjoyin e cold weather these few days...

cant wait to nua with frens once again, thou busy sch de busy sch, busy work de also busy work.. so kinda tough to meet up i guess... o well... cant do anythin much now can i... haha... its kinda borin here.. free time chiong viwawa.. yada yada yada... haha.. now anime don reali watch much... been watchin D.Gray man, Vampire knights which r all cool.. n been watchin this yaoi anime called "junjou romantica" ... this its damn nice.. well.. i watch it juz becuz its nice n nth else.. so if u all thinkin somewhere.. pls come bk.. haha... =P.... n my music list is once again fill with rock, emo, sad songs... arrr damn... thou can put some happie happie songs.. guess.. it aint my style.. sheez....

but still.. overall.. i m done with this wk or so called month la.. in terms of biz la, sch la... so... its a pretty much relaxin time for me... juz cant wait to finish with jun 6 n await my holidays tt arrive 10 days ltr... cant wait man... its like so near yet so far... haiz... damn long... test of patience.. well.. *NOTTTT*... woo hoo.. i can juz jump up n down now, thou its like 2 am plus plus in e mornin la.. HAHAHAHAX!!! i wanna hang out with all of my frens... whheeee... cant wait~~!! yay yay~~!! cant wait~~!!! yahooo~~!!

k la.. tts abt it la... donez...

cheerz...

2008-05-26T21:34:00.005+08:00

well.. first start off.. thou didn celebrate with e rest.... juz wanna wish

JIA NING A HAPPIE 19TH BIRTHDAY WOR!!!!!

haha... anywae... i guess this month will b one of e most entries i hav so far?? haha .. cuz partly i start to managed my time a bit betta? i don noe.. but still.. sleepless nites still counts... anywae... did quite badly for my CATs mock test... i seriously doubt myself wads goin on... cuz its like i did study.. i guess it didn help or somethin is up with e way i study?? sheez...

anywae.. last fri.. was a hell of a birthday celebration at sentosa.... y leh? cuz was like hmm... siloso beach of e dead? haha.. no la.. cuz its like bought drinks, snacks n all... chill out there.. was all cool.. then came all ppl gettin a bit seh seh.. wads more.. happenin xia.. well.. aint gonna go straight into details.. but overall was quite a relaxin time... cuz it brought bk memories when i came with my relative who brought me here when i was kid.. thou he is no longer ard.. but still... can nv forget e nonsense tt we did... somehow lookin at e sea or e sky n smokin, its like indirectly can feel their company there... gosh.. ok.. tt sounds weird... anywae... slacked till mornin... along e way.. loads of things happened.. haha... for some reason n for some caused la....

then came mornin where all like.. reali "buay tah han".. mostly chiong cabcab bk... well.. poor me n e rest mrt-ed bk... n hell of a ride.. cuz its like a chaos mixed feelin... end up, was suppose to go shop n check files n do project.. end up i knocked out till like ehhhh evenin time... >.<... alamak!! then came sunday...

went streetfest tt was held at suntec.. n WAH BIANG EH~~!! FREAKIN CROWDED.. mah jiam turn one corner will lang ga xia.. sheez... but all e cosplay characters were all damn cool... had a ball of a time there lookin ard... cldn take pics thou.. cuz my phone sux... sheez... but was all gd.... after tt, i decided to go some place n slack my mind off a while... so ended up somewhere at esplanade... lookin out to e bridge where all e cars were like vvrrrooommmin away... suddenly tears came rollin... was like somethin tt i cldn even describe.. cuz i don even noe how it came... like i was cryin out to somethin tt i don noe wad it was.... it was somethin so weird.... after tt.. decided to head for home..

n there i was.. home for e evenin... today was like chaos... y leh? cuz Aa1 CA... n there goes my A grade.. all thanx to my part B.. gdwill.. i guess end up i still cldn do it... sigh... i guess things r gettin to me reali fast... ja ga-in so many things at e same time is like a bomb tt u hav to keep runnin after it... to make sure it doesn blow in ur face.... man.. this sux...

o well.. rantin enough for e day... time to get down to some serious biz alr... i wonder if i will need to travel to overseas this holiday for some freakin meetin... as usual.. things r still nt cfm... argh.. i hate tt kind of meetin.. its like yada yada yada.... haiz... well..

i guess tts abt it la...

=.0<<< eyes left like tt liao... i m tolong-in i wun need to marathon to finish things till mornin... i wan my bed~~!!!!

2008-05-22T18:54:00.004+08:00

well.. currently is a borin moment for me now...

i so don noe wad awaits me as i m waitin for certain things to b reported to me... sigh... this is ruinin my time to spend with frens... it sux to da core... well.. 2molo is gonna b a happenin nite i guess....

n as usual.. gonna do wad i do best... hide 1 corner n stare at e sea... don ask y... juz tt i somehow find peace there... guess this is wad emo ppl do best?? CRAP~~!! lol.... o well... anywae... today came in sch like late xia.. cuz i cldn even shut my eyes... n when i can finally whack myself to sleep, its alr time to chiong sch... sheez... it has been happenin for e last few wks alr... its extremely tirin.. n its reali a hinderence for me... sigh.... o well... i hope after this whole CAs n CATs finish, can finally let myself enjoy e holidays..... somethin tt i reali cant wait... haha...

o well.. now life in sch for me hasn changed much... i m enjoyin with e ppl ard me... its reali cool... haven felt like tt in a extremely long while.... as usual for me... emo songs durin break time is nv fail to happen... haha... somemore when lesson is on e highest floor.. there's wind n all.. reali coolin... hehe.... but always end up havin a lioness hair la... messy to da core... it juz somehow reminds me of how i actually spent my break hrs at e roof garden... slackin there... even fell asleep there sometimes... haha... some memories there xia...

well.. to those ppl out there who hav lost somethin dear to them... bear in mind tt, in life there is always losin n gainin.. when u lose somethin, u gained somethin on e other hand.. but mayb to u, e difference between e gain n e lose seem so huge....Also, life has always nv been fair... efforts need to b put in... n try nt to make e ppl ard u feel insignificant.... u nv noe tt person will b a fren who will stay when u need.... everyone ard is important... don take them for granted...

yep... tts abt it la...

cheerz to one n all.... =)

2008-05-20T20:42:00.003+08:00

o well...

i m kinda moody.. so decided to write one...

well.. guess wad... came bk frm sch early today.. all thanx to my nonsense gastric... so juz deal with some book studyin... n after tt.. i knock myself out in order to forget e pain.... heng managed to knock out faster... all thanx to previous nite of late turn in.. don noe y i juz cant sleep till like 4 odds in e mornin... haha.... had lessons at like 8.. end up came in a tiny bit late... zzz.. wadde hell xia...

2molo is gonna b e same thing again... guess someone is gonna give me mornin call... i don noe if she will give la.. hav a gut feelin she wun.. haha.. aint gonna say who... sighs... 2molo CATs mock test.. biangs *SOMEONE KILL ME PLSSS~~!!* its like so much to store in e brain, mah jiam like takin GBs to store in xia.. sheez.... but still.. like wad ppl say.. it gives a good gage of how e main CATs paper is like... cuz i juz gt e letter containin all e info of e exam things la.. n guess wad.. my desk no. is like a 7k no.?? so u can imagine how many ppl is gonna squeeze their ass into e hall xia.. but guess wad.. exam hall at expo la.. so gonna b a huge "casts" of ppl there... haha...

well.. i muz say.. today's class was quite okie.. managed to catch up with things in class.. but nt with tax la.. as usual.. i don noe i juz cant take tt cher... well.. understand tt go sch for own self.. but i juz reali wanna whack e cher at e sight xia.... damn it... violence in mind *whacks it off*... o well... anywae... life has been turnin for e better a bit... i m happie with wad i hav.... but still... loads to carry on... as usual.. ppl always say.. life goes on.. it doesn stop till ur last breath....

so things as always will come along ur way... n how its gonna turn out to b... is all in both ur mind n hands.... yep.... i juz cant wait for e damn holiday xia.. cuz one, i will b finish with my CATs, 2, i will b finished with e CAs in sch... so gonna b quite free by then... n e promise made to hang out for coffee is onz... don forget wor b(2)... haha... =P..... as hangin out with e rest of my frens... juz cant wait to break away frm sch for a while.... sadly now.. i m missin my godsis who's currently in KL la... its been a long while since i last seen her... sigh.... ahh well...

i guess tts all for today la...

cheerz to one n all... :)

2008-05-04T22:21:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO E MAY BABIES!!!!

well... its may alr... alr countin down to a lot of things xia... o well... ppl's birthday, CATs comin up, common test comin... welll... times flies i guess...

anywae... recently had a mini chat with a neighbour whom i haven seen in YRs... he's also abt 2 yrs my senior... he was talkin abt how nonsense ppl can b... its like when a person frm his class thinks tt she didn do anythin wrong... so end up pushin all e blames to him... assume tt its a miniture prob, n he was e one who was gettin all e attention n makin this prob BIG... but guess wad... she was e one who made a big prob out of it by sayin ard...

end up, e whole grp believed her n another gal n another guy who started spreadin ard e grp tt he was v closed to. sayin tt stickin to my neighbour, u will end up kenna stabbed at e bk... but its like when e 3 of them nt shuang with some ppl in e grp, they will start stabbin e person to him by insultin tt person till no end.... n he juz listen wadeva it is... its come a point in time whereby a person changed, n ppl may see things differently... but still... he said.. its like... a prob, juz tt they don wanna admit it... n causin a big hoo haa in e grp.. n wads worst, they actually made sure e whole grp doesn talk to him.... i mean how childish can they go? hav tt grp of ppl eva consider wad happens when this hits them, how wld they feel? happie? shiok?

but still... he is now all on his own sch... thou he has a few classmates ard... but still.. tt whole grp tt he was closed to, still gives him tt look like, why de fuck shld i talk to u, ltr u stab me at e bk.... when i heard.. i was like.. come on la... its like ppl rather listens to wad ppl say then seein for themselves.... ppl in tt grp hav actually lost a fren juz like tt... well.. he juz said.. they r in their own world.. cant even b bothered with the ppl they actually hurt... n he was glad tt he saw rite thru those ppl.... in a way he calls them shallow ppl for nt actually seein e truth.. n comfirm bite a conclusion tt e person is rotten like an apple.... o well... i guess life always isn fair...

i hav been thru wad he has gone... but still... i guess.. tts life i hav to go thru.... its always an obstacle tt stops us along e way.. n make us reflect wad we hav done, as well as think of e way to overcome it....

o well... tts abt la....

done for this month i guess.. haha.. i don noe.. mayb along e way entries will come by ba....

2008-04-14T17:29:00.001+08:00

well.. to start... OH FUCK!

ITS SCH DAYS ONCE AGAIN... borin as usual... with e LATE START of sch.. worst.. LATE END of sch... sheez..

o well.. anywae.. today.. proud to say.. I PON TANG LA! not whole thing la.. ehhh.. last hr only? haha... so was kinda moody at home... when my online fren ask me to watch this video.. i luff till i choke on my smoke... oops... o well... yep.. thou its kinda racist n all... but luff like hell.. so wanna post this up n u ppl if wanna hav a gd luff.. check this out..

tts abt it la... cheerz...

2008-04-04T00:58:00.006+08:00

well... m bk bloggin.. anywae.. start off.. exams r done.. time for holidays.. start off... changed my hairstyle.. rebonded it.. i guess many saw liao la.. but still anywae...

i gt a chance to go HK... travelled there with mum n sis.. frankly.. wasn as fantastic as i had in taipei... well.. i don noe.. guess its e kind of food offered ba... haha... but still.. nt bad la.. well.. e weather there was quite ok.. but e one thing tt killed me was.. their haze.. damn it... fell sick there la.. spoiler.. pui!! i will say pic speaks a thousand words... here they r...

MY GOD!! T3 leh.. don play play... big xia.. somemore can link to other terminal juz a walk away...

tts how e hotel rm look like la.. had quite a tough time findin our OWN way there.. zzz..

well.. tts e ferry habour to get to HK island.. cost like HK$2.2? damn cheap la.. n its a few mins ride...

well.. in ferry.. bored mah... so take pics of e nice HK island.. buildins damn tall xia... kong bu....

well.. this is ocean park... e rides were behind a hill.. so we had to take cable car there.. but this is e main gate of course.. sunny tt day...

interestin jellyfish when we went explorin e underwaterworld... was facinatin.. even betta than sentosa's.. as usual.. cuz e place is HUGE!!!!

while explorin e whole ocean park... gt escalator mah... biangs.. 1 trip up or down is like mins xia... bored to da core...

well.. tts at da yu san.. at least a 20 mins cable car ride.. wootz.. sure fun... n e stair climbin to get to e buddah was okie la.. thou almost gt my sis n mum killed.. n i had to wait... o well...

well.. this is at macau... loads of famous movie stars go there film scenes... well was all cool.. but e only thing tt spoil this pic is e damn bag.. well.. nt mine thou...

well.. its evenin time... n e lights of e casinos r on... see how waste of electricity n bright they r... if sg gt this amt.. can use for months or even yrs? hmmm i wonder...

well.. a pic with mum.. n guess wad.. its gettin colder.. sheez...

this was found central of macau.. reminds me of e "CURSED OF E KIM HUAY~~" haha...

well... in taipei there was a fishermen's wraf.. guess wad.. macau also hav their v own.. thou both logos look almost similar thou..

well... we don see this is sg anymore now, do we? haha... thou wrote "new yeohan" seriously.. aint tt "new".. oops.. XD...

well... last look at e streets of HK.. its like billboards, signs n lights... waste electricity xia.. sheez...

yep.. tts my 1 wk trip la.. then came 2nd wk... was more of payin all e CATs n catchin up with my sleep after missin hrs of sleep due to shoppin almost 24/7... o well...

came this wk... came bk sch for CATs revision.. our lecturer.. frankly.. i thot he was like some stern person with girly looks.. o well... after all tt.. was nonsense la.. thou he can b quite fast paced.. but his lesson aint so bad... enjoyed it thou.. cuz previous nite didn sleep la.. zzz... kinda half dead.. but it wasn like in sch's lesson.. tt one i BAO JIAK SLEEP THRU... n checked my results... o well.. dropped badly this time... guess its all thx to mps in which i noe i screwed it.. n e rest wasn fantastic either... o well.. over n done with... get on with life... gosh.. i can barely even diff wad is day n nite alr... sheez... tts half cool n half bad? haha...

come to think of it... i been thinkin abt stuff, n ppl whom i came across.. i notice one thing... its like ppl tend to b selective.. in terms of work, their pay amts, as well as e frens they make... some juz wanna b cool by hangin out with e cool gang ppl.. leavin out frens who hav been there for them frm e beginnin.. they take advantage with wad they hav.. stabbed ppl all over to get to where they wanna be... in which i think.. its no point... thou ppl may take tt particular person or grp of ppl for their coolness or cuteness or wadeva u call la.. u stab them juz becuz u nt shuang with them, n u dare smile n b frens with them juz becuz they treat u well by gettin u wadeva u wan or company u wheneva u need... or treat them invisible when u hav new ppl ard u n ignore them... i mean wads e point.. it goes to show wad kind of person u r... frens/colleague or wad so eva.. hav feelins.. compromise is one thing.. but if u compromise n complain ur ass of at ppl's back at e end.. i mean don bother goin at e beginnin la..

thou ppl did tt juz to wad they call "cover ca ceng" la... but still.. imagine ppl did bk at u... how wld u feel? i don noe abt u la... but if it was me.. i will hav an extreme suxy feelin... thou i still rant over certain things... but still i wldn wan ppl to get hurt at e end la... so while thinkin abt how 2 get on with things ard me.. this juz pop pass my mind... k la... i noe this sounds ugly here.. well.. juz a thot...

anywae.. done for here la.. cheerz....

2008-03-05T20:11:00.003+08:00

well.. i noe i haven blog in a long while...

let me start off with my birthday.. well.. i had quite a memorial birthday.. with QB mates celebratin with me.. which i was reali touched... then came fri when ah ma they all also sort of like celebrated birthday with me also.. was all good...

yep.. anywae... these days hav been quite down for me as usual.. as much as things r still movin smoothly la.. but i don noe y i been emo or fierce look once again.. guess my fear of hurt n all juz dwells back upon me...

anywae.. recently i happen to hear the gazette's new song.. its damn nice xia.. thou its jap song la.. juz happen to see e lyrics.. e words somehow reali inprint into my heart n head for now i guess... n e music is reali v good... n yest i juz happen to see e mv.. which is cool.. so i m leavin e mv for one n all to check it out la.. to those who like jrock.. this will b one of them la.. cheerz to all.. heres e mv...

2008-02-10T19:00:00.000+08:00

welly... back again with new entry...

haha... anywae.. start off.. eve of cny.. had a reunion dinner at grandparents' place... nth much ate.. cuz so much seafood which i cant even touch.. so it was like eatin air? haha... o well... kinda used to havin nt much food ard to b eaten... then head down for a stroll to digest.. haha.... seein coffee shop was like empty... 7-11 was flooded... was kinda funny... anywae.. was juz killin time.. so head to 816's playgrd there to slack.. brings back so much fun memories... then after tt head for home....

1 day of cny.. so many unexpected relatives frm my dad's side came.. all lookin bored at usual.. n when they came i was like still sleepin? haha... tts rude.. but still... no one woke me up.. so juz take it as nth.... after they left, its up to my grandparents' place to sleep again... wanted to get some rest, end up my little cousins all came runnin, ridin on my back gettin me to play n watch WINX with them la... haha.. was cute.. after tt, head for home, change again, head for marina sq with mum n sis n guess wad.. for e 1st time after 7-8 yrs.. we actually watched a movie.. n it was KUNGFU DUNK! lol... e movie was good... funny to da core.. kinda lame at some parts.. but was nt bad... after tt.. we walked ard suntec a bit... but due to my new shoes, my poor toes hurt like crazy... sheez.... after tt.. head for home n knocked out again...

2nd day of cny... slacked e whole day till evenin head for "AH MA"s place for "BAI NIAN"... had so much fun.. drank quite a bit of red wine, a bit of beer, also some hard liquor... after tt.. crashed at her place till nxt day noon.. haha...

as for yest.. bored e whole day... till evenin... met up with godsis... tried on my new yr clothes which is to me la.. "EXTREMELY GIRLIE" n when she saw me.. she juz stunned n whole time went "OMG" with her eyes abt to pop la.. then we watched a movie, end up 2nd godsis wanna meet for chill... zzz... so end up slack for sometime n met 2nd godsis... so we chilled... quite a lot of things to catch up on... haha... also 2molo my godsis is gonna hav her 1st day of sch... haha.. wishin her all e best... after tt.. we chilled all e way to this mornin... was all good... had to walked bk... thou there was trains n buses la.. but still.. so near... y nt walk lor.. was extremely quiet n COLD~~ lol.... but still e walk was ok with music plugged in my ears... but as usual.. wearin new shoes.. so leg hurts again la...

today didn slept much.. i don noe y... guess juz don wanna waste time on sleepin.. haha... wanted to come online.. but sis was usin lappy... argh... anywae... now my whole family is out.. leavin me alone in e hse with no disturbance... heh.... chewin on milk candy n typin is fun! haha... anywae... cny has been quite borin... but still i enjoy it... cuz don need to go sch mah... oops.. die... hav been playin n nt studyin... woo~~ i m soooo DEAD..... o well.. juz sing till e days pass till i can calm myself down.... much thots n emotions step in these few days... its been drainin much of me.... e feelin sux man... sheez... when will it go away.. its juz stayin there no matter how hard i wanna leave it to b.... when will i wake up to reality n nt lettin it strike when i m nt ready for it... damn... pui....

o well... i guess i hav to keep havin e faith in myself as e days pass.... tts all la... hope everyone had a great holiday or great time collectin ANG PAOs... haha.... sch/work starts 2molo.. sux man.. but still.. suck it up... zzz...

cheerz to all....

2008-02-05T22:12:00.000+08:00

finally decided to update.. since cny comin la.. don let it rot like siao...

well.. its tt time of e yr.. where ang paos considered pourin in... well... guess wad.. e cny to me is like nth... more of reunion then done... well... i guess cny will b one of e most free days for me... its like nth.. borin as it is.. so if ya same as me.. feel free to JIO GO OUT JALAN OR SOMETHIN~~ haha... =P... as much as i wish i can go genting rite now n enjoy e long wkends.. well..

i m jammed in sg... with crampin of exams comin in whereby e CATs n all comin asap.... well.. e only chance i get to relax a bit will b e upcomin HK trip... sheez... tts seems long... well.. cant reali wait to go xia....

well... these days sch has been fine.. thou i don noe y i m still in mood for missin sch n missin out on so much things in sch... well... i reali don noe wads up with me... i m still feelin e tireness... guess my stomach weakenin has started to take its toll... but wtf.... things r ok so far.. i m glad to talk around.... after lookin at all my CA grades... well.. still ok... a lot more diff than in previous terms n wad i gt back at sec sch la... haha....

well.. been watchin shows n news around here n there... after readin today's newpaper, i feel like killin some taiwanese ppl... biangs.. say our eng sounds weird? alamak... theirs leh? hav they eva relfect upon wad r they n e citizens there speakin eng like? its like nonsense la.. so wad if ours sound weird... then they muz b insultin e englishmen who started eng speakin xia... gosh... wonder wad was goin thru their minds...zzz...

anywae... i don noe y these days e weather has been like hot or cold or even both... but now at my hse here seriously relfects on how my mood is... COLD~ well... i been cold i guess... n my nails today is like crazy la... all thanx to some artist in e hse.. haha... come wad.. somethin like bronze on 3 fingers.. then e rest is wad? ORANGE! wadde F?? guess wad those 2 orange nails represent? cny lor... wadde hell.... siao... thou i admit la.. nail polish do look nice la... but i guess my image more of emo? haha.. don noe la.. anyhow whack.... i also nt interested in it anywae... juz a "tester" they call it? haha....

also.. slowly after things r gettin done one by one... new things r also comin in.. more crisis to face... less mood for food.... more mood for get aways... less mood for books n preparation for exams.. also.. nt to mention more time to kill lungs? =X... oops... o well... i guess... livin a world in darkness is inevitable? bein able to keep myself up happie seems so tough.. i seriously don noe y... i guess i dwell n wallow into all these things too much... argh.. ok.. tt sux... time to listen some oldies to keep myself down... actually.. a sudden thot of somethin its like hard to explain... i was watchin this show on ch 8... was 9pm show ah... abt one guy who is togetha with this gal, end up he likes her best fren ah... when things turn out bitter... he told e gal things to sort of like betray her best fren, end up things so far i see its like turnin for extreme bitterness... i guess tts how some things r.. when things u cant get it.. u juz go e betrayal way.. thinkin that u can get back to where u r previously... but nt knowin actually many ppl will get hurt by tt fact...

o well... much is said... so tts abt it la.... juz wanna wish one all a PROSPEROUS CHINESE NEW YR! n if ya nt havin cny... wish ya ENJOY YOUR HOLIDAYS!

cheerz... :)

2008-01-16T17:27:00.001+08:00

well.. back with another entry...

haha... well.. come to think of it, as my hair grew longer n longer each day, more n more things keep passin my mind... well.. finally i hav hand over relatives' biz to e 2 trustable ppl. now i can wash my hands off these things.... well... bk at sch... but somehow keep fallin sick due to my extremely weak stomach... haha... still bother climbin stairs.. almost half of my life went... n my legs were wobbly at e end of it... i bet e rest of them also... haha... o well...

n also last wk.. went phuture?(club nxt to zouk).. was kinda messy... but overall fun... n guess wad... i was sabo to dance la.. n its like i don noe how la.. then i feel like retarded there la... but in e end... sua la.. chiong la.. dance... so malu-a-ting xia! buay tah han... then after tt... met up with my godsis... chilled with her till mornin... well... its nice to chill out once again.. after sch has been extremely down for me somehow... i don noe how to describe la... but still.. life goes on...

i m wishin to get my drivin licence asap la... but still don noe y i m so lazy to go book dates for it la... sigh... mayb scared need retake again ba.. mayb i seriously don like e feeling ba... haha.... well....

yep... i don noe y these days i hav no mood to b online... haha.... so if those who wanna chat with me online, please forgive me... if wanna chat or wad... sms or give me a miss call ya.... hee... sorry... :X....

yep... so far tts abt it la....

cheerz to all.... done for now..

OUT~~~~~ WAITING~~~~~

2008-01-06T18:40:00.000+08:00

well... back with another entry...

as much as i wish holidays will nv end... well.. sch is startin 2molo... i guess many ppl r still in their holiday mood.. same goes for myself... haha...

well.. since holidays this time isn holidays for me.. i cant complaint much... as much experiences hav gain... but still lots r lost... n its almost impossible to hav it bk.... wadeva it is.... life hav to go on....

anywae.. i was watch "one tree hill(think was season 3)" with my sis.... well... we watched it like e whole of last nite... much in those eps struck on me.. like those fren betrayals... n how some ppl actually speaks e nastiest things over a recordin video abt high sch when they r actually popular or nt... n end up... as someone wasn bein remembered in that sch.. end up he lost his mind n started killin students... well... its seems quite common in e US i guess.. esp in high sch... but overall... he juz wans some ppl to remember him n show concerns... mayb he gave in too much effort to juz go remember almost each n every single person in that high sch.... n he was bein left alone, with his best buds not contactin him over e last yr.... n end up.. when that guy cldn take it... he killed himself as he knows for sure tt... once a wrong step is taken, he can never go back....

n one more... is a pair of brothers.. where by e older brother is gentle... nice n all.. while his younger bro is ruthless, evil-minded, bears grudges n all.... after they grew up.. when e younger bro becomes e mayor of tt town... he felt rather lonely... n he was almost burnt to death last season by his OWN WIFE! gosh... but he survived... but nt assumin is his wife, he kept in his mind tt its actually his older bro who wans him dead..... so after e high sch gun shootin... somehow while e older bro was there... e psyco guy killed himself... n sadly after tt.. e mayor step in... seein his older bro havin everythin tt he don hav... so bearin much jealousy, he picks e gun n shoot HIS OWN BROTHER! but at e final ep of this season, then he found out tt he made a mistake... n he was extremely guilty... well.. i wun b suprise if he is bein swallowed by e guilt of killin his own kin brother....

well.. sometimes i guess ppl tends to take things way too seriously.. such as myself... esp after much ard e hsehold happen... thou mostly now it involves more of my father's siblings side than own family in which i don reali like it....nt gonna go in details... but still overall... sux it up n move on will b e best....

sometimes things nt meant to b known always gets in somehow... without anyone noein.... well.... i m nt gonna go dwell n make myself even more depress n eva.. when things ard e shop alr got me tired enough... n now its back to sch.. where final sch term exams is abt to come in... its gonna b one of e toughest obstacles in jugglin both things in sch n in shop.. tts somethin i m gonna hav to eva face in life for now... i bet there r more to come.... well... a usual loner in most ways... so bein ignored or wad, i guess cant do much... as i don wanna cause anymore misunderstandins as it hav alr.... juz keepin the faith n hope to finish wad i hav to n move on with wad i need to... as i actually kinda bothered a lot abt wads gonna b e expression on ppl's face... none can b done as well.... gastic pains me more than eva every single day... e fear tt i hav is actually havin a sickness tt isn juz a mere gastic pains.... well... anywae... tts abt it..... gonna go enjoy my last few more hrs of holiday..... sigh.....

DOWN~~~~~~ OUT~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

2008-01-01T16:38:00.000+08:00

well... its been eyons since i last blogged... haha

anywae.., simple entry... juz wanna wish one n all a

BLESSED YEAR 2008!!!!! wootz.....

tts all... haha... cheerz to all... gtg... SLEEP!!!

2007-12-16T15:08:00.000+08:00

argh... i m extremely pissed now... juz came bk frm TTS hospital... haven touch my bed... zzzz...

my sis who came bk juz now mornin 4 am was bein robbed by 2 malay pigs... pui... somemore one was a damn fat lady... e other i guess its her bf or wad la.. then e fat pig whack my sis like no one biz la.. somemore still pull her by e hair... wah lau... they hav no brains... eat too full nth betta to do ba...

roar... if i eva see them near my place... i make sure i will peel their skins, tear their bones n make sure get them wipe off e face of e earth.... damn it... i m alr been quite moody enough n this kind of bullshit comes.... argh... i m alr sad enough after so much things has happen.. n now seein my sis like tt... it saddens me even more... argh... nv felt this much suxy in a long while.... its like i can solve nth.... argh... wtf... damn it... if there is one thing i can do now... i wish can get to those 2 goddamn malay pigs.. knock e shit out of e fat bitch n whore, turn them into pieces to e cops sua... argh!! time for cold shower... argh.... this is extremely angerin me!

ROAR!!~~!! F THIS KIND OF BULLCRAP!!!

OUT~!!!

2007-12-15T04:35:00.000+08:00

finally... home at last... well.. haven reali been able to sleep juz now.. so mayb after this its time for me to reali crash...

anywae... thou was still kinda moody today... but still my godsis brighten up my day... well.. started off i met her at abt 5 plus at lavender station.. so we took a train down to changi airport to pick her fren who came to sg for 1st time frm KL.. lol... when he came.. he was sort of jammed at e custom ah? had to fill in some immigration form.. took him quite a while.. so my godsis n i were kinda crappin away la.. which was gao siao la... finally... when he finally gt out.. we intro-ed ourselves... n head down to little india there.. don noe for wad.. wanted to try e african food there.. but end up was flooded.. damn.. so end up head for money changer... after tt... we cabbed down to shaw towers there n checked him in to a hotel near by... after tt.. head down to bencoolen for dinner... n he was like biangs... start off, no food.. but beer... n i kenna 1 bottle... nvm... after tt head for 7-11... he gt e absolut vodka.. n some other small bottles.. for us to share... gao siao la.. after tt.. head back to e hotel to chill... was watchin movie over AXN... then he keep askin us drink drink... =.=.... nvm...

after tt... my godsis close fren came... she drives mah... so after tt.. we head down to orchard tower... went into IPANEMA bar.... as usual.. sneazy, with bouncers surroundin e place la.. heng.. cuz last time was like even worst? haha... when my godsis fren entered, he ji tao go buy us drinks liao.. biangs... kong bu la... anywae..but still... their live band is i dare say.. E BEST LIVE BAND i hav heard so far... their both vocalist was like.. gosh... damn gao lat la... n their band was like damn good xia... they play frm pop... to rock.. so on... its all damn good.. one of e vocalist was requested to sing 1 song.. which was damn high la.. n he managed to pull it off damn nicely.. e crowd went rowdy xia... was high.. after tt.. was DJ's music time... n frm a distance seein e DJ, he remind me of someone i see b4... juz cant remb who la... zzzz... o well.. anywae.. both of my godsis frens can dance well la... hot xia.. haha.. after tt.. my godsis dragged me to e dancefloor la.. OMG... gan pua paiseh la.... but was all fun... after tt.. was like goin 3.45? my godsis fren hav to leave... so we left e place... she drove all of us back somewhere near e hotel... so i walked back.. while she drove my godsis home... i guess my godsis is in like a bad mood.. cuz of some issue with another fren... haiz... hope she is feelin betta now...

well.. now looks like its goin 5 in e mornin soon... i m like extremely shag here.. argh... crashin time baby! oops.. jia lat.. still high... well.. regardless of wad it is now... i wun say much... don wan cause anymore inconvience to 1 n all... also... to those who r goin overseas this holiday, I WISH U ALL NTH BUT BON VOYAGE + HAV FUN ya.... yep... tts abt it la...

CRASHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~~~~~~~

2007-12-14T11:41:00.000+08:00

well... it comes to a point in time where its time for me to start doin things e rite way.... as wadeva decision ppl made n cover themselves in which i cant do much.... but still future is in my own hands... its gonna b a tough road frm now on i guess...

well... haven been reali myself lately.. cuz after much thot.. i decided to bury certain thots deep in my heart.... regardless it mayb end up killin me frm e inside.. but still.. for e sake of one n all as well as for myself... i guess this mayb e best way...

anywae... today is pretty much borin.. cuz 1stly i m extremely tired.. cuz i haven even touch my bed.. had plans nt to go.. but still i need some stuff frm sch as well as not wantin to owe cher anymore homework... after i m all done with tt... home i go... well.. took me quite a while to get myself home.. well... i m quite uptight somehow... as holidays is gonna b like on my own? haha.. i don noe... i wun hav so much time to think abt it alr..

startin to get myself prepare for more things comin up.. thou home stuff gt help frm sis.. but still... more to come.. cant always rely on her... certain things assigned is best done by own 2 hands... anywae... as much as i wish to say i m ok now.. well... i can say it all as mix feelins? haha.. well.. i can luff it off.. but after tt.. back to sq 1? hmmm... sounds like typical pisces... oops... ok.. i think i m goin haywire.... time for some crashin.. before i gonna relax with my godsis at changi airport? haha... its been quite a while since i last been to e airport... kinda miz e place.. as there were memories i wld wish to remb....

mayb will update when i come bk....

anywae... a song tt i got so addicted to it cuz its somehow reflects how i feel... haha.. here r e lyrics... Linkin Park - Leave Out All The Rest

I dreamed I was missing, you were so scared
But no one would listen, cause no one else cared
After my dreaming, I woke with this fear
What am I leaving when I'm done here?
So if you're asking me, I want you to know

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
And don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, and leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating, I've shared what I've made
I'm strong on the surface, not all the way through
I've never been perfect, but neither have you
So if you're asking me, I want you to know

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
And don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, and leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting all the hurt inside that you've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come and save me from myself I can be who you are

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
And don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, and leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting all the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
I can be who you are
I can be who you are

CRASHES~~~

2007-12-12T18:51:00.000+08:00

well... i guess its been quite a while since last update alr.. haha.. well.. wad to do? anywae...

lets go bk to last wk.. fri went for job interview with jj, kx, gy, kel, ql, ql's frens, jy, jn.. we went all e way to mediacorp to fill form.. had quite a trouble gettin there... but was all cool.. after tt.. head back to bishan for some dinner n chattin.. but i hav to leave early cuz i gotta head down to bencoolen to met up with my godsis n tutu(my 2 habbo "gang" mates)... haha.. we met up for some chilling session n crapped n photo takin session.. here r some.. check it out...

ehhh.. hand eaten?? hmmmm

nice pic besides 1 lookin blur...tsk tsk tsk.. XD...

after tt.. tutu left while my godsis n myself head down to cine's kbox for some siao k session all e way till MORNIN 6AM! sing until mad xia.. reali gao lat dao bu xing.. lol... after tt.. came out.. extremely shag xia... while my godsis cabbed home, i took train back.. n finally toh on my bed abt 9 plus... n gt up on sat at abt 3 plus? with a fever n minor cold..zzz... then after tt.. com a while.. blast some music stare ceilin? lol.. then watched some tv.. till kel n jy mama msg me if i wanna go find them for dinner... haha... at 1st i didn wanna meet cuz i scared will b rushin for time for nite time's activity.. but in e end i go la.. haha... had dinner with kel, athena n jy mama.. then after tt.. we went bought some drinks over at 7-11.. n guess wad.. athena n jy mama shared drinks cuz we scared tt athena's allergy will work up.. so we didn wanna let her drink actually.. but still in e end... jy mama drank like almost 8/10 of e bottle while athena only drank 2/10 ba.. after tt... jy mama face's was like tomato liao... haha.. after tt.. she fell asleep... so i lent her my cap n jacket n had to leave alr... zzz.. xian... anywae.. so i head to e bus stop near kel's place n took a 168 down.. it was a NONG journey thou it went e expressway la... zzzz... when i finally reach, i had to wait for my 2nd aunt who came out frm jb for a while.. after tt.. settled some stuff with her...

met up with my godsis n head on to tutu's hse n play.. b4 we got there.. guess wad.. we took cab down to THE WRONG BLK LA! WTH!! so we walked down to e correct blk which heng heng quite near la... haha.. then after we gt there, we siao siao until don noe wad la.. take pics like no 2molo... then take n take... till mornin they bth.. sleep liao.. so i didn wanna squeeze my godsis.. so i sat at e sofa.. stare out to e window.. n e weather was like siao de la.. halfway rain, halfway sun DUA DUA... =.=... after tt was alr like noon.. so we watch 881 which i muz say.. its was as nice as i expected it to b.. except some parts funny nia... n also we played with his cute doggie.. call OERO? lol.... oero damn gao siao la.. when he see new faces or wad.. he str away pee... LOLZ.. cute xia... tutu train him like don noe wad liao also no use... anywae.. we also had lunch at his place.. n his mum's cookin was good... yum~ after tt we slack until nite time, then my godsis n i left for causeway point to hav dinner... after tt.. companied her shop a bit... then we head out for a chat n left.. so i took a train back home while she took a bus back... finally its home.. but still only gt to online for a while.. cuz head out for tt.. nt gonna go in details la.. anywae.. finally came this wk la..

nt gonna go all long winded here... i been missin sch for e last 2 days... monday.. cuz i slept like a log n woke up god damn late.. n tues was for work.. haha... so finally i m back at sch today.. thou nth much has change.. haha... anywae.. had mps test.. well.. i hope can do much betta than e previous test(of course de la).... anywae.. after tt.. most of them head off cuz gt their own activities or so... so for bcm, v few ppl attended... haha... anywae.. we head down to do some work.. n PUI! .. i owe cher like 3 letters... WADDE... xian dia0.. nvm.. i bear with it... zzz... so head down for work.. n guess wad.. i cleared 1, but when i hand in e 2nd one.. all becuz of one letter S which was considered to her "BIG S" when it isn, kenna one word where no one wans... (REDO!) lor... haiz... sua.. i finish up today n throw it to her fri ba... sigh... anywae... after tt... only 5 ppl head for pe.. tts e farniest thing.. was like only jj, andy, sy, gy n myself nia.. haha... gao siao.. then head down to see cher.. he long-winded.. blah blah blah.. we left our names then zhao liao... zzz...

after tt.. bid bye to jj, andy, sy.. gy n myself walked out of e sch to bus stop to take bus 12 back... haha... crapped a bit... then he gt off as i continue e journey home... when i gt home.. mum decided to go suntec's carrefour for a shop.. so y nt... so we drove ourselves there... then we jalaned here n there.. well.. its e xmas season.. so all e deco n sales r up... was quite cool.. then mum wanted to get presents for e 4 little cousins of mine.. while she was searchin ard.. saw some cute n farnie stuff...

a sword.. (SHING~~! )

my all time fave (TWEETY~!!)

after tt.. both of us head for carrefour.. n bought quite a bit of stuff like chairs n all.. don noe for wad reason.. haha.. but i bought myself a new pair of ear phones plus a nice little bar of rum n raisins choco... hoho... goody.. haven reali ate tt much choco in a while eva since my sis finish up tt whole large bar of cadbury choco of mine... ROAR~! after tt... we left some stuff in e car n head for some shoppin.. n i was mah jiam like a tress la.. cuz mum keep pickin clothes askin me to try them.. come out... ehhh... so so ba i guess? or mayb worst? haha.. i don noe.. juz feel quite comfy in them.. but after starein at e price.. mum juz say.. lets get it nxt time ya.. haha... well.. i wun complain.. haha... after tt.. we head for home.. n here i m now... kinda tired i don noe y... haha.... funny.... thou now i m much more free than eva.. but still i m tired i don noe y... holidays this time i wonder how will it b? o well... let things flow on its own i guess...

yep.. so tts abt it for all these while ba...

OUT~~~

2007-12-04T18:34:00.000+08:00

As i light my cig today n burnt myself out of e blue(lousy me)... loads of things came passin my mind... its like how m i hang on?

ppl mayb paranoid or over-sensitive like me at times... wonderin most of e weirdest things... wad can i do to make it betta? i guess e ans is ?? n more ?.... well.. i don noe.. i guess today i kinda got over e top abt e stuff at home n showed an angry side of me.. guess my temper checkin didn work.. sigh... i may nt b a crowd pleaser.. but still i wish everyone to b well.. tts all....

ahhh.. well... today i wun say much.. well.. cuz i was quite ok until phone calls runnin in.. as well as e submission of e roleplay script.... well.. i guess many r as tired as it is ba... juz wish i can make it rite.. but somehow i juz cant express it... its like i don noe how to even start.. argh... wad an idiot i m... anywae...finally settled with CATs... since decided to go for it.. so juz make e best out of it...

guess my words as e days pass get lesser n lesser... sigh... guess its my self prob... i juz wish life can go on betta... as it turns for e worst.. as my heart aches suddenly.. i don noe y n how... i guess i sank myself into deeper stuff... n its time for me to knock myself out of it n move on ba....

as i held bk my tears frm fallin out of e blue... it felt like a thousand yrs has passed.... well.. guess alone time once again wun b avoided ba...mayb nt dwellin too much on things, n pokin my nose into another person's biz will make me feel betta? i guess i shld let it go as it is.. no matter how much i wanna ask... ans come blank... i shld juz shut up i guess... haha...

well.. tts all as it is.....

cheerz..

I M HURT N I M DOWN... WAD ISST M I DOIN?! IF I EVA DID HURT ANYONE, PLS CONFRONT! I WAN EVERYONE TO GET ALONG WELL!! TTS ALL I CAN EVA EVA REALI REALI WISH FOR!!!!! SIGH~~ I JUZ HATE MYSELF!!! DAMN IVEY DAMN!!! GOD DAMN IT!

2007-12-03T21:52:00.000+08:00

i m tired... reali tired..... nv felt this tired b4... its like so much things in hand n in my mind now... its killin me...

somehow its like i been down n out... well.. rows of flu med keep poppin into my mouth like candies... haha... wad a joke... well... sleepless nites still on-goin.. endless accs to finish... endless documents to see plus mayb sign... its as gd as doin a 9-5 damn office job...

sch's been quite fast paced.. due to holidays comin, roleplay on e way once again... well.. m glad 2molo there isn any accs lesson.. phew.. no 3 hrs marathon... haha.. well.. there is still e submission of e script for roleplay.. thus.. sux like hell... well.. cant do much...

anywae.. i don noe wad m i suppose to do to make these procedures go a little faster... its like drainin up time.. ppl usually nite time finish work can go happie hr.. well guess wad.. i m still stuck here with damn books plus sch hw... gosh... i hadn reali been into wad i m doin in sch.. its like i m more of goin sch juz to sleep my hrs away.. its tirin... i nv felt this tired in my life... thou life like this mayb tirin.. well..

mayb wkends mini gatherin with some frens is cool n relaxin... it keeps me relax.. n somehow motivates me to keep me goin i guess.. seein home as a burden.. seein bro out in e streets sometimes reminds me of e torture most of e family actually went thru.. how much we wanna avoid ppl talkin abt him in our face... i don noe...

anywae.. regardless of wad it is.. i m tryin to make sure i keep my temper n attitude in check... frm e way it seems.. its like i hav become no diff frm father n sis.. temper is like close to maximum.. chaos/volcano may blow off anytime...n seriously speakin.. sometimes i end up too paranoid in myself.. guess i m nt happie with stuff tts trashin rite in my face rite now.. well.. sch's stuff besides sch work is killin.. rest is fine.. but home... it feels like a thousand over miles in e hot sun.. dyin to survive n endure n also to exercise my own self control.. tts in my "healthy lifestyle" plus own temper....

well... i will juz end it here.... mayb i m juz goin haywire quite soon... well.. mayb i keep myself shut will b fine? i hav no idea... sigh... well.. tts abt it la..

alll out~~

2007-11-29T19:06:00.000+08:00

well... back with another entry...

I M DAMN HIGH NOW!!!

FINALLY 1 THING IS SOLVED... I M EXTREMELY GAY(nt ah gua but happie hor) ABT IT!!!

I M GLAD THINGS TURN OUT TO B OKIE!!! JUZ WAN ALL TO B HAPPIE!!!!!

WELL.. MORE OUTSIDE PROBS TO COME... BUT I M REALI GLAD ITS ALL SOLVED!!!! YIPPEE!!!

but pui.. still sick.. voice "sexy", nose tap sot... zzzz...

well... done for today... time for more stuff doin n also chattin...

cheerz.... :D.....

2007-11-29T14:49:00.000+08:00

guess these past wks n days hasn been my day...

i guess e words said to me were nth but pain i guess...

anywae... today i finally broke down.... gosh... tt sux.... esp when i cant even get to talk things out.. watch movie n all... its like a home sick day.. it sux exceptionally.... sigh... wad m i suppose to do?

anywae... start off with yest.. as my distance drift off frm some...i sat at a corner alone n all.... i come to think abt.. wad m i suppose to do to stop those painful words tt were said to me...

it comes of indecisiveness of myself n also e fustration i face.. frm home or anywhere... m i suppose to b jealous? well..partly it is..partly its not.. its more of e anger felt by others n somehow it wasn told to me.. n e misconception of expressions n words used that somehow caused miscommunication tt starts to fall in place.... but still.. i hold my words... thou ppl may not like e way i do things sometimes...

but still if i m rite.. i wun mind fightin back.. if its my fault or wad so eva... pls tell me.. at least i can do wad i need to do.. if its not enough to make it up to do.. i hav no idea wad to do.... well... as usual... a self blame of bein over sensitive... a said of human nature.. its whether i m able to get over it...

anywae... as i walked home in e rain yest... a lot of thots came passin my mind... e amt of insurance incurred frm e companies for my grandparents who passed on, e accs bein done to get e procedures on-goin to get e money, e contiunation of insults n arguments in e family, e day n nites of non stop work, sch n fustrations tt i nv feel i can handle tt much.. as much as i needed rest.. its like a nv endin journey.... juz like life..... conflicts in frenships is part n parcel of life.. as much as many wld wanna avoid or prayin hard it wun even happen at all..

a river tt was muddy.. juz like how messy i feel now..wishin tt it wld b clear once again....

even if it happens.. i guess its always e tough thing to confront n settle.. juz like yest or today... juz when i wanna try settle thru phone call.. no outcomes so far... but sadly.. yest msn conv was juz like a miniture war.... or mayb thinkin too much or givein ownself pressure for nth is unncecessary ba.... well.. regardless of wad it is... i was given a pkt of famous amos cookies... which i reali appriciate a lot... n i was nuts enough to go take a pic of it.... n it was nxt to me on my bed for e whole of today....

e cookies tt was given to me durin yest's 1st lesson.. but no matter how tough this gonna b, this is gonna b my motivation to settle this n to keep me goin....

well... tts my words for e day... "WINNERS NV QUIT.. cuz QUITTERS CAN NEVER WIN"

ALL DOWN~~~~~

2007-11-27T15:03:00.000+08:00

somethin farnie i muz say.. this is my 100TH POST XIA!! lol... anywae.. i don know wads got into me.. guess i feel.. i m over-reactin n stuff.. mayb sometimes i shld juz shut up n shut even more... sigh.. anywae...

I DAMN MYSELF FOR BEING THAT WAY!!! DAMN IVEY DAMN!!!!

I DAMN MYSELF FOR BEING EXTREMELY SENSITIVE!!! DAMN IVEY DAMN!!

I DAMN MYSELF FOR BEING INDECISIVE!!! DAMN IVEY DAMN!!

I DAMN MYSELF FOR FALLING SICK AT THIS TIME!! DAMN IVEY DAMN!

I DAMN MYSELF FOR SHOWIN TOO MUCH CARE N NO ONE BOTHERS!! DAMN IVEY DAMN!!

I DAMN MYSELF FOR NOT WAKIN UP TO REALITY!!! DAMN IVEY DAMN!!

sigh.. enough of curses... its time for me to do major self reflect.. sometimes its not like i wanna say things out.. but if it get too worryin.. mayb others can help u betta than me.. if not.. well.. cant do much... aiya.. don wanna think of it la..y all these make me so tired... i wanna juz die somehow... AIYA!!! DAMN LA!!

tts all...

ALLL OUTTTTTT~~~

2007-11-26T19:44:00.000+08:00

well.. it been a while since i last blog... lets start with yest...

was dad's birthday.. so we decided to go hav a simple brunch... well.. guess wad.. we had turtle soup la.. i muz say... e soup wasn v nice.. but e side dish we ordered was good.. lolz.. lets see...

side dish.. stir-fried fish.. was good....

here comes e turtle soup.. wasn as nice as e previous stall we usually go... sigh~~

anywae... after tt... dad head on to his frens' place for some major mahjong session... so, mum, sis n myself droves ourselves to bishan... sis said she wanted to get her eye brows done.. so we head for one of e saloons.. when we got in.. i wanted to sit down.. but b4 my BUTT can even TOUCH E DAMN CHAIR, i kenna drag in liao... n was to lie on their so call "bed" ah... then e person started take e somethin la (don know how 2 spell la) n wanted to do my EYE BROWS la.. i was like "WAIT!! WADS GOIN ON?!!".. to my suprise.. it was mum n sis who wanted me to get my eye brows done INSTEAD... so guess wad.. I KENNA CHEATED FEELINS LA.. i was shiftin ard la.. then e person who happen to b e BOSS was like "STOP MOVIN LA!" zzz.. so i had to GUAI GUAI lie there let her do la.. n i muz say.. ITS GOD DAMN PAINFUL LA!!! PUI! finally when she finish.. i got up... OMG! it doesn even look like me la.. mah jiam i juz undergone PLASTIC SURGERY LA.. =.=.... thou mum n sis say nice nice.. look more gal gal.. o.O... zzz... anywae.. after tt... paid up.. i wanted to take plaster n cover la... bth alr.... then head for singtel n wanted to do somethin abt e modem la.. but too many ppl...

so head down for bugis.. but along e way... went to a bubble tea shop, Rockery...n got myself a cup of NICE, YUMMY STRAWBERRY SMOOTHIES... WOOTZ... suggestion to those who LOVE STRAWBERRY LIKE XIAO MEI.. PLS TRY IT WOR~~!! lol... =P

nice.. yummy... shiok.... hehe... =P... juz for LI TING XIAO MEI..XP

anywae.. head for singtel shop once again.. n sadly... TOO MANY PPL!! so we decided to head for home.. had dinner.. blah blah.. watch batman begins n pia maple... blah blah.. so tts for yest...

for today... got up early... met ryl n athena for breakfast.. after tt.. met kel at tamp interchange.. then took bus.. saw kelly, meishan n daphne... then we all walked in for accs.. cuz no MPS.. y? cher went for seminar lor... anywae.. then after accs had lunch... was quite quiet thou... then after tt.. head for BCM.. was doin roleplay script la... cuz need to hand in by end of e wk... zzz.. anywae... took a few pics... n this is my roleplay grp... besides xiao di i worked with last time... this time hav kx, suvin as well as azrika in e grp as well.. cool wor... so heres e pic..

nice pic of us... wootz....

anywae.. after tt... took bus with xiao mei, da ma, suvin, xiao di, ken n cher for a while.. then took train back with xiao mei, da ma n xiao di... n finally got home... n now here i m havin dinner... well.. its not totally mine... haha... i shared with my sis.... was quite nice..(cuz.. its somethin made my hand.. so was ok la...)..

yummy yum yum~~ =P....

b4 i forget!! HAPPIE BIRTHDAY TO MY LITTLE MIKO!! WHO TURNS 3 YRS OLD TODAY!!! :P

yep... so tts abt it la.. cheerz to all....

p.s. I M STILL NOT USED TO MY EYE BROWS LA!!! PUI!!!! AHHHH CHOOOOO!!! DAMN FLU!! DAMN!

2007-11-22T22:49:00.000+08:00

well.. today was a great day of relax....

1st up.. had acc class in e mornin.. gosh.. was like beat la... came in like almost half hr.. on my way up.. saw andy, xiao mei n da ma... so went up with them.. head for class.. then after tt.. was accs accs.. n MORE ACCS... sigh.. was extremely borin...

after tt.. came lunch.. it was like gosh.. i haven eaten in 20 yrs... n was spicy... wootz.. remind me of my sec sch days.. when i wanna eat malay rice.. its like not much stuff left for me to buy.. but ITE de.. biangs.. tok gong.. n e chilli.. well.. shuang.. but not 100% shuang.. lol... then had a few rounds of tai dee... then head back to class for another hr... zzz...

after tt.. bid bye to all.. head down to my cousin hse... i hadn seen him in months ba.. xian.. he on holiday when i hav to torture myself to drag my sleepy head to sch... zzz... anywae.. went his place.. change out of uniform.. n off to east point.. got a few drinks n snack.. head back.. had a few movies watched.. play e guitar.. gosh.. i can nv forget how it feels like to hold on to e guitar once again... (not those aracde ones of course)....

zzz... candid season.....

after tt.. was tryin to help him clean up his messy rm a bit.. guess wad.. i found his extremely old cigs... accordin to him is like 4-5 yrs liao la.. n its like e small pkt which appeared last time.. ITS DAMN OLD SCH XIA~~!! lol... check check check.. CHECK IT OUT~~

its like only with 10 sticks.. n becuz of e AGE of it.. e sticks all become YELLOW la

after tt.. was time for dinner... made scramble eggs topped with ham n sausage... was yummy... gosh.. i was eatin n eatin... hoho... was good...

yum yum food... hoho... =P

after tt.. was in his rm... saw a interestin statue la.. but guess wad.. yuan lai its not for pai sui.. buts its actually a TONG GONG la.. gao siao la.. if u see ah.. bao jiak u will remb e man we all see b4 de... in CHINA~~ LOLZ...

familiar to u?? haha.... =P..

after tt.. left his place at ard 9... had a NONG NONG bus 12 ride home.. was bored to tears la.. keep yawnin until tears fall xia.. mah jiam cryin.. haha.. then finally got myself home.. n here i m now la... kinda exhausted.. but well.. it kinda took my mind off frm wad i m facin for a while.. was all good....at least it wun make me go nuts for no reason...

well.. abt to lose my voice after all e singin... zzz... its gonna b fri.. havin fear.. live stuff in pubs r always scary... well... i don know la.. tolong wun happen la...

anywae.. tts abt it la.. cheerz to all... n i wun say emo... oops.. juz said...

OME~~~~~

2007-11-21T21:36:00.000+08:00

It has come to a point whereby i hav a confession to make...

guess wad... today after goin shoppin with my QB mates... i notice when they tried on clothes n stuff... it dwelled on me tt i envy them lookin v pretty in pretty dresses.. well... today went shoppin with them... seein them goin frm shops to shops tryin many clothes.. lookin nice in most of them make me envy wor... haha...

well.. today as usual... blardie calls keep comin on.... made me all more emo than eva... worst... i today kept givin false alarm la... zzz.. wadde... sorry everyone.. today gave false alarm n news... :S.... qing yuan liang wo.... >.<...

e most nonsense thing is that... when i got home juz now... my mum n sis were like sayin y not 1 day drag me go for shoppin xia... omg.. at 1st i thot was shop for their stuff.. end up they say.. wanna shop for ME la... i m like huh? shop wad... they say mayb i will look cute in dresses... i was like = =... i guess they muz b out of their minds... its weird la... e last time i wore dress was like... my st margs sch U?? haha!!! lame~~~ anywae.... i don know wads gonna b planned out for me by them la.. judgin frm their evil looks... i don know how 2 outcome will b.. its a mystery... i somehow half-hearted... don know if i shld look forward or wad...

well... tts abt it la... i m glad tt most of them who came shoppin today mostly got wad they wanted... thou some nv get... but overall was good... but still i ENVY la... lol....

cheerz to all... :)

EMO~~~~

2007-11-19T22:01:00.000+08:00

wootz... yet another wk... anywae...

finally.. last fri had my presentation.. wasn in front of all ppl la.. cuz i came earliest.. so was 1st to present... well.. i think i was too draggy... was bad la.. sigh.. bo bian la.. i did my best le.. do rest is up 2 e marks la.. then came wkends...

a lousy wkend.. besides bein able to meet jia ying mama at her area for e 1st time along with kel n athena.. haha was pretty cool.. we crapped n ka jiao jia ying mama quite a bit abt "most of u know who" la.. anywae.. then head for home...

after tt came sunday... met up with chio bu n ah ma for their lunar gatherin or sort la.. kinda left out there.. plus its like timin wise la.. cuz nxt day got sch.. zhao so soon.. guess wad.. sort of kenna grounded for e wk after much debate.. but wadde heck la.. i came bk its alr good enough... don always everythin pick on me....

well.. i guess after all these while i m still a pai kia in a way.. n its like i don know.. it juz sux la.. hangin on to this plus so much stuff to handle... its killin... keep sayin u will b there no matter wad happen to da family.. well guess wad... i m e one who has been there... u hav been takin ur job as an excuse to get away frm those blames.. while i get them for no reason... aiya... heck la... after all these.. i guess e no. of conversation among e family is gonna get lesser n lesser... they think they r bosses.. so let them b la.. n when things screw up.. don come findin n blamin me for not tellin u earlier...

argh... it sux to b me rite now... well.. i did e best i cld.. if they think they r smarter.. its their biz... sigh... communications here is havin a serious breakdown... they still don wanna listen nor believe it.. thinkin tt they r e big shots... pui la... roar....

tts abt it....

back to emo-in.. somethin juz pop out n it got me in a mess again... pui...

ROARRRRR~~~!!!

2007-11-12T21:15:00.000+08:00

well.. lets start with yest... cuz i was kinda of xian of bein at home.. so decided to meet kel n athena to study... as usual.. most of us were late la.. kel was 1st to reach.. followed by me.. n finally athena... we waited for athena for VVVVVV LONG LA~~~ haha.. while waitin.. i had lunch... then when she came.. we all started off with accs.. besides kel studyin mps instead... EXTRA~~ haha... anywae... after finishin quite a bit of accs.. we were kinda bored.. so we started chattin n crapin away... poor kel was kenna "bullied" by us la... *poke poke*... ooo hohoho~~ =P... but i bu xiao xin made spoil his mps module book a bit la... SORRY KEL~~ BU SHI GU YI DE... >.<.... then while chattin.. there was this interestin cat tt came walkin ard our area.. so i decided to play with it la.. then kel was hungry.. so he bought fries... so he was munchin on it.. in e mist.. e kitty wanted to eat.. haha.. so i kope a small 1 frm him.. n fed tt poor little thing.. after feedin it.. still wan sayang xia.. =.=... after tt.. i left it on e floor.. while i was chattin with 2 of them.. e kitty juz jump on my lap... n all of us were damn shocked la.. cuz our eyes were like damn wide open la.. lol.. n as we all know... athena scared of cats n dogs.. so she was kinda freaked out.. so after a long chat.. we left e place ard 8 plus ah.. then after biddin bye to athena.. i walked with kel to his place there then head up to tamp... here is e pic of e kitty.. as well as our fair shy lady... hehe...

cute little 1~~~ naughty naughty....

our v shy lady.. who uses her bag to cover... tsk tsk~~

after tt.. head down frm TAMP to CLARKE QUAY juz to meet sam n serene... biangs.. damn far la.. at 1st i don feel like goin.. but aiya.. give ppl face jiu go lor.. after tt.. reach there with a blur face (cuz almost fell asleep along e way)... then end up.. we had dinner at this thai restaurant... then after tt.. went pub with some of their colleagues... had quite a bit of drinks.. then walked home... gosh.. its was a terrible walk back.. kinda shaky... damn it... ever since i got my gastric probs.. i cant reali go on as much as i did last time.. but o well... finally got home at ard 2 plus ah.. then was on e phone with athena until 3 plus ba.. then guess wad.. after tt.. whole nite was starein at e ceiling till mornin... was damn jia lat la..

finally got up at abt 7.30 frm bed.. then saw my cute little miko.. shun bian take a pic lor... haha..

there u hav it folks.. hehe..

then dragged myself to e shower... then head to school... n it was a disasters.. blardie single deck.. i wanted to sleep la.. then one auntie juz smack her backside into my leg la.. *elo gy.. pls "do somethin abt it la"* oops.. hehe.. anywae... when i reached class.. i was e 1st to reach la.. then i was like zzz.. xian la.. then greeted cher... n his jap is tok gong de lor... haha.. cannot "pray pray" xia... then had his lesson... almost fell asleep.. n seein da ma in bad mood today... sigh.. n everyone with their monday blues.. haha.. o well.. after all tt... had IAC.. wanted to sleep again.. cher tapped on me.. her hands were like ICE-IN COLD la.. kia si lang... anywae.. came lunch... da ma, xiao mei n ken left.. then left v few ppl for lunch.. haha... but was alrite... then after tt.. had BCM.. which we only did SW test n some survey n learnin e e-mail system in there... was all xian la.. but ok la.. then finally sch finish.. took bus 2 with da jie n xiao di.. then took mrt back with xiao di back.. had quite a chat..

then came home.. sigh.. my bedroom de fan broke down... zzz.. damn it.. heng got extra... but today weather damn cold..i m still burnin for no reason.. so ppl.. if ya hands r extremely cold.. feel free to grab my arm for warm... lolz... yep.. so tts abt it for today la.. haha.. anywae... mich was tellin me abt this farnie mv on youtube... frankly sayin.. its kind of an insult to jay chou n fei yu qing la... if u watch it, u will get wad i mean.. anywae.. heres e video.. ENJOY~~!

cheerz to all...

P.s. hope da ma n serene get well soon... take care wor...

EMOOOO~~~

2007-11-10T21:39:00.000+08:00

well.. today ah... didn sleep at all.. was in bed.. n so got up at abt 8 plus.. met mich at ps bus stop at 9 am.. then we took bus 14 down to a church to attend.. our DEAR MISS LAU (a.k.a MRS SIAU) de weddin ceremony... tt was actually at MARINE PARADE there la.. my sis still say somewhere at orchard.. cheat my feelins xia.. pui...

anywae.. when we got there... we almost lost our way there la... cuz its like there was 2 halls... then we dig e place.. n finally got to e rite place.. lol... then we head in.. we saw some of her current students.. we felt damn n i mean SI BEI OLD la... ("not me la" claims mich)... then while waitin.. it was a lot of chattin.. then we crap n joked la.. abt sudden weddin crashers n nonsense la.. guess wad.. we also saw MISS HUANG!! she slimed down a lot... also v pretty... awww.. i miz e days of havin home econs n F&N lessons with her back at sec sch.. thou i was kinda mean back then la... oops... XD.... after tt.. came e pastor to do e startin.. so when we weddin bells came on... e door open.. n we all saw a stunnin beautiful miss lau walkin down e lane... omg.. she is damn pretty la... but still.. can see her eyes kinda puffy.. mayb she didn sleep well or too much tears of joy....

as there were singin of hymns?(don know how 2 spell).. oops... plus prayers.. n came e xchange of vows n rings for her n her husband... then of course.. not to miz... their kiss shown to e world... thou was short la.. (cuz too many ppl + cameras flashin like crazy)... after tt.. was pics takin with e bride n groom.. mich n i were like.. "BAO JIAK SHE FORGOT ABT US!" well.. it came true la.. until when we abt to leave.. we saw MRS SIAU outside.. then mich made a comment.. then mrs siau damn fast la.. faster ask cam man take pic for us.. n for e 1st time.. mrs siau actually hook her arm ard mine.. n took a pic.. i stunned la.. then nxt to me was mich.. n nxt to mrs siau was miss huang la... cuz mich frm e beginnin quoted " if i don take pic with miss huang today?! I WILL SI CHAN LAN DA UNTIL SHE TAKE PIC WITH ME!" lol... e one we took today gotta wait la... zzz.. but anwaye...

i managed to get a pic frm e photo sent to me la.. hehe... nice wor.. show u all..

there u hav it folks... aint it nice... wish them nth but happiness..... cheerz.....

after all tt.. mich n i head back to ps.. cuz she meetin her aunt.. so we went there.. i had my lunch.. then we chat n jalaned ard a bit la.. then she meet with her aunt... while i head for home.. was a short journey back.. after tt.. i changed back into home clothes.. n wanted to sleep.. cuz.... modem taken by my sis.. i cant online.. then wanted to somethin abt my oral presentation usin lappy.. but sis was usin LAPPY N E MODEM... then argued... but in e end.. i take she was lala-in pass my ears.. then head for e room n stare at e ceiling.. until mother come bk at abt 4 plus.. then munch a bit.. then watch tv... then head for shower.. n off to grandparents place...

on e way.. was an unpleasant journey.. i got nagged for those unncecessary prob.. when its none of my biz... guess it my sis complainin for e smallest stuff... i alr let her use e modem n lappy liao.. was else she wan.. my head ah... argh.. pissed.. sua.. i didn bother shootin back... cuz its like e same old crap over n over again... somehow.. no matter how much i explained myself.. it comes back e same.. y not saved my breath....

then finally reach grandparents place.. str away.. i lock myself in e rm watchin tv n enjoyin e air-con.. n had dinner in there.. after tt.. was on e phone with athena for a while.. when my little cousin came runnin in again.. cuz her "gang" didn come.. lol... so she started throwin balls at me... then when she came near.. i grabbed her n started ticklin her.. she screamed!! hoho... =P... after tt i wanted to go grab a drink.. she didn wanna let me go.. so she grabbed me by my shirt.. so i dragged myself to e kitchen with her behind me... after tt.. her little bro came runnin.. haha... so we all play a while.. n e cutest thing.. he love to wrap himself like a ah ne.. when his towel came loose.. he will go "JIE JIE JIE!! BAO AH BU NE!!!" omg.. i cldn stop gigglin... so cute~~~...
here r e pics again... hoho...

ah bu ne ne lookin for stuff.. i wrap him up de.. hoho...

smilin.. with my grandpa behind emo-in?.. lolz...

unhappie with his sis takin his stuff.. lol... happen to take... LOLZ..

happie as can b... hee.. kawaii ne~~~

after all tt... we headed for home... sigh..yet another HORRIBLE JOURNEY again... kenna shoot shoot shoot.. but halfway we got a shocked la.. cuz got one lady biker.. she was lyin on e bike n mah jiam like sleepin.. look like she doin stun xia.. reali damn kong bu... then as usual mother goes on naggin..

but it came a point in time when she started mentionin abt bro n father.. tts when i cldn control myself frm bein quiet... n i startin sayin stuff tt were facts.. n she said 1 line tt caused a silence (i m not gonna say wad it was la..) but... i muz admit until now.. i m still feelin jia lat.... thou tt line has been say a thousand times till i m suppose to b numb... end up.. it still hurt... n it still hurt when my grandpa ask me abt bro whom sometimes i see at TM... it still hurt when those memories come gushin pass my mind... it still hurt no matter how much i wanna sweep those sorrows tt were bein caused by them... n somehow.. i m back to my cry baby days which is bad... crap~~~

much is said... so its time to stop.... tts all for today...

EMO~~~~

p.s. check out this song tt i juz added.. its call home by chris (frm american idol)

2007-11-09T14:30:00.000+08:00

well.. once again.. i m back with entry...

its been school school school... well.. tues had IAC de CA la... guess wad.. thou can balance la.. but don know if i get e overall stuff rite la... so we will see wad happens la.. n guess wad.. even if i do well in tt part.. i guess i screwed my MCQ section ba.. WHY? cuz i sux at theory lor... sighs... anywae... then came wed... had blardie listenin compre.. was kinda complicated... don know if its true or false... gosh.. its kills xia... died.. n i notice i got chou with YELLOW!! N I MEAN Y-E-L-L-O-W!! y? cuz my IAC qn paper was yellow.. then my listenin compre qn paper also YELLOW! gao she mo gui~~!! sigh... anywae...

then after all that.. came PE... its BBALL time.. lol... was kinda high.. haha.. but 1stly.. changed into pe gear.. then andy, jian bin, kel n myself went to play.. after tt.. cher changed location.. so sua.. head for indoor hall.. BIANGS... ITS DAMN HOT TO DA MAX LA.. hav to fight for oxygen in there xia.. only 1 or 2 blardie door open nia.. n there r like 100 over of us students there.. plus few chers... n so.. at there.. e malay gals wanted to play.. so end up.. ken, jj, andy, jian bin n myself.. verus them.. gosh.. chor lor xia.. lang ga like drivin bo licence... (oops.. sound like sayin me xia.. =X).. ANYWAE~~~!! n poor andy's injury on his back became worst xia.. zzzz... after they got tired n rest..n so, kel, sy, ql all join in.. n we all play n luff la.. damn gao siao lor... can barely breathe while luffin... haha... after tt... disaster came...

3 sport management gals came askin if they can play against us.. all of us were damn tired la.. but.. end up i head for a drink 1st... didn know wad was goin on... plus e amt of heat in my body is alr takin its toll.... when i came bk.. kel, jian bin n sy were alr playin against them... sy was bullied by them la.. at 1st i see i wasn v happie alr... then end up.. wanted to go close n watch... then end up.. some of them ask me go sub sy.. cuz she reali kenna bullied la.. so i sub with her.. play with jian bin n kel against them... in e end.. not only we trashed them.. we help sy n ourselves bao chou... e feelin damn shiok... but e price i paid at e end of e game is tt.. i was burnin to da core... n my face was extremely red xia.. damn... mah jiam i shy la... zzzz.... then after tt.. head for home with da ma, xiao mei n ken... haha... on e way down... pe cher saw us la.. 1st thing was she luff at my face la... wad xia... zzzz.... then don know if she ask or comment la.. if i wanna help e bball team play... so i don know la.. but frankly.. i don like playin with new ppl.. somehow i m kinda used to playin with andy, jian bin, kel they all liao... if ask me play with new ppl.. its like mah fan la.. chong tou zai lai.. wo tub bai bo ar ne eng la.... cheEEEEEEEEE...

anywae... head for home... came nite.. suppose to go zouk with my sis n her fren la.. guess wad.. on e way saw my sec sch frens xia.. haha... then due to over crowdin... we decided to go MOS instead.. gosh.. MOS de queue damn short la.. when we got in.. e songs all so dance de... eeek... so end up.. sat with my sis n her fren kua free "movie" la... haha.. then my sis ah.. biangs.. she mah jiam order don know how much drinks la.. drink until i almost seh la.. sheez... but she more jia lat.. so had to tai her home.. but halfway bo bian.. ask my mother come pick us.. oopx.... anywae...

came yest.. DEEPAVALI... was awaken by athena's msg at 11 plus ah.. HANGOVER!!!! ARGH!!! HEADPAIN AH!!!! WANNA DIE!!!! but after replyin her.. bed i knock back again... then sleep until.. 1 plus.. i was like HOLY CRAP!! MEETIN AT 2 I M STILL IN A MESS.. DIE!! then ji tao jump into shower n rush out.. but guess wad.. i 2nd earliest to reach...zzzz.... anywae.. after tt.. ryl reach.. chatted n munched quite a while.. athena came... then after eatin n crappin n playin with e baby who was at e table behind us.. so KAWAII... she keep playin with ryl n kel.. haha.. so cute... after tt.. we head for big bookshop to find stuff for entertainment.. so we jalaned ard.. n decided to buy drawin block to draw.. haha.. guess wad.. ryl, kel n myself decided to draw... n e whole block is at my hse rite now... was lookin at wad we drawn la.. quite gao siao.. i got e pics in here... hoho... check them out...

this is wad i draw la.. e gal pic is done by ryl actually.. haha...

this is done by kel la... quite cute la... only e eyes look farnie... hahah....

then after tt head up to ryl's home while athena head off for dinner with her "darling" la.. (not gonna say who)... hoho.. then ryl, kel n myself reali slacked la.. then ryl took us to her old memory lane... guess she reali miz her sec sch life.. aww... then we chatted quite a lot.... luff quite a bit.. as usual with ryl's sillyness... oops... =X... i was half asleep most of e time cuz shag mah.. but in e mist... don know who take clip.. n something... n don know how my hair become so "style"... m prayin tt ryl got rid of e pic.. which i think she wldn la.. zzzz... o well... i bo xing xiang liao la.. zzzz... crap.. anywae... then we watched tv till 10.. meanwhile athena was so bored of e dinner over there.. cuz its like crapily long.. haha.. after tt.. we left ryl's hse at abt 10 plus?? then i walked with kel to his place there.. so we crap.. till athena called... then chatted with her till kel's blk downstairs.. bid him bye n walk on to tamp station.. my phone was like "HOT" la... cuz athena called.. then home called.. then ppl call go pub.. for don know wad la..zzz... then end up.. reject e pubbin part... help my mother buy soft drink... n chatted with athena while... haha...

then finally reach home... sis was usin e modem again... zzzz.. then chatted with athena over e phone... after tt was online... then chattin with QB mates/ RCs plus my godsis... then till like 3 or 4 plus ah.. then went to bed.. roll until 5 or 5 plus then finally fell asleep... as for today.. a disaster mornin.. almost cldn get myself out of bed.. whole bus ride was yawnin n yawnin.. lol.... then reached class also yawn n yawn.. then discussed with cher over my oral presentation... GOSH!! IT SUX LA!! so many points missin xia.. heng i didn keep QUIET abt it.... if not its reali over la... zzzz... had a mini break.. come back.. we were gossipin n talkin abt supernatural thingys... haha... was quite relaxin la.. then came IAC... i tell u ah!! DIE!! i like mah jiam forgot xia... MR QUEK N MR HUANG!! NEED U ALL HELP LIAO!! SOS~~~ LOLZ!!! =X...

anywae.. then head home with da ma, xiao mei, ql... da jie n ken only took same bus nia.. cuz da jie stay near mah.. then ken goin meet his fren... today's train ride was quiet i muz say.. haha... i don know y.. mayb all tired ba.. i also... i look like whole world owe me money xia.. oops... SORRY PPL!! QIN YUAN LIANG WO~~~!!

k la.. i think i went on too much liao... lol... tts abt for this wk la...

to QBs n RCs.. jia you for nxt wk n followin wk's oral presentation.. plus those in MPS.. JIA YOU FOR CA.. hav to pia liao.. i opened e book last wk n wanted to study ah.. i then notice... apparently... I KNOW TOTALLY COMPLETELY NTH ABT IT!! I M MEAN IT XIA!!! PUI!!! i know i cfm die sui sui liao... zzz.... anywae... yep... tts abt it la.. cheerz all...

i m off to do some self-reflect.... EMO~~~~~

2007-11-03T22:55:00.000+08:00

well.. i came across this gao siao song frm chio bu's blog.. i tell u.. u luff till i almost ka lao on e floor n die xia.. damn funnie la.. don know how they come out with this direct translation of tamil songs to eng la.. then e words ah.. aiyo.. meanin so yellow xia... n i mean it... haha... check check check...
CHECK IT OUT!!!

this one is direct translation of jap song la.. biangs.... almost died xia..

enjoy.. cheerz...

emoooooo~~~~~~~~

2007-11-01T23:36:00.000+08:00

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Got this quiz frm seein xiao mei n kel's blog... so decided to do it.. n this is wad i got la... most of it r true... except some r not la... but anywae.. if u wanna try.. here is e webby.. http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

2007-10-27T23:52:00.001+08:00

well... yest went down to ah ma n chio bu's work place.. lunar bar.. guess wad? su yong kang performed... lol.. loads of uncles n aunties were there... v happenin... thou was squashed here n there.. but was all cool.. listenin all his old songs were good..... after tt.. we played ard.. seein ppl drink waterfall.. n its like farnie la.. guys vs gals.. end up e GUYS lost... biangs... farnie xia.... had nice time listenin to all e songs.. tt bar isn as sneazy as i expected.. quite a nice place to go if ya wanna listen chinese, korean, eng songs.. mostly r e 90s songs la... which is cool... then after tt ton outside till like 6? hope on e 1st bus n home i m... dead in bed within 15 mins...

as for today... got up 1 plus? haha.. then was on e com.. till like late noon.. then head up to grandparents place for dinner... n so..nua down there.. while my little couz was bored.. cuz her "gang" (my other 2 little cousins)... didn come... so she find me.. sat on me n started pokin me... wanted to tickle me.. cuz she know when i m off guard i cfm jump... so she poke poke poke.... i jump a little.. but after tt... i poke her back plus tickle her.. so she started runnin ard e hse...but she ran finish liao.. she come bk to e rm n stare at me...then i poke n tickle her all over again.. n she zhao again.. then after tt.. her little bro came runnin also... then he also wan attention... then i poke him.. he cover.. n cover.. n cover... after tt gave me an innocent cute cute look... awww.... so whole time i cldn even sleep a while.. cuz was huggin e garfield bloister n wantin to sleep xia.. zzzz.. so b4 i left my grandparents place, i managed to take a pic with my little couz.. she was v cam frenly.. well.. her little bro ran away... damn... shall take one asap.. haha... anywae.. here r e pics...

me n my beloved lookalike... GARFIELD... LOLZ..

my couz n me.. pic 1... she look kinda relutant here xia.. zzzz....

my couz n me pic 2... awwww.. aint she cute... hee... =D

after tt.. head for home.. guess wad.. its my 2nd time seein my mum flarein up at some bloody drivers who always wanna eat to e nxt lane without signalin... its so inconsiderate la.. pui... anywae.. bk home in 1 piece... kinda bored of maple somehow.. i don know y... guess its becuz no one wanna pt me.. T_T... sob sob... o well.. anywae.. tts abt it la... n i m sooooo not happie now... i wish i can roar a person out of this hse now... its gettin on my bloody nerves.. makin my blood boil 100 degress celcius... argh~~~~ *bear with it.... * ROAR~!~~~~!!

OUT~~~~~~~~~~~~~

2007-10-22T21:11:00.000+08:00

well.. its been days since i last updated.. anywae.. well.. last fri went to carlton hotel for my mum's birthday dinner.. organised by my sis... i muz say e food there wasn reali nice.. but they hav got e best dessert there... haha... was quite a unpleasant dinner.. i don know y.. e whole environment there was like quiet... e whole table was quiet.. i eatin my own food.. n dad got mood to open a 50 bucks red wine... n half e bottle was done by me... oops... anywae.. after tt... we head for home.. i guess e drit apart feelin within e family has shown unknowingly.... seein some food reminds me of some of RC ppl's fave food if ya know who i m referin to la.. can see cannot eat... oops.. XD... so here r e pics...

finishin black forest cake.. heavenly~~~

red wine on e table.. cost abt 50 per bottle? gosh.. how ex can it go?? LOLZ..

plate full of food.. yumz

Baby oct on display.. was cold.. but good.....

DESSERTS~~ wootz...

as for sat... met up with QBs n RCs for CIP.. thou we got ourselves lost at botanic gardens n ended up pinic-in there.. but was all good fun... haha.. slackin with one other under e hot sun was torturin yet fun... haha... n i wore e wrong shoes la.. leg kenna blister... argh.. suay la.. can hardly walk properly sometimes.... zzzzz.. tts sux...

As for yest... finally watched HALLOWEEN.. watched it with jian bin, kel, ryl n athena.... well.. i muz say it was quite a gore movie.. y so? its nth but killin n blood spill ba... its abt this dude call michael mayers who has kinda a psyco prob.. end up he turn himself into a psyco cold blooded killer la... seein this movie reali reminded me of a lot of things n e thots i had in e past.. as i only miz e part abt havin e guts to do so ba... well.. i held grudge easily in e past... a lot of things were in my way... n its like i didn think much n lived in my own world n shut myself frm e rest... end up i reached a stage where i carried quite a lot of similar thots as michael mayers... so its like seein this movie reminded me a lot.. somehow it has dwell upon me tt mayb this show wanna hint me nv to cross tt path again.... thou i was kinda affected badly by it... well.. i wun blame anyone for invitin me to watch this show.. i guess even if i didn watch in e cinemas mayb i wld hav catch it online.. so to ryl.. don feel bad okie? its not ur fault at all... =)...

well... guess its back to sch... apparently was a wet weather n drowsy.. but thankfully we had a short day.. cuz we didn hav any BCM lessons for some reason.. so ended up.. we head for town for lunch n did HW... haha... cool rite... after tt... head for home.. n now.. here i m bloggin la... guess 2molo its gonna b an extremely LONG day... but cool thing is tt.. wed is an extremely short day.. which is even more cool.. well.. tts abt it la... as usual i been emo... all thanx to tt movie... its like wheneva i close my eyes.. e thots of wad i had came flowin.. its reali torturous to stare at e ceiling thru e nite... sigh~~ cant do much abt it besides flippin ard e bed like an idiot... n finally my mum n sis comin bk frm thailand trip... yep.. so tts abt it...

all out~~~

2007-10-16T22:50:00.000+08:00

i m feelin extremely down recently... i don know y.. i guess its becuz of wads goin on ard me ba.. i guess e useage of com i m goin has been noticed by e family n they r like goin haywire over it... lets take yest for example.. cuz today is a holiday.. so yest i played all e way till mornin.. so i guess my sis who is goin haywire over almost anythin n everythin.. she was on my tail again.. threatenin to take away e modem... well..

this time i know she will go after it.. so i decided to do somethin back... so i hide e modem in a compartment where no one's hand r able to reach it besides mine.. so i hit e bed.. then came sunrise.. my sis knew i hid it somewhere.. she went into a frenzy... searchin for it.. so she was like bangin n flipin over stuff... then came drunkard dad goin abt shoutin for i don know wad reason... n its was a bad mornin i muz say.. thou i was sleepin.. its like everythin was heard.. n insults were made behind my back la.. e one tt killed me most was "aiya.. shld hav killed that ivey when she was still a baby.. i wun feel so stress abt her usin e com now..." well.. guess wad.. i m still here...argh!! i felt so hurt since then until now i still m.... its hard to swallow for this one...

for then pass few wks, my sis has been on my tail for almost every slightest things.. thou i was on e com.. i still do e hsework n stuff.. well not all la... but i m not a 100% slave for christ sake.... thou i know work piled on her has been killin.. but doesn mean she cant relax.. her temper has been gettin more n more foul.. n its makin my mood more n more foul.. i don know y... mayb sometimes i wanna joke with her or wad.. end up i kenna shouted at or kenna somethin no sibling will do ba.. i don know... its damn hard to swallow this up... its sux to b me rite now... sometimes i wish i cld shout bk or whack her bk to face wads goin on with her...

anywae... on e happy side.. i juz got a mail frm my sec sch fren.. who also carries e same name as my da ma la... she is also call winnie.. well.. i call her "gui" is becuz she always roam ard e sch.. one moment u see her.. nxt moment she disappear.. haha.. she is a nice fren to b ard with... but currently.. she is in aus, sydney... she juz send me a mail full of goodies.. 3 mini pooh toys n a large pkt of interestin jelly beans...n she wrote a mini note on a mini card..she was at a disney shop where she thot of buyin somethin for me.. damn touched xia... anywae.. e jelly beans r all with unique flavours.. range frm fruity to choco.. to a lot more.. i ate one craramel corn.. its damn nice... it feels like paradise.. it made me felt betta for a while... i miz her load.. thou i still see her on msn n stuff.. but seein her in aus happily.. i m happy for her as well...here r some of e pics i took when i got e mail... =)

well.. thats abt it for today.. i m feelin worst n worst each day.. with this temper of my sis where she pin point at me even when i didn do anythin wrong.. e family goin haywire in my face.. my bro's runaway which is more than a yr alr.. n still not settled.. n e new stuff tt is gonna challenge me in sch... i wish i cld juz end it all with my life.. i juz don hav juz e rite amt of guts yet.. i guess e day will come soon.. i feel like givin up.. its v tirin to hang on.... can hardly even catch my breath sometimes... well.. i m off...

wishin my xiao mei jia you for her work 2molo.. cheerz...

all dead~~~~~

2007-10-14T23:12:00.000+08:00

well.. forgot to update abt yest.. so here it is... yest.. FINALLY went to watch RE3 xia.. haha... i watched with kel, xiao di, jj and andy... 1st.. we all meet at city hall.. as usual.. all e guys were late la.. i stand ard like gonna koon la.. finally they come... then we head for marina sq.. we were suppose to catch e 5pm slot.. but apparently left 1st roll... =.=... sua... so we decided to catch e 7.20pm slot in e end... so while waitin for time to pass... we had dinner.. then we sat outside chat.. then play arcade... after tt we head to e cinema to grab some munchies... xiao di n andy bought nachos.. me n kel got jumbo hotdogs.. n jj got himself cup corn.. haha.... while starein at e hotdog i feel somethin was missin.. e sauce... haha... as my hands were full.. so i asked kel to do it for me.. haha.. see how nice he did lor... (pic below)

after tt.. we head up to e cinema... n got in e 4th roll.. after tons of nonsense commercials... while some where not bad la..(like previews of some comin soon movies).. then came e movie... haha.. started off with some scenes taken frm e previous 2 REs.. sound effect was damn loud n scary la.. most of us cua sai... well.. i admit.. some part i cover a bit la.. n some part i was ok.. then i see kel n ql coverin their ears when there is nth comin.. so cute xia.. then see andy use his hand cover his face n jj almost at e edge of his seat... haha.. cute xia...

when e movie end.. it was like ard 9... then e guys head for e toilet.. while i waited for them.. was lookin at e sky.. haha... then e guys came bk.. we sat n chat abt maple.. lol... after tt.. we all head for home.. for wad leh? of course PIA MAPLE LA....

then came today lor... pia with da jie n kel maple till mornin.. then was on e phone with da jie.. then after tt.. was starein at e ceilin till 12.. where mother came screamin like don know wad juz to get me up.. guess wad.. 1st thing.. maple liao lor.. haha... pia until now.. reali dyin.. only ate 1 meal.. cuz i didn know e time.. so juz ate a plate of rice.. then pia somemore liao lor.. now gotta stop.. later modem take away frm me ah.. i cfm cry.. haha... yep... tts abt it for today.. short n sweet... =p.... AHHHHH!!! 2MOLO SCH AGAIN!!! SUX!!! SOMEMORE 1ST LESSON IS E WORST.. I DON KNOW WAD WILL B COMIN XIA.. PLUS ELECTIVE... AHHH~~~ DIE~~~~ JIU MING AHHHH~~~~ *siao liao*...

tts all folks..

lalalala~~~ siao siao~~~ lalalala~~~~~

2007-10-12T19:01:00.000+08:00

well.. this has been my expression for e last 2 days..

my sis has been havin foul temper.. wheneva i wanna joke to cheer her up.. end up kenna scolded... haiz... juz 2 days bk... my sis used e modem.. then she joked with me.. askin if she hog e modem too long wad will i do.. then i say in a jokin manner"chop u lor".. then after tt she kpkb liao... haiz.. then after tt.. all e scoldin happened lor... haiz..

then after tt.. sua.. she debate with my mother outside e rm.. i lay in bed.. then out of e blue.. she walked in n i kenna a tight slap frm her..haiz.. don know la.. then yest mornin woke up.. e modem is gone.. she took it to her office.. not lettin me use it at all.. howz tt... haiz.. end up whole day was a dreadful day.. but thankfully jolene came my hse.. cuz she miz my doggies.. haha.. she had a fun time playin with them.. esp yoyo papa being playful.. after tt.. my sis came bk... well... kinda a debate again.. i juz cant b bothered to talk to her... but after a while i try to talk 2 her... well.. i don know wads up with me...

but i m till on top of my temper somehow.. juz tryin to contain it.. so tt it wun go haywire.. i still wan this family to b intact thou my bro is no longer in this hse.. i don know.. whether i m fit to b in this hse.. its like... a thot tt i cant explain... well.. tts abt it for today ba.. at least today.. modem is still intact... but e mood i m feelin is still down.. i don know how to make myself feel betta...

feelin down.......

2007-10-10T13:33:00.000+08:00

oops.. yest too busy maplin n tired to update.. forgive me... anywae... yest had a time of my life... went ecp with QB frens... 1st up... ehhh... me n xiao mei were one of e last few to arrive... y? cuz xiao mei overslept la.. hahaha.. forgiven.. then we ate while rest went for cycling....

after tt.. we wanted to walk to e stone thingy there... jj saw us.. after tt we saw e rest.. haha.. all of them look exhausted... n heard xiao di fell... *ouch*... anywae.. we chat a while.. then head for e beach n play sand.. LOL.. while e guys played beach soccer.. i was walkin ard with xiao mei findin shells.. blardie hell.. so many rocks more than shells.. but some stones looked pretty... =P...while da jie tryin to direct mama e way to ecp.. she tripped onto e rope n fell.. *ouch again*... after tt... i head into e sea for e swim.. aiya.. nv throw ppl down sea.. wasted xia... zzzz... oops... anywae... yep... into e sea i go... biangs.. so dirty n salty... gross.. n e current is strong... i wanted to head up to breathe.. then e blardie wave smack rite in my face... =.=... anywae.. after tt... head up... head for shower... was damn shiok.. but i kenna burnt a bit... damn it.... anywae.. after tt... we all walked our way to parkway parade to meet da ma n cj.. while walkin.. i piggy back da jie.. she was light la... compared to my uncle la.. haha... then we finally reach parkway... but while down e stairs to basement.. my turn to fall.. all thanx to my slippery slippers... zzzz... crap... fell on my butt... =.=... shi painful de lor...

after tt.. we reached swensens... call cj n da ma... they came.. then some felt tt shld eat dinner 1st.. haha.. so some went for shoppin while some went to eat... so cj n myself jalaned ard... then after tt.. met up with da ma, mama, da jie n xiao mei... while they were high on shoppin for clothes... cj n me were kinda xian la... shoppin is not my style la... haha.. then cj said he wanted to jalan alone... so he left.. then after tt.. i head for e other exit for a smoke... i saw him again.. this time he was like emo la... after tt join him for a while.. then we head bk to swensens la... then after tt all came.. then we head in... had a yummy yummy sticky chewy choco ice cream.. wootz.. yum~~ then xiao mei n da ma ate choco fondue... looks good~~ then e unexpected thing happened.. CJ TREATED US~~ T_T.... gan dong... then after tt.. we headed for home.. while e east side ppl head for e opposite direction.. cj sent xiao di, da ma, xiao mei n myself in a cab.. n poor gy took bus... then we reached bugis.. companied cj buy his wanted CREAM PUFF... haha.. then we all head bk...

well.. i was walkin bk.. somethin bad happened la.. i don know isst suay or wad la... guess walkin bk frm bugis will b VERLI DANGEROUS thing... but zzz la... i wanna save my transport fare also cannot meh... pui... yep... so tts abt yest... for today? AT HOME NUA LOR~~ SI BEI BORIN AH~~~ JIU MING AHHHH~~~

anywae... cheerz to all.... =P

2007-10-09T01:37:00.001+08:00

i found quite a few oldies song.. go checkout my playlist.. enjoy... =P

2007-10-04T23:06:00.000+08:00

well.. today mood was much betta... glad today went out meet ryl, athena n kel.... today got up... nua online a while.. then head to tm slack.. then head to kel's hse to slack even more/koon.... then after tt meet ryl n athena at CS there.. then head to tm eat.. jalan.. slack.. nua.. chiong arcade...

then jb came out for break.. chat a while then head bk for work... then we all slack again.. after tt.. ryl went bk.. was kinda xian.. thot if all left then me bein alone is ok de la.. but athena n kel stayed with me then we send ryl off n head for starbucks to chat n slack.. chat even more.. then slack slack... then play arcade again... then was like ard 10 alr.. i reali appriciate them company xia... hee... THANX KEL N ATHENA N RYL!!! :D! my mood is kinda high now.. i don know y.. mayb thanx to ryl bein high at e bus interchange treatin my bag as her "bf"... haha...

anywae.. after tt... kel n athena head for home while i took e train bk.. i saw my pri/sec sch fren, krystabella.... its been like 2 yrs since i last saw her.... so on e train... we were chattin non-stop n e train ride was like fast xia... haha.. was ok la.... we x-changed contacts... kinda brings bk some memories... hope everythin for her goes well... all e best for her A lvl tts comin soon... yep... after tt.. alighted at my stop... then while walkin bk.. a FAT stray cat was walkin ard my legs... was so cute.. so i sayang-ed her a while.. then after tt it followed me all e way to my blk downstairs... haha... then one weird old man followed me into e lift... gao siao... then whole lift up i gave tt pissed stare.. cuz while i was walkin to e lift.. he was walkin in n out like somethin is there... gives me e chill xia.. *shivers*... anywae.. yep.. then now.. home swt home n bloggin n chattin.. if anyone online.. pls say hi... if not i stare com screen all e way... oops.. haha... lame... anywae.. yep.. tts abt it for today... today's pic.. my green turtle... KURUMI-CHAN! hehe.... a gift frm a fren whom i haven seen in quite a while also.. sigh...

cheerz to all...

HAPPIE HAPPIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE TODAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY~~~~ WISHINGGGGGGGGGGG 4 MOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! YAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

2007-10-03T12:21:00.000+08:00

well... today's entry is gonna b a short one la.. cuz i m kinda pissed with myself today....

well.. today got myself a haircut.. not much change thou... juz tt kinda neater ba... anywae.. came checkin of results.. guess i screwed badly... i got ABC for e 3 subs.... biz reali wad made me screwed la.. n my GPA i muz say its e most pathetic one i hav eva seen...

well.. later will b collectin my specs.. n mayb go find ryl n athena for dinner n a chat ba... haiz.. i m extremely disappointed in myself.. guess e theory of "u reap wad u hav sown" applies to almost everythin sometimes... sigh... yep... tts abt it.... it sux to b me rite now...

hearin most of them did well.. n also some.. thou i haven ask.. but i know cfm do betta than me... so yep... sad la... but no point la.. hopefully i will get over it la.. b4 i turn myself into a psyco.. LOL... tts lame... well.. yest was bored... so decided to take my old QQ hair b4 i went for haircut with not much changes la.. HAHA.. yep....

there u hav it...
Before...

Afer

yep.. cheerz to all....

2007-10-02T18:35:00.000+08:00

A Song For A Lady

The Promise of H.O.T

well.. these 2 songs r kinda ancient to me... haha.. had been tryin to get these songs.. n finally i got them.. these 2 songs were how i got to know this band.. H.O.T. but sadly.. they spilted up yrs ago.. most of them went solo.... thou half e time i don know wad they r singin la.. cuz i m not korean... but its nice...

i don know abt u... but its nice la... haha.. well... i kinda miz e band thou.. they hav quite a no of nice songs.. n their dance moves were cool... but sadly they spilt up la... haiz... well.. tts abt it for 2day...

2molo is quite a day for me.. well.. 1stly.. collectin my specs.. 2ndly.. mayb gettin my hair a little trim... lastly.. checkin results.. well.. i cant say i m all excited la... i wish holiday nv end.. but i also wish sch start.. cuz can see everyone again... see la.. contridictin here... zoinks...

k la.. tts all ppl...

cheerz to all.. :)

2007-09-28T16:09:00.000+08:00

well... been listenin to this song Fate by L'Arc~en~Ciel(ラルクアンシエル) recently.. thou it was frm their v 1st album when they 1st started their music carreer.. i muz say this song was one of e best tt i liked so far...

includin doin it live in clubs or mayb tv shows as well as their concert.... e words to it r quite meaninful i muz say.. so mayb if ya wan.. can check this song out.... for me.. thou its japanese song... its like somehow somethin juz gush rite thru.. i don know.. n i muz say i salute to their guitarist, ken... he did a good job in bring out e best with e guitar.. its damn cool i muz say.... n hyde brought e crowd goin... it was damn high... i wish i can b like him xia.. n i wish i cld hav be there watchin xia.. sigh... o well.. its betta seein it on youtube than nth...

well.. anywae.. today is a borin day.. no outin.. juz home, com, n errr... singin? haha.. nah.. tts juz lame.. i cant sing anywae.. hahaha.... yep.. anywae... tts abt it for today... cheerz to all...

ALLLLLLLLLLL BOREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD......... AAAAAAAAAAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL GONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE................

2007-09-26T23:43:00.000+08:00

well.. today finally met up with my godsis xia.. its been a month plus or more since i last saw her... today met her at rail mall, she passed e movies and keys to e supervisor...

then she say she wanted to get a piercin.. so we head down to orchard fast east there look see... so she got herself a piercin for like ehhh.. 68 bucks... she was happie.. then see quite a few tattoo designs at e same time.. some looks nice.. some looks weird.. some look even jia lat... don know whether to luff or not... while she was doin it.. i was with her.. saw e whole process... was interestin... is like.. 1st.. e person take a tong.. then clamp e lip.. after tt place a small bottle cork at outside e lip there.. then after tt.. in comes e needle.. then when e needle reach e end of e lip there.. stuff e stud in... then taaaa daaaa.... piercin is done...

after tt.. we head on to subway for dinner... while i gobbled my food.. cuz i haven eaten whole day la... zzzz... my godsis cldn munch properly.. cuz was pretty much painful... anywae... after tt.. went walkin ard.. then went wantsons for buyin mouthwash... haha...

then we walk chat all e way to e bus stop near ps there.. then send my godsis off.. then off to home i go... had quite a walk bk.. its been a while... haha.. then see quite a no. of stuff change here and there.... was pretty cool... then walk a quiet road... was xian la.. heng got mp3 music.. keep me off frm makin my imaginations go wild.... finally nearin home.. when i got a call for goin pub.. was kinda no mood.. so pushed it off and head for home.... and yep.. here i m online now...

pretty much bored to tears.... yep.. anywae.. tts for today...

cheerz to all...

PANDA/KIDDY............... ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL DEADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.........

2007-09-26T00:17:00.000+08:00

well.. today had a great day xia.. woke up.. on com.. chat online a while....

then shower.. head out to meet kel, xiao di and jn da jie... so went parkway parade to meet them.. when i got there.. i saw kel.. so i called him.. and walked over to meet him.. then we walked to parkway's poh khim to find xiao di and da jie... after tt, 1st stop.. ARCADE... as usual.. daytona lost to all.. man.. i sux at it xia.. after tt play bball shoot outs... lost also.. then see kel play inital D.. then i played daytona again.. i sux again... then after tt played whack crocodile with da jie and xiao di... like kids xia.. all so high... after tt played hse of dead 4 with kel.. as usual.. died 1st... zzzz.. my shootin sux xia.. haha... all sux la.. not fit to do anythin pro... LOL...

after tt.. we head on to BEST.. jalan ard... then di siao e piano a bit.. was quite fun la.. after tt went BENGAWAN SOLO kua MOONCAKE... then went to marine parade see ard for pool place.. but don hav.. so end up kel they all bought fire crackers... then head bk to buy mooncake.. haha... then wait for a blardie bus to go my place... then took 197 bk.. along e way, ken, ryl and athena had their dinner.. so they all played with my doggies.. after tt.. i managed to direct ken to my hse... haha.. then he kinda got freaked out by my doggies.. after tt... all of us head down for dinner... haha.. then e food i ordered.. e uncle gao siao la.. i say i wanna eat here.. then he packet it for me.. biangs.. lame la.. then ate tt and also drank sugar cane with lemon... damn refreshin.. after tt.. ryl and athena came... ken was happie... nan de see his "errr hemmmm" (shant go into details la)... anywae.. so we ate chat a bit....

after tt.. we bought a couple of drinks.. head bk to my place.. pack up and went to e park near my place celebrate.. was damn fun la.. like kids.. we tried to make RC and stars with fire crackers.. mostly didn worked out la.. but was fun.. too quite a few pics.. n played like kids.. in e mist... got MATA CAR come in.. LOL.. farnie la.. then all look like mah jiam did somethin wrong xia.. but end up one foregin couple kenna spot checked.. heng ah.. haha.. after tt we had e mooncakes... played e fire crackers.. after all e fun.. was time to go bk.. so i directed xiao di and ken to e bus stop.. after tt.. companied kel, ryl, athena and da jie to halt a cab.. n off they go.... then i walked ard e place a bit... then head bk home....

had a great day with them today.. hope there is more to come!! CANT WAIT!!!! when is e nxt gatherin xia?? lookin forward to it!! YIPPPIEEEE..... :P.... i also wanna spend time with my godsis b4 she leaves sg for good... damn... i m sooooo gonna miz her xia... argh... tt sux.. i wish she wun go... but i cant... i cant b self-fish and distant her frm her bf(my bro)... i wanna wish them to b well n happie togetha.... sigh... anywae.. yep.. tts for today...

ehhh.. sorry ah.. pics with e rest.. will get e pics here asap... cheerz to all n wishin all a happie mooncake fest..

FEARED PERSON!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL YYYYYYYYYYOOOOOOOOOUUUUUUUURRRRRRRRRRSSSSSSSSS............

i got e honour takin with 2 MODELS of drink products.. with one still got food in his mouth.. POR-FESSIONAL la.... :P....

Peace to mooncake with one abt to kill mooncake, one advertisin it.. and one havin it in mouth liao... yum!!

almost kenna killed by knife with a mooncake stick on top of it.. ow ow in advance...

GB's moOn gang eatin mooncake.. sound like eatin e cakes we made.. hmm got chen jiu gan... LOL... :P...

xiao di n me... look how happie we are.. LOL...

Pretty Cheryl n me....

fire crackers tt made a lot of noise.. yet... FUNNNN~~~~~~~

2007-09-24T22:27:00.000+08:00

well.. these few days has been movie marathon or sort for me... sat went to watch death at a funeral with jb and kel.. its reali gao siao la.. we reali luff our heads off... anyone lookin for comedy movie.. this will b e one for ya.. don know when it officially come out la.. cuz we watch was e sneak preview....

then came sun... met up with kel to go da ma's fuo tang there.. cuz got vegeterian food fair there.. and da ma treated us into a lot of good food.. all thanx to her xia.. there were wide range of vegeterian food xia... zhen de shi da kai yan jie... kel treated me to RED BEAN ICE CREAM! THANX KEL!! ~YUM~ then we chat a while.. explore e place a bit... then after tt.. went to meet athena at tamp for dinner.. so frm bukit merah bus stop which da ma walked us there.. we took a single deck 197 went... along e way.. kel took my gameboy play... so i was listenin to music... then as he was playin.. his face got a bit pale.. after tt.. he sayin tt he feel like vomitin... gosh.. kenna car/bus sick xia.. biangs.. i scared he vomit xia.. he vomit i cfm kenna.... =.=... so till we reached parkway parade there... we alighted cuz he cldn tah han... so we waited for 31 or 15 to head up... after a while.. 15 came... then we took tt bus to tamp there... along e way.. he was still feelin e car/bus sick... =.=... almost "mobile merlion" xia... haha...

anywae.. we reach tamp.. head to arcade play while waitin for athena... while we played inital D.. athena came.. haha.. as usual.. i lost to kel in tt... zzzz... xian diao.. anywae.. then we head on for dinner.. then jalan a while then head bk...with a bad cold.. don know y.. then mid nite comes e worst.. e doggies slept with me n i was down with fever... zzzz.. pop 2 flu med and off to bed i go....

then for today.... met up with ryl, athena, kel and gy for movie.. at 1st suppose 2 meet gy at lavender at 2.30 PM!!! BUT~~~~ someone late la... =.=... so i waited for like 10 mins? then he came.. then we took a train up.. haha... chatted a bit... actually was suppose to meet e rest at tamp's small mac... but knowin all late la.. so ask all meet at tm's open plaza... so while walkin there.. gy and i tried our luck see if we can find jb.. cuz he is workin.. haha... then we saw him busyin cuttin somethin with his MANAGER!! LOL... then gy stare at him like idol frm outside xia.. LOL... anywae.. we walked to open plaza.. then gy sms him.. so jb came out for smoke break.. haha!!! then we chat a while.. kel came... then jb say he will join us for movie.. so he went bk to work.. cuz he knockin off at 4 xia.. then after a while.. ryl came.. then we chatted a while.. finally athena came.. after tt.. we went down to get ryl's stuff.. then came bk up play arcade... haha... then while i played time crisis 2... ryl and kel played hse of dead 2... haha.. see ryl's reaction so ji lie.. was so cute xia... cldn help but luff... after tt.. we play daytona.. haiz.. sadly i lost 2 all.. cuz startin i alr kenna flip car.. =.=.... zzzzz... anywae...

jb came then e guys got their snacks and drinks.. we all head in... then commercials were NONG.... after tt came e movie... haha.. was farnie.. had a good luff.. thou my head was kinda spinnin... seein how e rat cook.. biangs.. i wish my doggies can cook for me more than i cook for them la... =.=.... oops.. nonsense thot.... anywae.. after tt... gy gotta head home while jb got his own activities... so ryl, athena, kel and myself head to Long John Silvers for dinner.. then we ate.. chat a while.. then head on to nearby's playgrd chat and play a while... then kel was hyperly jumpin and climbin ard like a kid.. ryl and athena.. were chattin and xferin songs with their phones.... i was a bit giddly... head felt like a thousand tons juz fell on my head... zzzzz...

after tt.. ryl had to go... so we all left e place.. while 3 of them head bk.. i walked ard.... i saw bro with his gf... n he saw me doin somethin not a sibling wld wanna see....well... i cldn b bothered with him... so i juz didn bother sayin hi and walked off.. whether he will complain or wad i don know n i wun care... after tt.. head on to e other side of e mrt station.... was somehow feelin like gonna vomit or faint liao.. so juz took a train bk... while walkin bk.. was kinda shakey...zzzzz.... finally got myself bk home... lie on e bed.. and it wasn workin much.. so now on e com... listenin to music with eyes almost dead.. but juz like my eyes tired and not my mind... its like weird.... haiz.... jia lat xia... hope i get betta 2molo.. wanna celebrate mooncake fest with them xia... and most of them shld b comin over my place ba... hehe... YAHOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!

tts all for these few days.... everyone.. weather is gettin suxy.. but moon nice... haha..anywae.. remb drink more water xia... don kenna dehydrate.... haha.... cheerz...

DORAMON/DYIN PERSON............... ALLLLLLLL OUTTTTTTTTTT..........

2007-09-21T23:55:00.000+08:00

well.. today.. i muz say i enjoyed dinner today... was pretty much borin in e day besides watchin anime and drama..

after tt.. had dinner with kel, cheryl and athena.. haha.. as usual.. talked quite a bit.. jalaned ard.. stare at them enjoyin swensens' ice cream... then went shop n save with noisy promoters doin some activity... then head on to TM.. played hse of dead 2.. was lame la.. cuz i reali sux at it... wonder how i b gunner in future xia.. haha.. tt was all crap... then head bk home..

while in e train.. somethin caught my eye... PCK BOOTS.. haha.. cldn bear it but to take a pic of it.. howz tt... haha... i miz e PCK xia... esp e mole.. plus.. i saw another one in PCK boots.. but if i were to take.. it wld hav been too obvious... haha.. i wonder if nowadays ppl's fashion sense hav gone haywire.. i don know.. haha.. can comment much anywae...

anywae.. as i m typin this now.. my mum is headin for tamp.. most likely gonna bring bro back home.. i don know.. i juz don know if i can live with e fact after bein hurt for so long... gosh... it feels like a kinship tts been torn apart and now.. its gonna b patched... which i feel e holes r gonna b there.. whether he comes bk a not.. i don know n i m tryin not to bother.. i don know y n i don wanna know y.. i m actually pretty much happie with my life with e ppl ard me n in my life now.. i juz hope it stays at it is...

somehow ppl say.. family r more impt than frens... i don know.. sometimes i doubt myself.. hav i become too unfilial tt i actually sometimes feel tt frens r more impt than family... i don know.. its like pain and sufferin brings family closer.. but i don think tt applies to e state i m in rite now ba... i don know how shld i go abt it... mayb juz see wad i can do to let myself feel tt i m redundant ard e hse ba... i don know.. i juz can bear to think abt it.. all e flashback has got me all in a mess... i wonder how is it like there now.. frm wad i know of my mum.. she may b breakin down.. i don know.. cryin has been all been since for e pass yrs.. i wonder how actually hanged on... with e company of my doggies and e ppl ard me cheerin.. i managed to keep myself happie... home is a burden for me.. heaven for the rest.. i guess... i don know...

anywae... i gonna go and relac a while.. but i don know y i keep prayin tt bro doesn come bk.. i guess e amt of hate i hav in him is too much to contain.. too much to say.. e scar tt he hav inflicted on me cannot b erased ba...

k la.. tts all for e day... lookin forward to sun and monday... hehe... wun b home.... yay yay yay.... no more blardie face frm home.. yay yay yay.... :X....

DORAMON/PANDA... ALLL OUT......

2007-09-21T00:11:00.000+08:00

well... today was quite a day.. well.. had a great chat online with few ppl.. time flies.. and had to settle some stuff.. after tt...

met up with my dear chio bu.. serene... haven seen her for like more than half yr le ba... then she say xian.. then go jalan lor.. as usual.. begin with... she is LATE.. and i mean LATE!!! haha... but she swt la.. treat me drink...

was on e phone with "ah ma".. then she came.. then 1st stop was e optiction(spell wrong.. i know.. don know how 2 spell la deh..) shop... tried her contact.. then head on to bugis junction and jalan... then chat quite a bit.. head to arcade.. see ppl chiong game.. many pros.. feel damn noob la.. then see one game mah jiam O2 jam.. new version.. look cool...

then see liao.. xian.. head to M1 kua HP.. after tt.. head to 7-11 for drinks.. sat outside.. had quite a chat... after tt.. went to buy a bit of munchies.. and e salesperson reali know how 2 do biz xia.. haha...

after tt.. head to bugis village.. jalan jalan.. then walked her to e bus stop.... so b4 we left e place.. took a few pics la.. here it is..

anywae.. when i got home.. mum was sayin mayb nxt month go get a new hairstyle... and tts REBONDIN?! gosh.. its gonna b a disaster... hopin wun b true.. mayb a trim will b betta? i wonder....

yep.. tts all for e day... gosh.. e feelin sux rite now... *hicks*

LONER... ALL OUT....

2007-09-19T19:33:00.000+08:00

"EXCUSE ME AH.. UNCLE THROAT CANCER HARD PACK 1..."

oops... haha... juz feel like sayin tt...

anywae... well.. besides yest watchin movie, "rogue assasin" with cheryl, athena, kel, gy, jj and andy... which was all good.. its been bored to tears for e last few days....

sometimes i wonder to myself.. m i thinkin of fallin for somethin/someone tt is impossible? i don know... i juz don wanna think so much b4 i reali sink myself into 1...

after goin Kbox with RC ppl last wk.. i been singin non stop.. well.. i got a song tt kinda make me wanna sing more and more...i like it a lot when i was bk at sec sch days... been singin to it most of e time.. besides jay chou songs....

singing in front of a crowd in a pub wld be a terrifyin experience... which may happen within this wk or durin e holidays... i m not gonna say when or where.. cuz its all not cfm....

well... ppl ard me r bein in love or lookin for love ard more... and i m happie for them.. its like happiness has come to them... while some hav lost their love one while one like another... after tt.. life has been tough for them actin ok.. but somehow.. e easily emo me hav felt for them.... its like u hav found somethin tt u love and u wish to keep it tt way.. but somehow.. its juz gone... n no one to turn to is like as gd as alone for tt period.. whether u will find e way to ur light is another issue....

has love become so tough for one to hang on? well.. ans is both a yes and a no.... it depends on one's perpective... somehow... ppl hav turn to horscope for help... i muz say... it sometimes b true.. it may not b... how much one wanna give love to another is a different thing.. characters match... mayb true...

sometimes i wonder.. m i givin a wrong impression to others by bein too frenly and scary at e same time... sometimes i wish i can give myself a whack or wad.. isst bcuz i m juz too emo tt no one wanna come near me.... (m i tt fearful?)... a scary stare has given all fears? a cust once said to me... "usin ur fringe to cover, or givin a scary stare gonna help u cover ur fears? it may seem to ppl tt u r juz scared to let ppl see ur face.. u hav a character tt i will say many ppl will fall for... but.... u hav fears all ur life.. bringin urself to light.. not only depend on u.. but also r others willing to help u.... there mayb someone starein at u frm a distance.. juz tt only u don know..."

her words has been kept in my heart... i remember her... she is actually a successful single mother who has encourage many and brought them to light... sometimes i wish.. can anyone give me a frenly smack? LOL.. i was juz bein nonsense.. thou i mayb scary in term of lookin like wanna whack someone.. but i wun do much... bein on guard all e time has got me all tired.. can anyone lent me a back tt i can lean on.. juz for a while... a back tt can let me rest and let myself go.. juz for a while...

anywae... i hav said my piece.... so.... i don know... well.. a wishful thot, comes a nonsense dream and hope... haha... yep... anywae... heres e song tt i wanna let u all see... its by a band call the moffatts... i don know where they hav been... haha.. no news of them... yep... here it is..

Here we are
You tell me I'm the only one
Who makes you feel love again
There you go
I see you watching him
When you don't think I know
Should I let you go?
So who's it gonna be
Is it him or me?
Who do you love?
Who do you need?
You're messing up my mind
Wastin' all my time
Who do you love?
What do you feel?
Stop playin with my heart
You're tearin me apart
Am I the one
who can make you fly up above
Is it me who can take you higher
than you're dreaming of
Now who do you love?
Who do you love?
Turn around
Do you really think
You'll play me like a fool
For you
Then I realize
When you touch me it's like nothing I have known
Could I let you go
So who's it gonna be
Is it him or me?
Who do you love?
Who do you need?
You're messing up my mind
Wastin' all my time
Who do you love?
What do you feel?
Stop playin with my heart
You're tearin me apart
Am I the one
who can make you fly up above
Is it me who can take you higher
than you're dreaming of
Now who do you love?
Who do you love?
Who do you need?
You're messing up my mind
Wastin' all my time
Who do you love?
What do you feel?
Stop playin with my heart
You're tearin me apart
Am I the one
who can make you fly up above
Is it me who can take you higher
than you're dreaming of
Now who do you love?

AI WEI.. all out.....

2007-09-15T19:14:00.000+08:00

well... lets start off with yest... i went over to my cousin's place at noon for drinks... seems tt he is kinda happie.. so he treat me.. haha... anywae... i spent e whole day there... was quite ok.... played a bit of diablo.. and also play xbox games also.... was pretty much relaxin... and after tt can of beer... he kinda got e kick comin in... he can barely even walk str.. was farnie xia... haha... then he bo liao.. take his gastby rubber thingy.. then he started stylin my hair... =.=.... then end up.. while he was playin his xbox games.. i played his com.. haha... at e same time took a few pics la.. bored mah... anywae... yep.. after tt.. "ah ma" came down to meet me.. haha.. then we took train frm simei to pasir ris then back down to lavender... haha... was quite enjoyin.. slowly see all e crowds dashin in and pack like sardines... :X...

yep... finally.. got to my place... we play e com.. i let her watch NANA e movie and she enjoyed it... haha... some of e songs were nice.. (if u all got crunchyroll acc.. go watch it.. its nice... ) anywae.. after tt.. she started deletin stuff off my com so tt it wun b so lag.. and hor.. kx's hse of dead 3 game is still in my com and i cannot delete it xia... zzzzz..... anywae... it was ard 2 plus tt i cannot tah han.. juz fell asleep... tts for yest...

pics taken 4 e day la...(p.s. e hand is courtesy of my cousin.. who was like "WAH! u went for battle ah? how come hand like tt xia.." LOL)

for today?... got up at ard 11 plus? then play com again.. then head off to bishan.. "ah ma"'s hse... haha.... so we bought lunch there.. then ate it... wanted to watch tv.. but her livin rm tv spoil liao.. LOL.... then nvm.. went to play com... so was slackin till ard 6... while she head off to her grandma place...

was thinkin of meetin xiao di for dinner.. but he is out.. gonna meet his fren.. so bo bian... head for home.. and now reach home... NUA-IN... its extremely borin... i can b bored to tears xia... zzzzzz...

so tts for these 2 days.. cheerz....

2007-09-13T22:04:00.000+08:00

kk... entry for yest

yest was fun man... mornin met, xiao mei, da jie, kel, ken and jj for kbox... heng i reach earlier xia.. late de need to treat xia.. haha...(a joke thou)... anywae.. we head on to kbox.. and i guess 3/4 of e time.. mic was all mine.. oops... too in a singin mood..(SORRY FOR SNATCHIN LIMELIGHT!!!) T_T...

anywae... after tt.. head on to suntec.. xiao mei and da jie went to shop for some stuff.. while jj, kel and myself went to arcade and play la.. which was quite ok thou.. then see kel play a game.. mah jiam like O2 jam.. gosh.. GODLIKE xia.. *fainted*... after tt.. xiao mei and da jie came bk.. and so we all head on to carrefour to get e food.. due to BLOODIE TIGHT BUDGET!!! we hav nth much to buy also... so we bought a bit here and there.. and besides tt.. we bought alcohol of course.. haha..

after tt.. while wanting to return e trolley... i kenna my finger xia... kenna swell like pig finger now... haiz.. suay la.. but nvm... shant blame anyone... but for my own carelessness... haha... anywae.. we got to e station and took a train to lavender.. but on e way.. jb and me par kat.. cheat everyone's feelings la.. cuz jb say he got work mah.. but end up he managed to take tt time off... hehe... we chat and play com a bit... after tt... kel and jb helped with e preparation of e steamboat xia... (their future partners are damn fortunate to hav husbands like them xia..).. anywae.. after tt.. kel and myself head down to get winnie, cj and andy.. hehe... da ma kenna tricked xia.. cuz i say over e phone tt kel came down with me.. end up only saw me... haha... anywae.. yep... got bk to my place... damn noisy liao.... haha.. after tt... and guess wad.. think was sumarta kenna earthquake.. and my hse was shakin... as it was a 1st time experience for quite a no. of them.. they kinda freaked out.. but all of us luff all thanx to cj's joke.."shake more shake more.. longer longer!! shiok shiok" haha.. cute xia... as it not 1st time alr.. it always happened when i m home alone.. so was pretty much a bad experience... i will usually hide in e cupboard.. if not juz under my blanket and shiver a bit.... cuz there was once.. it shook so badly tt e ceiling in my rm cracked a little... i was extremely scared by it... sigh... guess tt how i got over it slowly ba.. thou i may still fear it...

anywae...we spent like a few hrs waitin for cheryl, athena, juliana, suvin and soon yan to come.. they came at last.. then we had steamboat... had a few cups of martel... and drinks and stuff.. haha.. was nice xia.. *Burp*... hehe... finally... kx came... cj happie to see him xia.. haha.... =P... anywae.. we chat and had steamboat...

after a while... quite a no. of them left... till was only kel, kx and jj at my place liao.. we played overnite mj.. and took us like 6 hrs to finish ONE FULL ROUND of 4 DIRECTIONS of mj xia.. tired xia.. but was all good fun.. and while play.. jj keep sayin tt he cannot tah han.. haha.... so farnie...

they left my place at ard 6 am... and as usual.. i hit for e showers and then koon liao... till today's 4.15 pm xia... gosh.. i slept more than half e day thru...

and i juz had another steamboat xia.. with my family... tts my 1st and last meal of e day xia.. haha.. gao siao la.. anywae.. today my hse shook like don know wad la... jia lat xia... zzzz... anywae...

tts all...

chEeRz to all...

2007-09-10T22:44:00.000+08:00

well... i guess somehow things have been happenin and many ppl r feelin e tension... due to exams thou it ends 2molo la..

well.. i screwed my bfd.. i hav nth to say... and today.. i m pissed with myself... y? cuz today was suppose to company da ma and xiao mei as they go thru their accs with cher.. but NOOOO... one phone call and juz rush out to meet cheryl they all.. and its like ps.. felt damn bad xia.. wish can make it all up to them xia... wad has happened to me xia...

anw.. thinkin tt today gonna b accs studyin day.. but NOOOO... end up we play pokers and celebrate mah jiam exams ends today... sigh... i m as gd as dead for 2molo... well.. as i head home.. i was kinda in a foul mood... so i brought my lappy and head on top of e blk to enjoy e wind... when my mum found me there.. she say my eyes look like i m a cold blooded killer... so a pic came to mind... (e pic tts displayed above)... well... i was v much upset with myself..

i hav nv felt so jammed in e middle b4.. compromisin one another isst so hard? i wanna give in to one side.. but on e other hand.. i hav to compromise e other... i don wan anyone to separate frm this circle juz becuz of one small enterin/exit... RC has nv been separated.. it has always been there and it will b there... even if someone wanna come and break it... THEY WILL HAV TO GO THRU ME 1ST!!! oops... *speak no evil*

anywae... i go whack my forehead 1st b4 my eyes lose control..... tts all.. and all e best for afd....

ALL OUT.... GONE...

2007-09-08T03:04:00.000+08:00

was wonderin a lot today.. thou was like in a daze...

handlin family affairs...
y no one tag my blog...
when e scars will heal...
when i can reali sing till i drop..
stare at e nite sky with a whole moon and stars shinin..
when i can eva gain freedom...
when will i find my goal...

sometimes i wonder to myself.. is life so empty tt its feels like i can juz end it in a snap... readin xiao mei's blog abt e army fella being an idiot... i think to myself and wonder.. is she e only one tt he can gave up his life juz for her? hmmm mayb... as i think bk...

a person came to mind... brother(bio bro la)... he was actually one of e few i most look up to when i was young.. cuz he was born with a sort of like a slow mind.. plus.. his forehead has a scar.. he got it when he was a kid while playin with my sis.. think was like a 10 over stiches in e hospital... we grew up play bball most of e time.. thou he only started play when he was only sec 2.. was fun seein him play... kinda miz those times... now.. he has been away frm home for a yr plus.. well.. not say away frm sg.. but away frm this house i m in...he gave up his kinship as well as frenship.. juz for a relationship...

not many ppl know tt he is gone frm this neighbourhood.. so most of e time after sch or when i head in and out of home... phobia of nosy neighbours askin "wad happened to ur bro? how come i don see him ard anymore?".. it feels like a thousand darts came passin thru me... thou now if u ask me.. i may say i don know and i don wanna know... but deep down inside.. he still somewhere... as tt day.. he came bk packin.. arguin and accusin my sis juz like a police askin criminal.. it outrage me... i wonder if he eva felt tired of runnin away? a yr.. say not long.. its a lie... its been slowly drainin every ounce of energy and will of me to move on... every nite.. i can almost hear cries comin out frm mum and sis.. prayin tt one day.. this family will b a whole... a small bubble of hope is form.. whether it burst to turth.. i don know...i sank into a shallow sleep.. and dreamt of e impossible...

life is always unpredictable as all say... mine is pretty much predictable... well.. not like i got e fingers to count out how much lifespan i hav left and tt... its juz... well.. i don know how 2 say it here...i guess i m tryin to numb myself off frm all these thots and pain juz by plain dazin... losin control is not an option... but a strong mind to overcome tt...

i guess i been on my own too long.... i juz wanna find somewhere or someone tt i can lean on to rest a while.. b4 pickin myself up.. but e fear of over leanin is there.. i wanna b strong.. but its juz too much to bear.. it somehow begin to consume me slowly...

well.. i betta try get some rest..its alr 3.30am in e mornin... sleepless nite has been on-goin.. only way to sleep... stare at e module book and try shuttin my eyes...

~~AND I DON WAN THE WHOLE WORLD TO SEE ME... cuz.. i wanna hide and lean to get some rest....~~

all out....

2007-09-07T10:55:00.000+08:00

well.. after abt a wk of no entries.. heres one.. well.. gotta say this wk has been a hectic one.. thou its been a wk of major PON-in class... oops...

monday had a bloody 5 hr AFD.. almost died.. so in e process was takin pic with xiao mei.. all e emo de.. cute cute de.. haha.. nonsense la.. anywae.. with RC ard.. time.. OF COURSE pass faster la... if not ah.. i wld hav died of SIANSATION...

anywae... wed has OFA test.. was one of e easiest test i eva did xia... finished it quick and shake leg with da ma as she was nxt 2 me... after tt.. i head down for SMSS 5Ns gatherin come birthday party... well.. was glad to see them.. well.. envy them as poly now havin holiday mah.. wad u expect xia...

anywae.. this whole wk, it has dwell on me tt i have become more and more irri? i don know wad term la.. i juz feel wrong most of e time... theres been study grps and stuff as nxt monday is alr exam.. and here i m still being mostly distractin myself as well as e rest.. gosh... i m as gd as dead.. i hav to start forcin myself to settle down and get on with books b4 i get myself killed in exams.. worst panic like siao in e hall... so today is most likely gonna b a home day i guess.. thou got ppl jio go study la.. but i juz feel if i cant study well outside and always gettin distracted.. i don wan e rest to kenna frm me.... so mayb home will b best...

and e most xian thing is I M OUT OF LEDGER PAPER!!!! need to do accs with bloody excel.. gosh.. reminds me of e OFA screwed test... eeek... i feel like i don know where my mind and my heart lies.. is like i m not givin enough effort and like always waitin for ppl to decide or get things done for me b4 hand.. and i m not reali likin it.... i m juz plainly screwed...

sigh... anywae.. i betta get bk with book b4 i start blabberin nonsense like a drunkard... :X...

cheerz to everyone

and to all QB mates.. ALL E BEST FOR EXAMS!!! JIA YOU!! GAMBETTE!!!!:P

2007-09-02T19:32:00.000+08:00

well... first of all.. i juz wanna say... SORRY ALL FOR PISSIN U ALL OFF IF I DID... reason bein... was kinda grouchy today....

1st up.. i was late in meetin da ma and e rest to do acc hw.. cuz e doze of flu med got me killed.. and end up i overslept... when i got there... was kinda pissed with myself.. 1.. for bein late.. 2.. e bloody weather.... after tt.. e nitemare came... start to do accs.. and O MI TIAN... is like i totally don know how 2 do.. and is like i cant get anythin rite.. i nv felt this useless b4.. and e more i did.. e more i feel like throwin e paper away.... ARGH... fustrated... after a while... jj and andy came.. and e horror news abt 2molo's afd bein 4 AND HALF HR INSTEAD OF 3 HRS got me even more pissed... and is like i feel like killin myself somehow...

its like a 3 hrs class is enough to make me dead.. now add on another 1 and half hr.. wad is this xia... chEEEEEEEE....anywae... yep... so we did accs hw.. and a simple trial balance.. i cant even get it rite... its like i can mix up between expenses and revenue.... i reali wanna whack myself somehow... argh... i m as gd as this... exams.. there goes my ONE n ONLY A... sigh....

anywae... after tt.. da ma went off with her bf.. while soon yan after a while.. head for home... so kel, xiao di, jj, andy and myself head off to I.R.C... but somehow i gave a bit of attitude(i m sorry!!).. cuz i didn reali like tt place after havin a terrible experience of arguin with e person in charge there.. cuz 3 coms i sat all jia lat jia lat.. and took me hrs i remb to debate with him.. and its like a nitemare.. i seriously hate it xia... so end up.. we head to parco for an hr of CS.. n end up.. kenna trashed badly... sigh... anywae.. we head up to food junction... e guys ate while i sat there and daze.. haha... and kel at our dear fren juliana's fav food... BAN MIAN!! haha... after tt... all of us head home...thou my gastric pain acted up while walkin e guys off... anywae.. so e guys took train bk... i decided to walk bk... on e way.. i saw a grp of ppl i didn wanna see... they saw me and were like actin all frenly.. as usual.. with a motive... well.. i juz walk my way.. end up.. they wanted to start a fight... well.. i cldn b bothered... if they wanna fight.. they wld hav started it and wldn hold back... heck la.. while i was tryin to walk bk home fast to my gastric med... as it was abt to kill my stomach... they keep blockin my way.. askin me to join bk to them and do wadeva it is la... thankfully got mata car.. they didn come close... finally got home and chiong for med... man..

e feelin sux xia... anywae... ya la.. 2molo is gonna one of e longest day i eva face in ITE life so far ba... as much as i wish to pon.. but i hav to admit.. I NEED HELP WITH ACCS LIAO!!! ANYONE WILLIN TO HELP ME FOR FOC? haha.... LELONG LELONG... :X... ok la.. tts all le.. i m gonna eat my med again... pain actin up again xia... sheez.. yea.. anywae... ppl who r still sick... pls.. take care ya.. drink more water and REST MORE!!! and if need tissue.. FEEL FREE TO APPROACH QILIANG TISSUE COMPANY... HAHAHA... :P...

cheERZ to all....

2007-09-01T21:37:00.000+08:00

lets start with yest.. well.. i kenna fly kite frm xiao mei.. well.. cant blame her.. cuz she had things to sort out... anywae... xiao di and kel came over my place and played mj.. well.. in yrs of playin mj.. it was my 1st time playin one of e most LAZIEST STYLE OF MJ... well.. not gonna say how... cuz i think if u see if.. cfm faint... cuz i reali luff till i drop... as usual... still sick... kel also.. apparently xiao di was ok.. after wrapin WONTONS FOR A WK?! then he cough la.. sneeze la.. we all nearby de all kenna... now then he wanna start supplyin tissue xia..."EHHH ELO BROTHER!! I WAITIN FOR MY TISSUES SUPPLIES LEH!!WHEN COMIN AH?! UR CUST SERVICE AH... TSK TSK TSK..." ... oops... :X... anywae... after tt.. we got sick of mj.. played gb.. haha.. after tt... ql head home for dinner.. while kel and myself head out for dinner... haha... after tt.. head bk home and nua for nite... was dyin of siansation.. heng got u all talkin 2 me xia.. if not ah.. nite is damn long xia... finally koon at ard 4 plus? cuz watch tv la.. nua la.. stare ceiling la... was so borin i tell u.... zZzZzZ....(those 2 pics above r wad i took on my way home frm lavender mrt station...)

well.. today was one of e most borin day i eva had.. well.. was home alone e whole time.. not knowin wad to do... apparently studyin wasn an option at all.. cuz totally no mood at all.... sigh... well.. end up watchin few animes and movies... and also singin songs.. so tt i can find excuses on sep 12 not to sing... HAHAHAH!!! kiddin ppl kiddin... don kill me... pain de... >.<....

after tt.. mum came bk frm work askin if i wanna go over to gramps place.. so end up.. travelled to tamp.. nua ard.. plus play ard with my little cousins.. which as usual.. pull my hair.. wanna get some horse ridins and stuff... carry them ard like superman and wonderwomen... HAHA... was cute la... they r juz so adorable.... then they play those toys mah jiam acting hsewives.. so cute.... then i took e "chicken" and hide.. they play "wheres e chicken game.." end up... they found out was me.. all came atkin me... haha... juz for a chicken xia... hahahaha.... so cute.... after tt.. couz who was a yr younger than me came.. then he put his wrist band on my wrist.. so i play ard with it.. but after a while.. i was dazin.. end up kenna caught on cam... sheez... kenna luff at somemore.. say look like LAO DA... =.=.... PUI... after a while.. head home alr.... while my mum was drivin.. i turn off e air con and wanted to enjoy e wind...

but some bloody car.. drove pass... wah... almost died of inhalin too much carbon monoxide... PUI.... SPOILER!!!! #$%^&.... oops... too moody today.. guess its one of e most borin day i eva had so far.. i guess it almost got me killed... mentally and physically.... sigh.... well... tts abt it for today....

there u hav it.. e pic tt made me look like LAO DA? pui la...

to those who fell sick... tolongah... take care and drink more water...
also wishin all chers a happie teachers' day...

CHEerz...

2007-08-29T21:40:00.000+08:00

well... today's moon is one of e nicest i hav eva seen... e 1st one was taken thru e window frm my rm.. while e other... i hack into e ladder to get myself on top of e blk and take.. its was extremely windy... but a nice view.. thou was kinda scared of heights... it was a reali nice feelin... it feels like i can throw off loads of things off my mind... like i can feel freedom... but freedom is never foreva... earnin freedom is always e xian part... well... tts life.. suck it up and move on alr i guess... emo wun get me anywhere... thanx all for e support... i m startin to feel betta... but hor.... if u all still see me in a daze.. feel free to shock me... knock me out of it... HAHAHA!!! yea.. tts all for e day.. lookin forward to sep 12... a fun day awaits... but part of it hopefully will b fri day nite.. y? cuz its BU NENG SUO DE MI MI lor... :X....

cheERZ.... :)

2007-08-28T21:06:00.000+08:00

well.. today felt weird as usual.... plus tired....

so head on to sch... got to watched coach carter.. was nice watchin it for e 4th time? i still love ken carter for e way of him bring e team. thou they lost e state championship.. but in everyone's heart, they r e real champs. their teamwork was speechless.... then was lunch

well.. i gotta say.. it was one of e quietiest lunch i hav eva had so far besides e 1st few days of sch... i don know y... but nvm.. shant say much.. as usual.. i was dazin in blank.. didn reali talk much today, cuz i guess e weather made most of us wanna sleep..

so head on to bfd, while waitin. i stare into blank again. while bein caught for bein too quiet. i don know.. somehow now it juz sux to b me.. can anyone juz chat with me. at least it wun make me feel like i m out of place nor think much of it? well.. ppl r busy with their lives and here i m wishin for tt to happen? ppl cant juz always be there all e time. i guess i hav become someone tt i wish for someone or somethin tt i can lean on and catch myself b4 i lose myself. dependent for too long. mayb juz need a break... i don know...

once again, i m back to listenin to e song, tt almost may me cry my heart out in sch while we were doin some com stuff. well.. my ofa grades r out... not as bad as i expected... thankfully there is no need for me to re-take... juz do betta for e upcomin test nxt wed.... which is quite jia lat, cuz i still can catch some parts of it... but some.. i need help... but pros r busy with their own, if not helpin e rest... haha... well.. they r hot stuff to ppl... "get it while its hot"? haha.. i m goin bonkers here again.

anywae... finally finished e day.... head bk home.... i hide myself one corner and juz wanna let it all go... but i m still feelin e nonsense feelin.... well.. end up.. did a bit of cookin for e family... was bein praised few hrs bk... well.. in a scarastic way.... i don know... thou i kinda burnt myself a bit.. apparently wasn lookin over e fire.... haha.. silly me...

its alr nite time.. gosh.. time flies... hav i been wanderin too much? hav nite life been so corrupted tt i have to hate myself for turnin myself back into my old ways. nth but violence and hate..... i hav nv felt so mess up... guess many unnecessary things hav juz jump in... worries, fears, anger hav all been contained... but still.. almost every mornin i open my eyes... grouchy is wad i feel... cryin out of nowhere is wad tts goin on... reason? i hav no idea.... depression? anger? wishin tt i cld end it all?.. i wish... hidin e feelins of certain things r contained... but hidin it till it wun b show is another issue.... mixin up thots has been killin me... lonerin all my life besides e company of close frens is wads gonna happen for e nxt few decades? i guess mayb tts wad gonna happen... no sympathy needed.. but bein luff may happen... i don know.. is for e rest to find out.....

anywae... ppl who r readin here.... mayb if ya can.. try chattin with me? LOL... juz kiddin... but its a hope la... haha... dao me also i cant do much... juz feel sad la.. ok.. now i juz said somethin lame.... end here for e day.... tissue boxes needed now... lol....

ChEeRz.....

2007-08-27T23:49:00.000+08:00

well.. i don know how i wanna say this now... recently i haven been myself.... i been soberin over small things.. if not get angry or petty easily...

as i listen to this song... I'll be your home by Rin Oikawa... i look out of e window and kinda lose myself for a while... well.. i don know wads gotten over me? have i been longin for somethin tt i think it wldn happen? or hav i been thinkin too much or holdin onto somethin to tight tts its dyin to break free...

well... i don know.. as i listen to it over and over again... it kinda sinked into my heart tt somehow home is juz away thou its inside my soul... love is not an option thou i may b able to hide... precious moments are wad matter... it feels like i got myself sinkin to a deep ocean where i cannot feel nor touch anythin....i hav fears tt i haven gotten over.. thou it may seem like an everyday life... but hav anyone wonder wad may come and end up.. e fears tt accumulated inside got an opportunity to eat u up? well.. tts how i felt sometimes... no matter if it is in e past nor present....

as i stare out of e window once again... it feels like everythin is changin... somehow... a fren of mine once said.. e grp of frens tt he used to hang out with changed so much tt he cant even get wad they r talkin.. and its like out of place... as much as u wish ppl ard u will stay as it is... sometimes it happen.. sometimes it doesn stay long.. i wish for e ppl ard me to stay as close to me...

but as a comfirmation of someone whom i hav known for 2 yrs and on goin.. who is abt to leave e country for good by e end of e yr.. losin her is like losin a piece of my skin.. well.. if anyone in RC or ard me leaves.. its like a bunch of thorns went thru my skin as well as my heart... ppl come and goes, but nv stays.. as much as my wishful part.. i hope all ard me stay... i juz don wanna lose it.. mayb i juz don know how 2 put it nicely.. it may sound mushy... gosh tt sux...

anywae.. i m off to calm myself down b4 i lose it again... anywae.. i don know y i took e pic of my window grillings la... juz feel like takin it somehow.... yea... anywae.. tts all la...

o ya.. and b4 i forget if ya got time.. do go listen to e song tt i mention earlier on my playlist ya.. here r e words.. enjoy....

及川リン(Rin Oikawa) - I'll be your home

Don't look back
Don't regret
Time's falling out of these hands
I'll let you leave me

Go on,
You know Home is always inside your soul
All the light to bless your way
Don't be afraid
'Cause I'll be your home

In this time
In this place
This moment is all we have
And tomorrow we never know

Every precious time
Let it go
Somewhere away
You will learn, And you'll love,
forgive the past and you can move on

All the distance
You've come to a place
Then you see that your home is away
Now the sun is rising
lighting up your sky again brightly

Every precious time
Let it go
Somewhere away
You will learn, And you'll love,
forgive the past

Go on,
You know Home is always inside your soul
Wherever you go
Whatever you see
I'll be the place
And I'll be your home

CHeeRz....

2007-08-26T17:50:00.000+08:00

well.. another entry made... well.. lets start off with friday... was sick of school... so went bk early with da ma.. then obasan came to my place last min and i shocked... nvm.. so hang ard a while.. went to koon.. till xiao di sms me and asked if i wanna go kel's place with him to nua... LOL... so i rush to meet him.. bid bye to obasan.. and we board e train to tamp.. so we jalan over to kel's hse...

and dear xiao di who keep shoutin kel's gb nic... damn farnie la.. then passer-bys stare like he is ailen or wad... then frm kel's blk downstair.. he say all e way till his doorstep.. was damn farnie... so we reached his place... kel and xiao di played audition.. while i kinda dozed a little.. TIRED mah... then end up.. they played till close to 7 when we were suppose to gather at tampines mall at 7... as usual.. jb was e 1st to reach.. and he juz got up nia... lol.. farnie xia... followed by 3 of us.. so 4 of us head to tm to da bao food.. hungry xia... then e gals were late... nvm.. we decided to watch e later one... so we killed time at e food court...

thruout e whole time.. we keep di siao-in juliana and her BAN MIAN... and all of us luff damn hard... then when its time for e movie.. we made our way up... as cheryl was kinda scared.. cuz she kinda think abt those scary parts after watchin them... so.. guess wad we watched? i thot we were watchin rush hour, end up watch DEAD SILENCE?! i muz say... its kind of a psyco show.. and kind of an urban ledgend? anyone agree? "beware the stare of mary shaw, she has no children, but dolls. and if she appears in ur dreams, be sure not to scream".... well.. there was a part which scare quite a no. of us... while juliana and jb were munchin on chips... athena fell asleep.. jj, xiao di, kel and myself kinda got freaked out by some parts of them... but cheryl was almost FULLY covered... haha... after e movie.. i got a msg frm mum.. sayin tt its not advisable to go bk.. i guess its a hint... while thinkin how m i to spend e hrs.. we saw suvin with her frens... as usual, she kenna suan till her famous line "SMACK U AR" came runnin... hehe... we chatted a while and left...

anywae..havin thots of goin kel's place to play mj.. end up xiao di cldn stay late.. so no choice... roamin will b betta.. but e rest wasn v comfy with tt idea... so i thot... y not see wad goes... so end up company juliana and kel take 292 and see ard e other side of tamp... well... it pass places where i used to been when i was still a little girl.. it somehow brought bk a bit of memories... after tt.. thot of havin drinks.. so went to e coffee shop near kel's place and had a couple of beers... after tt.. we went play ard e fitness corner... then went his place nua... when we got to his place... he nua on his bed liao.. after tt.. he juz fell asleep.. HAHAHA!! i was watchin anime.. chattin with xiao di and juliana.... haha.. after tt... koon liao... till i think ard 12 plus.. but in e mist.. i heard noises la.. plus foot steps... guess i m a light sleeper... so got up ard 12 plus with a messy hair plus blur look.... after not long.. kel got up also.. so we went for BRUNCH... which was not bad.. mayb becuz was hungry... haha.... :X.... after tt.. we sat down for a chat.. till xiao di sms and asked if wanna play mj at MY PLACE... LOL

i was ok with tt option... so went bk to gather stuff and left... so on e train.. it was crowded... gosh... then finally.. got bk.. and xiao di brought 2 of his frens along.... haha... was cool.. so went to my place.. sis and dad head off with their own activities... so kel, xiao di and 2 of his frens all started playin.. i played a while.. after tt i let e gals play... so i sat ard and see their tiles and stuff... after tt.. i notice.. mayb play money will b betta.. cuz it feels like when u nv play $$.. there is like no hunger to learn and win it... haha.. i don know la.. but play for leisure also not bad la... haha... anywae.. play till ard 8 plus.. head to jalan besar stadium tt side for dinner.... and poor xiao di cldn get to eat his fav chicken wings.. cuz guess e stall was closed... sigh... so he ate somethin else....

after tt... we walked off to bus stops.. i directed xiao di and his frens e bus stop direction.. while i walked kel to his bus stop.. as it nearer to e direction to my place... so i think we waited for like 20 mins? one came.. but was full of ppl... and e bus didn open e door... and after tt.. it drove off... OMG.. BA JIU PA JIAO MAN!!! after tt.. we waited for another one again.. haha... this time was faster.. so finally he got onto e bus... but.. i guess it will b quite a pungent journey.. cuz of e "u know wad la.."-don get wad i mean.. think of e black colour? oops... anywae.. walked home... was a quiet walk bk... but was windy.. was cooling.... so when i got bk.. ON COM liao.. then online till quite late i guess.. then sleep again...

today ah.. aiyo.. don ask liao.. suppose 2 go out de... but end up.. "AH MA" buay steady.. so bo bian.. mayb nua at home will b e best thing after 2 happenin days.. LOL.... yea ppl.. so if u all r wantin to watch movies this wk or so.. go catch e movie "DEAD SILENCE" with ur frens.. pls do not scream.. as there was a sayin on e poster.. "u scream.. u die"... haha.. okok.. i don wanna scare ppl here.. not halloween yet... LOL....

ChEeRz.... :)

2007-08-19T11:38:00.000+08:00

gosh... its been a wk plus since i last update xia.. oops... anywae.. this entry is somethin tt i been SABO to do so.. so here it goes....

I've been tagged by KELVIN to do the 10 weirdest things.

Rules of the Game:
1. Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things or habits or little knownfacts of themselves.
2. People who tagged must type in a blog post of their own ten weird things or Little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.
3. At the end, you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names.
4. No tag backs allowed.

*I can almost spend 24/7 on com
*Extremely dislikes being NAGGED! (ROAR!!)
*I love jalanin ard in e nite and enjoy e nite life
*I actually juz copy and paste this quiz de.. so anyhow whack lor.. haha!!! :P
*I can b nonsense at times.. but mostly lookin too serious and fierce which scare quite a no of ppl away.. :X
*I can eat almost anythin edible....(besides some seafood and those nonsense stuff..)
*hates ppl who play games using hacks and scam ppl.. sheez.. (get a life man)
*has a small passion for bball
*I observe ppl faster than anyone else(but sometimes m too quick to judge, so forgive me)
*If ppl juz wanna find for a chat, i welcome them to chat with me... (so... does tt make me a gd listener? u all readin now shld b e judge.. i leave it to u all ba..)

People who are tagged:

1)Samantha Koh
2)Celine
3)Cheryl Lim
4)kelly
5)Faith
6)Cindy

2007-08-10T12:09:00.000+08:00

well well well... start yest ba... suppose to b a borin national day for me once again... but it didn... was plannin how m i to go jalan.. when e guys jio me go watch secret...

i was like cool.. y not... but after i agreed.. ah ma came to find me.. haha... she walked over to my place.. and as usual.. almost lose her way to my place for e 2ND TIME?!.. biangs.. my place so hard to locate meh... =_=... anywae.. yea.. then whole time.. was on my bed with e lappy..as it can go WIRELESS MAH... but e CONNECTION SUX... PUI... so bo bian.. nvm... jiang jiu yi dian ba... but hor.. ah ma squeeze with me on my bed... =_=... was squashed to one side.. haha!!! but ok la.. then it came 4 plus.. I WAS LIKE SIAO LIAO!!! GONNA B LATE!!! zi tao jump myself to shower and prepare.. then grab her and zhao out of hse... then she say she go study while waitin for her bf at bugis.. so ok lor..

i go find e guys 1st.. e 1st person who reach was jb... he was xian la.. cuz he was on time mah.. while rest of us late... oops.... :X... paiseh la.... anywae.. while havin a smoke... kel came... then as usual.. LEDGENDARY SLEEPIN BEAUTY XIAO DI is late once again.... so we head on to buy e tix 1st... BIANGS!! $9.50 xia... 10 bucks go only 50 cents come bk nia.. CHOR AH... LOL.... then finally.. xiao di reached.. then we joked a bit.. then we decided.. y not DA BAO food in... heh heh... so we head to basement and find food.. da bao da bao... then guess wad.. all put in my bag... heng got enough space xia.. if not cfm pi jiak... haha...

so we head in to cinema.. and piangs.. we all look like mah jiam pinic session xia... then some of us were hungry.. and i m one of them.. gobble gobble gobble... hahah.... e movie was gd.. thou there were some twist and turns there.. it a sort of like a mind playin movie... but was gd.. and when it came romance between jay chou and e leadin actress.. ppl in front and behind us don know y suddenly become so HIGH... =_=.... guess they muz b thinkin..." aiya... y e zhar bo not me xia??"... LOL... oops.... anywae.. after e movie we head off to watch fireworks.... da ma called me and said tt she and her bf were tryin to squeeze their way to suntec there... cuz marina sq is alr flooded... almost hav no where to turn xia..

due to heavy human traffic.. we decided to take "bus 11" to padang there.. where e scary atmosphere's supreme court is... while we crossed.. there were some policemen.. and they kpkb to shoo ppl off e pavement.... heard one of them went " cant u all understand eng?! I SAID MOVE INSIDE KEEP OFF THE ROAD AND STOP CROSSIN!" piangs.. wad xia... we alr inside liao.. u make so much noisy.. damn spoiler xia.. LOL.. anywae... we waited and waited.. and as usual.. ql got high again... take his phone and PREPARE liao.. kiasu xia.. haha.. then finally... FIREWORKS!!! and its one of e best i hav seen so far in past yrs... its damn pretty... tts y i feel.. thou fireworks takes a long time to come on... well.. as PPL say.. GOOD THINGS GOTTA WAIT DE.... haha....

after tt.. we head off to raffles city to meet da ma.. and e human traffic there was MASSIVE xia... its scary.. either u cant go down and cant go up tt kind.. its like shockingly scary... yea.. after a while.. da ma finally located us... we chatted a while.. due to e overdoze of carbon dioxide which almost killed us all.. we bid da ma bye and walked to bencoolen for a drink... and we chatted... then xiao di thot of playin dota again... LOL... wad xia.. so after a while.. we walked bk to bugis junction played an hr of dota.. well almost...

so was jb and xiao di vs kel and myself... at 1st i thot we were gonna lose.. cuz jb kill me 1st... zzz... then end up... i decided to try double team with kel.. see if it works.. and apparently there was once i accidentally kill both jb and xiao di.. oops... took kel's kill away as well... :X... yep.. in e end.. we won la.. phew.... heng ah.... after tt.. play a while of CS... OMG.. I DAMN NOOB MAN!!!! aimin sux.. zi tao kenna aim and BANG... die liao.. =_=... xian diao... after tt.. we all head for home.. while xiao di took bus bk.. i took train bk with kel and jb... piangs.. when we got in.. there were 2 person tt most of us don like la..(not gonna say wad race la)... then one of them separate jb frm us lor.. so talkin to jb was kinda xin ku.. and e smell was like all over e place... its damn PUNGENT I TELL U.... PUI.... finally i reach my stop le.. bid them bye and got myself out of train... then walk bk....

when i got bk.. was chattin online.. guess wad.. i heard drunkard foot step to e door... well.. he came bk with a foul mood.. pickin on every little thing tt get in his way... end up i kenna again lor... so b4 he shout or his salivia gets in my face again.. i gathered my lappy and my thumbdrive and out of hse i go... so was quite sux la.. then when it got borin.. i walk ard.. frm shop haven open.. till e shop doors open BIG BIG xia... haha.. well.. its been like a routine to me alr i guess.... i betta hit e bed 1st.... anywae...

ppl.. if u all got chance or wad.. do go catch e movie, secret... not becuz jay chou shuai or bribe me to lelong here la.. but i muz say.. its a worth watch movie...

heres e poster of it....

cheERZ to all... :)